Rajveer Sirrrrrrr................................

Jerks Naina out of her dream... Sweating profusely.....
Giving blank looks here and there she tried to get rid of the flashes that are getting displayed in her inner mind..
What a horrible dream it was! It really was a horrible dream..... She tried to compose get escalated heart beats...

Wiping off the sweat beads those were making their path from her forehead towards her chin, she turned left to fetch herself a glass of water... But.... Her left side is vacant!

It was then she realised that she was lying on the bed in her bedroom at Nainital and not in KMA hostel....
She turned her head on the other side.. To her utter dismay... The jug was empty...

She slowly carried the jug in her hands, latched the door open and walked to the kitchen to fill the empty space in the jug with water..

But what about the empty space in her heart?

She turned to get back to her room just to find her Baba standing behind her..
Baba... Aap soye nahi? She asked.

Kya baat hai beta? Jab se aayi ho kuch pareshan si dikh Rahi ho.. Naina.... Kya hua beta? Apne Baba Ko nahi bataogi? He asks looking directly into her eyes...
Well Naina is still her little daughter and he can easily read each beat of hers..  And just the mere feeling of her in certain distress worries him more..

Kuch nahi baba... Bus ek Bura Sapna tha... Replies Naina, trying not to look into his eyes..

Tumhe pata hai Mai sapne k baare mein nahi pooch Raha hoon.... Sach batao Naina kya baat hai? Tum.... Yunhi achanak KMA se yaha?
Aur jabse aayi ho pareshan ho....
Says her father holding her shoulder.. A way to convey his feelings, that no matter what happens.. He will be with her.. always . ..

Kuch nahi baba... Aap bekar pareshan ho rahe ho.. Mai bilkul theek hoon..
She tries to smile looking at her father... She tries to console her father with her empty words...

Her father kept staring at her without uttering a word.. as if his gaze would read all her inner mind... Unable to meet his gaze Naina moves a few steps ahead.....

Woh baba... Bohat Dino se soch Rahi thi Nainital aungi... Aage kuch din Diwali k liye classes off bhi hai.. toh isliye.... Isliye chali ayi..
Woh .. Aap logo se Milne ka Dil kar Raha tha bohat....She tried to find a good excuse... To find a reason that her Baba would believe.....hiding her mental distress to herself...

Theek hai beta... Tu keh rahi hai to maine maan Lia.. Lekin Alekh aur Rajveer Ko sath kyu nahi bulaya? Phone par to humesha Alekh aur Rajveer Sir karti Rehti hai . Woh dono bhi aate to Hume achcha lagta..
Khair.... Agli Baar bulana zaroor... Said her father remembering how happy and gay Naina used to be while speaking about her Rajveer Sir and Alekh to them...

Baba Rajveer sir kisi mission par busy the...... Lied Naina... Her voice did tremble a bit.....but that mild shiver got un noticed by her father..

Theek hai beta Abhi jaake soja.. raat kafi ho chuki hai... said her father...

JEE Baba.. aap bhi jaiye... She said and started walking towards her room in a hurry... A trial to escape her father, who would sooner read her... After all he is her father...

Naina........ Called her father suddenly making her turn towards him in surprise... Looking at her, he walked a few steps ahead.... Smiling a bit he looked directly into her eyes.....
Beta, koi pareshani ho to batana.. Mai ek dost ki tarah Salah de sakta hoon.. maine yeh zindagi tujhse zyada dekha hai..sahi aur galat ki Pehchan tujhse zyada hai.. Naveen to ab wapis nahi aa Sakta.. Mai tujhe dukhi aur ghunt te huye nahi dekh sakta.. patting her head lovingly, planting a feathery kiss on her forehead he said again.... Ja beta... Soja....

Jee baba.. Goodnight.... Are the only three words that escaped her vocal chord before she left for her room...

Baba yeh kya bol rahe the? Kya baba Ko kuch pata hai? She asks herself.. Nahi.... Baba Ko kaise pata hoga? She answers herself again!

Gulping down two glasses of water couldn't help her get rid of the suffocating atmosphere that has built around her.... She came near the window to open the panes ajar.... There...... The night was cloudy.....roaring winds indicated storm would hit any moment soon!

Storm.... That has built up both inside her and outside in the nature as well.. the storm outside would loose its power after few hours before it gets calm... But what about the storm that has built inside since that fateful day? What about the storm that is gaining power each passing second inside her? What about the storm that is not letting her breath peacefully? What about that storm which is eating her from inside just like termites? Well someone has rightly said 'Things that you save on your heart eat you alive'...
And Naina needs to vent out all to live... To breath... To sleep peacefully..

Mai itni uljhan mein kyu phansi hoon? Kyu Mai kuch decide nahi kar Paa Rahi hoon? Kyu?
Mai KMA gayi thi bhaiya k katil Ko dhundne.. Jab aj mujhe pata hai kaun hai wo shaks, kyu mai us Insan Ko saza nahi de Rahi hoon? Kyu?

Tears escape her eyes... After such a long time... There outside it begins to rain.... Seems nature feels her dilemma too!

Aj jab mujhe pata hai Rajveer sir ne Naveen bhaiyya Ko mujhse dur Kia tha kyu mera Dil kehta hai maaf kardoon unhe? Kyu mera Dil unke kahe huye har labs par yakeen karna chahta hai? Kyu? She starts weeping....

Bhaiyya....... She shouts...... Tears escape her eyes like summer tempest...

Bahiyya aap kaha ho bhaiya? Bhaiya aap sun sakte ho kya?? She sobs harder sitting on the floor..... The rough breeze making the wind chyme tingle loud ..

Bhaiyya aapki Gudiya aj kamzoor parh gayi.... Aap ki gudiya aapki gunehgar Ko saza nahi de payi... Aapki Gudiya haar gayi bhaiya.... Haar gayi....haar gayi Apne Dil k samne... Pyaar kar baithi unse..... Beintehaa Mohabbat...

Lekin... Lekin nahi.... Mai haar nahi Sakti... Woh admi jhoothe hai... Fareb hai.... Dhoka diya hai mujhe... Faida uthaya hai mere akelepan ka.... Main aapke Doshi Ko kaise maaf kare Sakti hoon? Nahi kar Sakti... Kabhi nahi.... Fire in her eyes again...

She stands up holding the window pane.... The gun shot echoes in her ears.... The gun shot that has taken her Naveen Bhaiyya away from her... That gun shot that has made her Rajveer Sir a murderer!

Nahi.... Mai us fareb se pyaar nahi kar Sakti.... Kabhi nahi.... Mujhe Captain Rajveer Singh Sekhawat Ko saza Dena padega... Kisi bhi keemat par... Naveen Bhaiyya k kalai me bandhi huyi meri Rakhi itni kamzor nahi thi ke woh Dil ke samne majboor ho jaaye.... Kabhi nahi..... Those hazel orbs are burning bright in the fire of revenge... Revenge from Rajveer...

A determined Naina turns around to go to bed when suddenly her eyes fell on the half filled jug beside her bed.... And her dream started playing on the canvas of her mind.... Exact flashbacks... Blood drenched Rajveer dying in front of her.... His one arm totally lost.... Bright are only those pair of intense eyes..... smiling at her....'Naina...maine Naveen k guneh garon Ko saza de Dia.... Naina mere Dil se aj Naveen k khoon ka bojh utar Gaya... aj Mai chain ki saas le sakta hoon....bhalei woh SaaS akhri kyu na ho... mujhe mere maut par koi afsos nahi... Mai aj Naveen k paas Jaa Raha hoon... Naina... Mujhe maaf kardena... Naina....un logo ne mujhse mera sab kuch cheen lia tha... Mera dost... Mera career...mera pya....' and those pair bright eye closes... Permanently... Leaving a lingering smile kissing his lips... His face looks sooo Devine... So pure..... ecstatic... Like a baby sleeping in his mother's arms.... And unknowingly a shiver runs down her spine... Her eyes turn moist again...

Nai.... Mai Rajveer sir Ko aise nahi dekh Sakti... Kabhi nahi....
Rajveer sir Ko Mai kuch nahi hone de Sakti.... I can't afford to loose him... Kahin yeh Sapna sach hua to???? She shivers again....

Nahi.... Yeh Sapna sach nahi ho sakta .. Rajveer sir mujhe chhorke nahi Jaa sakte... Kabhi nahi... Unhone wada Kia tha mujhse k woh har kadam par mere saath honge... Toh woh mujhe beech raste kaise chhor sakte hain? She starts crying again.. sitting on the bed pulling her folded knees more towards herself she tried to find peace...

Dilemma which she is in... Dilemma of brothers love on one hand and own love on the other....

The innocent soul getting pressed and churned...tattered and torn...

Jung ladna asan hota hai jab Dushman samne ho... Wohi Jung Sabse mushkil hota hai jab woh Apne aap se lada jaaye... Kyuki Apne aapse ladi huyi Jung me nuksan humesha khood ka hi hota hai...

Naina........... Beta......... Ro mat.... Mai hoon tere saath....
A soothing touch made Naina to look front...just to find her Baba who's eyes carried emotions and tears no less!