I was sitting in the small living room I have in my room (we don't have beds because we don't sleep) reading a psychology book, it was interesting how you could read a human been and see if they were lying by their micro expressions, when I heard music in the end of the hall, it was coming from Edward's room, so I focused there, I could hear a heart beat, Bella's presence known in his room, I kept my eyes in the book, while my hearing in the song it was playing, Clare of moon, it was mine and Edward's favorite, I smiled closing my eyes while listening, there was a small silence form Edward and Bella, but I enjoyed the song, Edward's music always relaxed me, or when he's playing piano, it's relaxing and helps me with my self control, especially with Bella here.

I opened my gold eyes, set my book aside and left my room to Alice's, not before hearing Edward's and Bella's conversation about her not knowing how to dance

"I can't dance" she said, I chuckled and shook my head, I looked to his room where the door was opened, and I smiled amused, it was obvious Edward heard me because of what he said.

"Hmm" he made a thoughtful sound before answer "Well, I could always tell Eliza make you" I smirked amused, I could tell he heard my thoughts, because he looked behind his shoulder at me and smirked, Bella looked at me curiously, I left her with the doubt as I walked to Alice's bedroom

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Bella's POV

Edward's bedroom had no bed, I pointed at him and told me he didn't sleep, I was shocked, I mean, I knew being a vampire you didn't need nothing, but I was still surprised he didn't sleep.

I just met his family, they are kind, except Rosalie, who seems to hate me, but apart from her, all of them welcomed me kindly

I looked at Edward's room, he had to much music, I played the one he was listening before or the one in the stereo, it was Clare of moon, Edward walked towards me and grabbed my hand, I looked at him uncomfortable, I hope he doesn't make me to dance because I don't know, apparently, faith doesn't hear me, because he put his hand in my waist, the other one holding my hand, I looked at his eyes while trying to dance, he span me, I being the one who doesn't know how to dance, finished the turn weirdly, looking at him apologetically and embarrassed, he looked at me curious

"What?" He asked me amused, I was embarrassed of this, he wanted to dance with me, for crying out loud!

"I can't dance" I answered shaking a little my head, he took a deep breath, but tilted his head to the opened door and smiled amused at me

"Hmm" he made a thoughtful sound before talk "Well, I could always tell Eliza make you" he looked behind him to the door smirking, I curious looked to the door too, where Eliza, Edward's sister, stood in the stairs smirking, her golden eyes showed amusement, she was looking at Edward, not me, which told me Edward listened to her thoughts about something and she knew it, I wanted to know what Edward meant of telling Eliza to make me, but before I could ask, she left to another room, Edward looked back at me and smiled, but I was curious

"What do you mean by 'tell your sister to make me'?" He chuckled but turned serious, Eliza looked like a good person, but with self control issues, as Jasper, Edward's brother, according to him, they are new to their animal diet, I could tell she was uncomfortable with me when we were in the kitchen, maybe the others didn't note it, but I did, she was tense at the moment I entered the kitchen, I could see how tight she was holding the knife, how she looked at Dr. Cullen, Edward's father pleadingly and when she was near Jasper, far away from me, she was struggling along with Jasper their thirst, their control, so when Edward looked at me like that when I mentioned Eliza, I knew I had to be careful

"Remember I told you, some of us have different talents? Mine being I can read others thoughts and Alice see the future?" He asked me, I nodded knowing where this was going

"Eliza also has a talent, but for her, it's a curse" I looked at him questionably, he sighed "That's how she sees it, she can compel people" he said, I raised an eyebrow not understanding, he hesitated

"She... Can order people and vampires to do what she wants" he finished, I could note he was sad about his sister, but also I could see how he care for her, "But her 'gift' it's complicated, she has to be careful on what she says all the time, everything it comes from her mouth it's an order" he said quietly looking at me and I understood, Eliza never made eye contact with anybody and when I first saw the Cullen's at the cafeteria, she never talk to the others and Jessica and Angela told me she never spoke to anyone, 'the quiet brown haired girl is Eliza, she doesn't talk to anybody, she's kind of a loner', I knew now, she was protecting the others from her power, if everything was an order, I wouldn't be surprised if she didn't talk to me at all

"That's ....." I trailed off, not knowing what to say about Eliza, I thought at first she was like Rosalie, that she didn't talk to me because she hated me, but it wasn't like that, now I would like to now if she really does hate me

"I know" he smiled at sadly, he stayed quiet for a couple of seconds, I wanted to change the subject from Eliza, it was obvious he didn't want to talk about her powers, it was as uncomfortable for him as I can imagine for her

Oh" He smiled and said "And she doesn't want to make you, I could"

"I'm not scared of you" I said and I wasn't, I knew he wasn't going to hurt me, he smiled smugly and amused

"Oh you shouldn't of said that" he grabbed my arms and hold me to his back and sped out of his bedroom

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Eliza's POV

Hearing Edward talk about my curse wasn't something I was keen to do, but I wanted to know how he explained it, all he said of what I thought of my 'talent' as other vampires could classified it, it was true, I saw it as a curse, I still remember the first time when I met Carlisle, I was still a newborn, technically because I couldn't control my thirst, never could, it was like my third or fourth month as vampire, I was considered as a newbie..... And a dangerous one...

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FLASHBACK

Eliza's first months as vampire

The thirst was uncontrollable, I was afraid of what I could do, no one was here with me to teach me how to control myself, except for who turned me, he was a monster as I am now, he told me when I first turned, that this was a gift, that I was superior to the humans, I could do whatever I wanted, when I wanted and I believed it....

My strength was better than others, I was faster than others, while humans were brunettes, blondes, dark skinned people, my skin was pale, deadly and beautiful pale, people envy me, my posture, my equilibrium was better than before, I was more elegant, my pace was like a queen's, all of me was perfect, my dirty brown hair turned beautiful, it never knot itself again, it was perfect, there were only two things I didn't like from this new me:

1. My red blood eyes

2. The thirst

It was the worst, especially when I never learned how to control it, I had to hide in the shadows, it wasn't normal to see a 17 year old girl alone in the streets, at night with red eyes, the guy who turned me was at first nice with me, he bought me pretty dresses, after all it was the 1920's, I had to dress nicely, I was used to the routine, it was my fourth month, I think, he turned me, i never used my 'gift' on him, he didn't even knew it existed, when I discovered it, was in the end of my first week of being turned when I was feeding from someone, I was hungry and that woman was alone, so was I, but it was more dangerous for her, so I approached her silently, until I appeared in front of her, I was shaking, I don't wanted to do that to her, but I knew I wouldn't be able to stop, so when she jumped startled, her heart beat increased, it was the only thing I could hear, I looked at her neck and I saw her back away from me, I saw the fear in her eyes when she met mines, she opened her mouth to scream and I panicked

"Don't scream" I didn't now what I was doing, her eyes clouded gray and she closed her mouth, the gray disappeared and she had a dazed look in her eyes, she kept backing away trying to scream, I was confused and saw she was near the street, where I could lose her

"Don't move and come closer" I told her again, trying to see if it could work, I was surprised when she obeyed me when I told her not to scream and I wanted to know if she would obey me again, to my surprise she did, her eyes clouded again with grey while she did what I told her and when she stopped in front of me, the grey left her eyes and turned to their blue color with still a dazed look on them, I was to hungry to be surprised, and bite her neck, again I was surprised she didn't make a sound....

That's when I found out my power, at first it was a gift for me, it was useful at the time to feed, I had fun with the people I killed, I still had the remorse but having fun with them made it a little easier, i never treated them bad.
I never told him of my gift and he never asked me if I had one, it was like that for the next 4 months.
When my gift turned a curse was when people started to take everything and I mean EVERYTHING it came out of my mouth as an order, at first I had to make eye contact to order them, but then even the smallest word, they took it as an order, all went bad I made unwillingly two people kill each other, there was a group of people with me, two men and three women, it was horrible, the worst I could've done, that's when Carlisle found me, he wasn't alone I remember, but he found me alone, I was covering my red eyes with my hands, I had them closed, thinking if I had them closed and covered, it wouldn't turn real what I did, if could've cried in that moment, I would've, but no tear came, not even a sob.

I was in the corner of the alley, hidden in the shadows of the wall, where no one would see my guilt form their deaths when I felt a hand in my shoulder, I tensed slightly, not wanting to look up to the person that was going to judge me

"It's okay, don't be afraid, I won't hurt you" I heard a kind voice, belonging to man, Oh! How wrong he was, he was telling me to not be afraid of him that he wouldn't hurt me when I easily could order him his own death

"It's you who should be afraid, from me" I said it as quietly as I could, not wanting to be an order, "I'm a monster, just leave before you end like them" I raised my head to look at him but never opened my eyes, I didn't want to look at his face and make him do something he wouldn't do

"Open your eyes, child" he said kindly, I shook my head, knowing I would freak him out, he took my hands in him, his hands were cold as mine, I furrowed my eyebrows, not feeling him differently from those humans, his body temperature was like mine, he was like me, I looked down his hands in mines opening my red eyes slowly, his hands were pale, not a difference from mines, one of his hands traveled to my chin and lifted it, so he could see my face, I wanted to turn my face down again, but his grip was strong, almost like mine, I looked at his eyes, expecting them to be a blue, brown or green color, but they were golden, an unnatural golden like my unnatural red, he was blond, his skin was pale like mine, his beauty was notorious like mine, he was like me, I couldn't hear his heart beat, he was an undead too, like me, a Vampire.

But unlike me, his eyes, that was the difference.

He looked down at me smiling kindly, but he was still alert, I flickered my eyes away form his face, I didn't want to force him

"I won't hurt ..." He started talking but I cut him off

"I'm not worried about me, but about you, if you won't hurt me, thank you, but I will, even if I don't want to" the last was whisper, expecting him not to hear it, I wanted to scare him, to leave me alone, but seeing his face I noted he did

"How are you gonna hurt me?" I closed my eyes, knowing if I kept talking I would

"If I keep talking" he looked confused, he stood and took my arms with him, making me stand too

"Would you explain that?" He asked me, I bit my lip and shook my head, not wanting to order him, I saw him nod

"Are you a newborn?" He asked me again, I looked at him, confusion written in my face "When were you turned?" He corrected his question, I looked down trying to remember

"Four months ago" I answered looking down.

"No one has teach you?" He asked me with surprised tone

"What?" I asked looking up

"Control your thirst" he said sternly but kind at the same time, I shook my head looking at the bodies, guilt coming to me again, the man put himself in front of me hiding the bodies from my sight

"I can't, I've tried, but I can't" I said sadly, the man out his strong hand in my shoulder, making me look up at his kind golden eyes

"Alone?" I nodded my head

"You won't be able to alone, you need someone" he offered me his hand, I looked at it surprised and looked at him unsure

"Do you see my eyes? The golden?" I nodded my head and he smiled

"I had this diet, I don't drink human blood" my eyes widened at his statement, how was it possible, he smiled at my reaction

"It's possible, dear, I drink from animals, animal blood" it made sense, it was blood after all

"I could teach you how if you come with me" I looked up startled, not seeing his invitation coming, I mean he said he would help me, but he never mentioned me to go with him

"If I...?" I trailed off

"If you come with me, you look like you don't have a place to live, you could live with me and my wife"

There were more like me, his wife? Could she be a vampire too?

"Her name is Esme, she would love to have a girl with us" I looked confused

"Us?"

"Me and my son, Edward" he had a family.

"Uh..." I trailed off awkwardly

"They are not my real family, if that's what you are wondering, like I said, I could help you"

I accepted and met Edward and Esme, they were close with me because I was new in their clan and besides technically a newborn, who couldn't control her thirst and even if they supported me, they were afraid of me, even now....

I always had a trouble with human blood

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Remembering that day always made me happy, it was when I met my family, well a part of it, Rosalie, Emmett, Alice and Jasper came in a near future, where I always struggled with human blood, I was surprised when Carlisle suggested me and Jasper to go to school in this town, we were the only ones in the family that had fed more than a couple of days human blood when they were turned, me having 4 months of human blood while Jasper who knows, maybe more than a year or maybe more