Part - 6 Analytical Realization
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Her eyes fluttered open as if her body was her own personal alarm. Although she had slept in the wee hours of morning in her amma's warm embrace, after pouring her heart out, her mind refused to sleep for long because her closed eyes were seeing the same dream again & again.
She looked to her other side, her amma was not there. Must have left to help babuji with his morning routine. Slowly she slipped out of her bed & moved towards the half open window & opened it fully to let the morning fresh air to come in. She spread her hands a bit, closed her eyes & took deep breaths to satiate her lungs.
Slowly she opened her eyes & looked towards the sky. The sky was myriad of colors. Just like the myriad of emotions in her heart. She hugged herself & continued to stare the sky. Her trance was broken when she felt a tap on her shoulder & saw her jiji standing besides her. Both sisters shared the silence for some time.
"I'm fine jiji." Khushi assured her jiji as she knew her concern.
"I know Khushi. I know my sister is very strong & will come out of this difficult situation." said Payal putting her hand on Khushi's cheek.
The sisters shared a camaraderie, where they didn't need more words to understand each others predicament. Neither they needed above the top actions to console the other.
They hugged each other warmly, as if gaining strength from the other to cope up with the difficult situation.
Payal cupped her sisters' face & looked lovingly at her. "No matter what, I will always support you in any situation thrown towards us. You will always find me besides you."
"I know jiji." replied Khushi with a smile, putting her hands over her jiji's. Payal kissed her sisters' forehead & asked her to freshen up & come for breakfast. Everybody is waiting for her at the dining table.
Although Khushi has lost her appetite, she knew if she want eat then her family will also starve,which won't be good for her babuji's health as he has to take his medicines.
"Yes jiji. I will join you all in a while after freshening up." Payal nodded & left from there to inform the same to the others.
Breakfast was a silent affair as they didn't want to discuss over the previous days mishap because they didn't want their Khushi to get upset as she was looking a bit stable then yesterday & they didn't want her to leave without finishing her breakfast as she was eating after almost 24 hours. They new that her normalcy is just a facade to show to the family & not to make them worry for her. They also wanted to give her some time to come in terms with the situation.
But Khushi was very much aware with the concerned stares of her family every now & then. So she decided to break the ice.
"Amma, why didn't you take babuji for his today's physio session? As it is, due to the marr... she paused for a moment, gulped down a lump & continued, due to marriage preparations, he has already missed quite a few sessions, which is not good for his improving health condition. Amma please, now no more neglecting his health. You please start with the session today onwards."
"But bitiya, how can we leave you alone & go. We will start after a few days, once you are OK." Garima couldn't stop herself from showing her concern.
"Amma, I know you all are worried for me. But believe me I am fine as I have accepted the truth of my broken marriage. I want you all to do the same & move on with our daily routine. The sooner we will move on the sooner we all will come to normalcy. We can't sit & keep crying over whatever happened & let those mishaps ruin our life further." Khushi tried to explain.
Seeing the determination in her eyes her family decided to support her & not fuss over the issue
"OK bitiya. If you want so then we will do exactly the same." replied Garima caressing Khushi's hair lovingly.
"Buaji, why didn't you go to the temple today? I know there is a satsang starting from today onwards & I also know how much you love to hear the preechings. So you are also going to attend the same." Khushi almost ordered buaji to which buaji agreed for the first time without arguing with her sankadevi.
"You all please don't worry about me. Jiji will be there with me in your absence..I will be fine. Just need some time to digest the happenings. Believe me I will come around. I have been through worst before." The family understood that she was talking about her parents accidental death.
This much assurance was enough for them to let her be on her own for some time. So they decided to carry on with whatever she asked them to do.
After sending her parents & buaji, Khushi went back to her room. Understanding her sisters' need for some alone time, Payal moved to the kitchen to prepare lunch.
Entering into her room Khushi's feet automatically moved towards the Salman Khan poster she had once stuck on one of the walls of her room. Few days prior to her marriage she had cut out Arnav's face from one of his pic & had stucked it on Salman Khan's face. As she was now going to become his forever.
She slowly caressed Arnav's face over the pic & a lone tear rolled down her eyes. She shut her eyes tight to stop more tears from falling.
Opening her eyes she stared at Arnav's face & couldn't stop herself from asking, "Why Arnavji, why?" But she knew she is not going to get any answer as his pic is as stubborn as him.
Wiping her tears she moved towards her dressing table to clean it under the pretext of keeping herself busy from his disturbing thoughts. Her eyes caught her reflection in the mirror & she gasped covering her mouth with her palm.
Habitual to applying sindoor & wearing mangalsutra everyday, she did the same today too forgetting about her broken marriage. Her family must have noticed it too but must have neglected mentioning it deliberately. She touched her sindoor & mangalsutra, which are the symbols of a married woman. But does she have those rights now to wear them? What is she now in real sense? Married or an unmarried woman!! But whom is she kidding!! She gave herself a sarcastic smile because by her heart, soul & body she still feels & thinks herself as his wife.
How she wishes she could go back in time & wipe out each & every memory related to him!! From the day she fell in his arms at Sheesh Mahal till his phone call at the alter. She wants to forget everything, accept that one night when they became one in every sense.
That night she could see in his eyes & gestures, how much he desires her. But still he was suppressing them, respecting her morals & values. But she trusted him & surrendered herself, succumbed into his & her own desires.
She could still feel the tender touches & caresses of his hands & lips on every inch of her skin. He was no where wild but extremely gentle on her. He made love to her as if worshipping her body. The way he introduced her to the world of ecstasy was forever unforgettable.
After the passion subsided, the concern in his eyes for hurting her in throes of passion, the smooth caresses & blows to soothe her pain, whispering sweet nothings in her ears to make her feel better was all she would never want to forget her entire life.
She touched her lips & she could still feel the warmth of his lips. Was it that easy for him to forget every thing including the heart warming intimacy they shared?
Was it that easy for him to break all the strings that tied their heart, soul & body to the other?
His heartbreaking nasty words said over the phone came rushing to her memory lane.
'Khushi, each & every moment spend with you will be counted in the worst memories of my life.'
Then what about those sweet & passionate memories of the poolside & at the farm house!!
'I so wish I would have never met you & never let you in.'
Then why did you take me back forcefully when I myself had left your house for your own good?
'I don't regret for abusing you, torchuring you & manhandling you.'
Then why did you come to apologize to me in the middle of the night, here in my house? Why did you regretted & apologised for each & every nastiness of yours towards me?
'How I love seeing tears in your eyes, seeing you cry.'
Then why were you not able to hear me cry even over the phone, when you were kidnapped & you called me from the kidnappers dungeon Arnavji?
'Why did you enter my life Khushi Kumari Gupta? You are indeed the biggest mistake of my life.'
Then why did you get angry when I had said that one day I will slip out of your hands like sand & run away?
'I hate you Khushi. Go away from me & never come back.'
Then why did you tell me at the farm house that not to leave you ever? You won't be able to live without me.
'I hate you Khushi, I hate you.'
Then why did you confessed that night on the terrace that you love me dammit?
With each & every memory her sobs were increasing into wails. She hurriedly went to the door & closed it, not wanting her jiji to hear her crying. She sat on the bed, covering her face with her palms trying to muffle her sobs.
'How can you say such things to me Arnavji? How can you humiliate our love after whatever we have been through? After overcoming so many obstacles there was nothing unwanted between us.'
'You had shed your ego, arrogance, rudeness, ruthlessness & every bad emotion which had led you to commit the biggest mistake against me, when you saw me & that vile Shyam together on the terrace & you made my life a living hell with a mere assumption of yours. But then our love overcomed everything & reached the heights of faith, trust & togetherness, where we couldn't even imagine a life without each other.'
'Then how a sudden revelation of past pushed you back to what you were towards me? Was my amma's unintentional mistake so big that your love turned into hatred in an instant & you said those words which I didn't even imagine to hear from you in my worst nightmare.'
I HATE YOU KHUSHI. GO AWAY FROM MY LIFE & LIVE YOUR LIFE PEACEFULLY & LET ME LIVE MINE. GO AWAY TO NEVER COME BACK.
'Is it that easy for you Arnavji? Will you be able to live without me because I can't even imagine my life without you Arnavji. I can't. How can you imagine me living peacefully without you Arnavji? How can..... Suddenly somthing striked in her mind & she stood up from the bed horrified, repeating the same words.'
GO AWAY KHUSHI.
LIVE YOUR LIFE PEACEFULLY.
LIVE PEACEFULLY.
PEACEFULLY.
Realization dawned upon her after analyzing his words. She wiped her tears with conviction of not letting them fall again. Her body vibrated with enthusiasm & her eyes sparkled with new found determination.
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Arnav was getting ready for office wearing his three piece suit. He opened the drawer of his wardrobe to take out his cufflinks & his eyes landed on a silver box which contained his most prized possessions. He took it in his hands & opened it slowly. There were symbols of her remembrance. Few pearls of her blouse dori, a piece of her broken chudi, a piece of her torn dupatta & a mannat ki chabi.
All these things along with her left behind clothes were the only solace for his bleeding heart. A tear rolled down his eyes & fell in the box emerging in the piece of her dupatta. Before he could wipe his eyes he heard his mobile ringing on the laptop table. Taking a deep breath, giving one last look to her things in the box, he closed it, kept it back in its place,closed the drawer & the wardrobe & went to receive the call.
Seeing the pic & the name of the caller he froze on his place. "Khushi". Is he hallucinating because after whatever happened yesterday, whatever he told her over the phone, her calling him was next to impossible. He was in his thoughts & the ring went dead. He sighed in relief as well as disappointment. But he was too soon to react as the phone rang again & it was Khushi again. He couldn't believe that its really her call but it's her call really. A sudden urge to receive her call & hear her voice after almost 24 hours shot through him. But he controlled himself & let the ring go dead. But as if Khushi was out to test his patience, his phone vibrated again with the loud ring & her name & pic as caller.
Now he was forced to think, why is she calling him again even after 2 failed attempts. 'Is she alright? Is something wrong with her? Hell everything is wrong with her by your grace ASR,' chided his heart & mind.
Again the ring went off. He decided to switch off his phone but before he could proceed with the idea, again it was Khushi calling. Now he has to receive it. What if something is wrong? Dreading the worst he swiped the green button but before he could utter a word, Khushi was quick to shoot as usual.
"Meet me at your Mamma's garden in an hour & if you are even a minute late then be ready to collect my dead body from there." ordering him athoratively, Khushi cut the call without giving him a chance to inquire anything.
"What the" how dare she threatened him with her life. Undescribable & uncontrollable anger shot through his veins & he called her back to give her earful. But Khushi had outrighted him in smartness & had switched off her phone. He tried again but the result was the same.
Scared to wits, he pocketed his phone, grabbed his car keys, without bothering to take his jacket he rushed out of his room to reach his mamma's garden before Khushi's given estimated time gets over.
As soon as Khushi ordered Arnav to meet her at the garden, she cut the call & switched it off that instant not giving him any chance to call her back. After hearing her threat, she was damn sure he will definitely come to meet her. An evil smile played on her lips thinking of the way she is going to confront him.
"You owe me an explanation if not apology, Mr Arnav Singh Raizada."
"Get ready to face KHUSHI KUMARI GUPTA SINGH RAIZADA ".
To be continued.....
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Sorry guys for the late update. But I have compensated it with the longest update of all.
I would like to appreciate @penbegungor1 for recognizing the correct hint I mentioned about in the previous update. Though not completely but her assumption is partially correct.
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