(HHHHHHhhhh-- okay so my dumbass hasn't updated this in months and I apologize for my laziness and wacky ass schedule, Also quick  warning: this chapter includes self harm and memories of a past abuse the reader has, Also GAAAAAASPPPPPP, THE WORST THING IMAGINABLE!!! MY.. OC!!! HOW AWFUL! Lmao but seriously if you are a angry ass beaver with a issue with everything in the world then I would not suggest reading this chapter :0 I'll be putting up a warning for my oc in the beginning of chapters she's actually in to avoid the angry beavers who think literally everything people do is cringy or some shit like that, mkay well enjoy the story my lovelies :) )

Your pov 

   Ever since I got back to Toxic's house, I couldn't stop thinking about.. certain things, as much as I tried to avoid these negative thoughts they always came flooding back to me, surrounding my brain with the worst possible memories.. especially of  my ex.. it's been a while since we broke up but I can't seem to forget him, he was cruel and rude to my friends and me, he'd constantly flirt with other women, and if I had a problem with that he'd yell at me and leave bruises on my skin as if I was a canvas that needed to be filled with purple and blue. I began to tear up at the thought that I might meet someone like that again.. but who am I saying?.. it's my fault I got him so angry.. I should've kept quiet— "hey  (y/n)... are you alright?" I heard a voice snap me out of my thoughts and I turned to see a very worried Toxic, her eyes reminded me of how a mother looks at her sick or injured child, with love and a urge  to help more than anything. "Oh! Yeah I'm fine, no worries." I put on a smile but she certainly wasn't buying that. "(Y/n)  (l/n) I can tell when something is wrong, it won't help to bottle it up, that will make it worse. I sighed and let out a small chuckle, she always said that but I knew it was true, leaving emotions like that to fester will make them so much more worse and harmful. I then looked her in the eyes and muttered "toxic, if I tell you this.. you have to promise to not tell a living soul.." I said in a dead serious tone as she nodded with that same look in her eyes "I swear on my life." I then let it all out at once, watching the expressions on her face as I did so, she had a mix of concern, anger, and sadness. She never liked seeing the people she loved hurt like this, sure she was lazy occasionally, tended to forget about responsibilities (such as updating wattpad books—) and had a dark humor but she also knew how to take things seriously. She nodded as I finished telling her and gave me a warming look. "Don't ever blame yourself for what he did okay? He was a total ass who didn't deserve a amazing girl like you. And I hope he suffers for what he did... no one should ever have to go through that.. and well, If it's okay with you, I'd like to get you some private therapy. It might help, this is the same therapist that's helped many people deal with their depression and past trauma a lot better than before. So he might help you too." I nodded "well.. if you think that's best then.. I'll go." I smiled slightly which seemed to bring her relief as she smiled back. "Alright.. oh by the way, you got a package today but it's from a unknown sender? I checked to make sure it wasn't a bomb no worries." She chuckled, I smiled "thanks toxic, I'll take a look at it." I saw it on the table where she usually put mail for me so we didn't mix it up by mistake and grabbed the small package and began to open it as toxic had already left. But to my surprise all in the box was just a letter.. I hesitantly pulled it out and read it as my skin paled with fear.

"I know where you are.."

(Okay so um.. I think the main reason I haven't been writing is because I just lost interest in eddsworld again, I'll try to finish this book but the eddsworld oneshots is coming to a end. And I'd like to work on things that are enjoyable to me and you all, because I really hate having to make you guys wait a super long time for a chapter. And at the moment I'm back in the undertale fandom and now in the deltarune fandom. So if you guys would like to see undertale or delta rune stuff let me know! I'd be happy to make one shots books for each but obviously no lemons haha.)