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(On TomTord amino)

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[TordEdd]
[Tord x Edd]

🚨•WARNING•🚨
•Sucide attemps•
•Cutting•
•Some blood•
•Mention of TordMatt•

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Edd POV

I sighed, sitting down on the door steps for my house. You might think I'm stupid but, I forgot my keys to the house when I left, and well the only people home right now is tom, and matt. Tord is at the store...again.

Earlier I texted Tom to come down and let me in, and oh boy is he taking his time. That was 10 minutes ago.

Finally, the door opened, reveling a tired looking Tom standing at the doorway. I turned around, standing up. I smiled at him, walking past him, inside.

I turned around, facing Tom when he shut the door behind him.

"So, why did it take that long to come and let me in?" I asked, tilting my head slightly.

"You're aren't worth my time, that's why" he mumbled, heading up the flight of stairs.

I hung my head low, feeling a slight pang in my chest. Feeling hurt, but shrugging it off I made my way upstairs and going to my room.

Tears brimmed the corner of my eyes as I sat down on my bed.

I shoved my hands into my hoodie pockets, feeling the pocket knife I had always brought everywhere with me.

I sighed, taking it out. I scanned it, looking over at it.

"It could help.." I mumbled to myself. I sighed, putting it back in my hoodie "it was only one comment...".

I groaned, laying back on my bed, closing my eyes, and soon falling asleep.

(Suicide Attempt)
~dream/Flashback~

I smiled up at the sky, my legs dangling off the edge of the school roof. 'today is the day I'm going to end my suffering'. I took a deep breath in, closing my eyes. All memories with me, and my friends flashed through my mind, remembering all the good, and fun times we had. I opened my eyes, this time looking down. I frowned thinking of how my friends will feel when I'm gone. I sighed closing my eyes, hearing 3 words that's keep repeating in my head.

'they won't notice'

I opened my eyes, leaning forward, about to let go, and end it here. Just then I was snapped backwards. I closed my eyes shut, waiting for the impact of the ground to hit. Instead I felt something warm, and comforting. I opened my eyes, looking up to see a familiar pair of grey eyes. He looked like he was about to break any minute, eyes glassy. "T-Tord?" I asked, my voice cracking a bit. In response, he wrapped his arms around my waist, nuzzling into my back. He started to cry uncontrollably, not letting go. "Y-you idiot-" he mumbled, enough for me to hear "w-we do care about you..". He chuckled lightly at the end, but ended up sobbing to nce again. I didn't respond, I just sat there, tears threatening to spill any second. Once tord calmed down he turned me so I could face him. I avoided his gaze, looking down. A sigh escaped his lips. He held my chin up, looking into my teary eyes. He smiled down at me. "Edd..no matter what you're going through..please stay long enough until I can tell you the truth..." Confused but understanding I nodded with a smile, tears finally streaming down my face. He pulled me into a hug, his fingers running through my messy brown hair. I leaned into the touch, hugged back, sobbing uncontrollably.

~end of dream/flashback~

That was 10 years ago...And ever since then, now he became even closer to matt. And it makes me have the feeling they're more than just friends.

...

I opened my eyes, suddenly having the courage to confess to tord after this long.

I smiled slightly, getting up from the bed, and walking towards the door. About to turn the door knob I heard the front door shut, and some footsteps running downstairs followed by a; "Tord!"

I frowned, my hand on the door knob. Matt is down there..

Anger flowed through my veins, opening my door, and quickly running downstairs only to stop half way. My heart stopped, tears starting to fall.

There stood tord and matt kissing, Matt having his arms wrapped around tord's neck.

Covering my mouth to muffle my sobs, and quickly running up to my room.

Every sound in the house was blocked out that I didn't hear someone yell my name.

...

I slammed my door shut, locked. I grabbed my pocket knife from my hoodie, sliding down the door and rolled up my sleeve.

One cut "he loves me

Two cuts " he loves me not"

.......

I groaned feeling banging on the other side of the of the door.

"Edd! Open up!"

I ignored him, getting up causing the knife to fall.

I went over to the closet, pulling out some rope I've been saving. Still ignoring the aggressive banging, I pulled out my chair from my desk. Quickly getting on it, and tying the rope to the ceiling.

3rd person POV

The movement of the chair caused tord to stop and listen. His mind filling with possiblites of what he was doing in there.

Tord's eyes widened finally understanding what Edd is doing. He started banging on the door harder, ramming into the door himself.

On the other side of the door was Edd, pulling the noose he made around his head.

He smiled up at the ceiling, tears streaming down his face.

Edd kicked down the chair right when the door was knocked down, tord came running in. Tord stood there, heart shattered and tears started to stream down his face.

He shook his head, running up to Edd and quickly untying the noose around his neck.

He took in Edd's state, visible tear streaks on his face. Tord looked down at Tom's arm's, seeing visible cuts, blood gushing from the wounds.

Tears streamed down tord's face. Tord held Edd close, repeatedly saying "I love you".
For the first time Edd smiled, one last smile. A true smile.

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