A pinch of smile, a hint of regret
Body matted in red
That is the dream, what it feels like to be free
but that is not me.
Covered in my own fear,
Yet, I feel it crawling near.

This thoughts told to be shameful,
I see it as beautiful.
Maybe that was my downfall..
Answering its call.
How can I refuse,
when all I've ever known was its abuse

I have lived this life full of sorrow,
Not really caring about tomorrow,
realizing it might never come
Because each night I come undone,
I edge a little deeper, bleed a little more
So close to deciding I can't take it anymore

Every breath you take, it hurts me
And you can't see
I was just a long lived disappointment in your eyes
and I tried to live in the lies
But they were temporary,
There was no hail mary,
In the end, I was just me.
I'm sorry I couldn't be what you wanted me to be

I was just an apologetic fool,
No more than a tool,
you didn't even bother to hide it
You knew I'd do everything you said,
So far gone
I didn't know where I belong

And now, in the end I'm lost, I'm hurt
Wasting away among the dirt
Seems like you won,
I was broken all along...