" You already did "

{ I said with a smirk and before he could react I used my spiritual powers against him and punched him hard }

He laughs a silly laugh and then asks me " What's this for ?? "

Tell me the fu*king reason why I have these broken memories ?? You fu*king son of a bitch .. Who are you ??

You di*khead ..

He holds my hands firmly and pushes me back to the trunk of a tree .. Why do I see love and guilt in his eyes but in my memories I just saw longing for someone or something ? Like he is desperately in need of help in my memories ..

His piercing gaze sent chills down my spine as he again moves closer to me ..

He touches his forehead with mine and breathes heavily ..

" I am sorry .. Don't leave me ... You know what , I can give you the entire world if you want except that as*hole Han Shou .. Please just give me a chan- "

Before he could finish his lines I again attacked him and still he didn't defended himself ..

He is not an as*hole ! You are !!!

Again he moves closer to me and I found myself bursting into tears ..

Again he touches his forehead with mine and tries to calm me down .. He rubs his both thumb over my ears back and forth .. I don't know why but I found his touch , the way he calmed me down comfortable .. Like he perfectly knows how to calm me down ..

After a few minutes he whispers to me ...

I don't want you to die because of me , Xiao Qian ... Now I don't want you to break the barrier .. Now I only want you to live for me ..

What are you talking about ?? Why would I die for you ?? What barrier - ?

He smiles and pulls his forehead away from me and says ..

You don't need to know right now .. Go back home .. I know you must be feeling devastated right now , you just stabbed him .. I know that you were not in your senses at that time ... Give time to yourself ..

Learn to love yourself , you are not bad .. It's just the situation that made you look bad ..

His words strike me like a bolt of lightning .. Yeah I stabbed him..

I managed to murmur out a complete sentence ..

W .... Who are .... YOU ??

He sighs in irritation and then attacked the tree in another direction with his weapon .. It was something , I never saw or heard of ..

It was a medium sized ring shape of weapon but the ends were not connected .. It's colour was purple and silver metallic .. In first glance it looked like a Crescent moon .. It's edged were very sharp .. And with a burst of energy the tree was cut down into two pieces ..

This man was so gentle a second ago and now .... He is terrifying ..

Sometimes it only takes a second for people to change ...

Then I screeched at him ..

Why are you doing so ?? You can tell me about everything except for your identity ?? Why ?

The less you know , the more you're safe .. Trust me .. Now go back home , inform your friends and learn to control your powers .. It's important ..

B - But I want to see Han Shou before leaving .. Can I ?? Please ... { I begged him .. My eyes just screamed for one more of his look }

He gently rubs his hands over my head back and forth and says " fine " ..

He teleported me back to his inn ..

I walked over Han Shou's bed with cat padded feet ..

There he was .. Unconscious ..

An empty piece of ice that contained absolutely no warmth .. Before I even realized it , a tear had dripped down from one of my eyes ..

I wonder why ...

Xiao Qian you're crying .. { A voice came behind me .. It was that poison guy .. }

I think we need some privacy .. Please .. { I said as I side eyed him gesturing him to leave the room }

Then I turned back to Han Shou ..

I wiped my tears and held his hand .. Apologizing constantly .. I rubbed his palm over my cheeks back and forth .. Yes !! This was the most comfortable touch I ever got from a MAN ...

For some reason , his heartbeat was much quicker than usual , but I simply assumed it was because he was wounded .. Because of me , my brother's .. Yeah I did bad to him .. But he hurt me and I was not able to control my power's .. But this should not be the reason for me to excuse myself after hurting him ..

I did hurt him and there's no excuse .. I'll distance myself from him .. I can't be with him until and unless I figure out about my power's ..

I'm ... sorry ... for hurting you .. I swear it'll never ever happen again .. I ... I'll go away ... Far away from you and everyone ..

And I took in his sight from the tip of his toes all the way up his legs , from his hips to his shoulder , from his collarbone all the way up his neck , and every inch of his face and down his hairs ..

And then my eyes met his closed eyes ... But I could feel his piercing gaze staring deep into my soul ..

I never knew silence was so shattered ..

No words needed to be spoken .. I loved him .. But I just realized it too late ..

I can't bear the world without you ...

I know we have these identities that made us go through all of this .. But sometimes I wish I was nothing but a common mortal .. We would have been together ..

{ I laughed a little bit remembering when we were roaming around in a crowded street and he was keeping an eye on me .. I got lost between the crowd and he shouted to everyone that

" only in a matter of few minutes your sister in law is nowhere to be seen .. I want her here within 2 minutes otherwise I don't mind blowing up the whole city .. "

He ended his sentence with a wink ..

Then everyone started looking for me while I tried to climb up the building where he was shouting .. Yeah I did not used my wings here because it was crowded with lantern hanging here and there ..

Some people behind me shouted " There she is "

Just when those people completed their sentence he jumped out of nowhere in front of my face with a { BHOOOO } And it really gave me a good jumpscare ..

I held his hand as I was about to fall but then he also slipped and our lips collided .. It was the most gentle but rough kiss .. I dragged him down through the building ..

All my nerves were fu*ked up because of the kiss so I was not able to land perfectly ..

Zhu Yue came behind me .. She kicked her foot on a pillar hard flying to us and then pushed Han Shou by my side .. She held me by my waist and then both of us kicked the wall of a building .. Took a backflip in the air and landed perfectly ..

But whereas Han Shou ... Ahhhh haha .. My second brother tried to save him but they ended up falling over each other in a ..... mmmm .... Very embarrassed position .. }

You are the most important chapter of my life .. The chapters of my life that include you are the best chapters of my life ...

I looked at him one last time ... As I decided to go away from him .. I needed to focus on myself right now .. I promise you ... I'll come back for you and then maybe you'll be ready to tell me the reason of our farewell ..

" People say right person at wrong time and wrong person at right time but we were each other's wrong person at wrong time ... "

But I hope that when I come back..

We would be each other's best person at best time ..

He always gives the warmest smiles after all .. He is incredibly strong and smart .. His deep oceanic blue eyes always look straight into mine whenever I talk to him ... His hugs are always gentle and comforting .. But the best part is when he makes a small gesture with his hands of a butterfly flying relating it to me ..

It's not impossible not to feel warm , angry , fluffy on the inside when he does these things ..

I am sure every girl would go bonkers on the way he looks ..

His eyes are the depths of the ocean , a profound blue that draws you in like a siren's call ... Long eye lashes , like the delicate tendrils of a sea fan frames his eyes , shading them from the world .. His hair is a wild tangle of light and fire ..

I stood up .. Gently kissed his forehead as a tear dropped from my eye over his eye ..

I went outside and silently looked at poison guy's back .. He seemed really familiar ..

I was just about to ask him to teleport me out of the cave but before I could , lingyue came to him to maybe report something ..

I quickly hid myself behind a pillar and paid attention to what she was going to say ..

My lord .. Immortal Lord argued you to take action as early as you can .. He also stated to take Han Shou along with Xiao Qian .. { Said Lingyue }

Tell him that I won't harm her now .. I will find another way to open the barrier of nine abyss of hell .. Let me repeat myself again .. I WILL NOT HARM HER ANYMORE !! SHE WILL NOT OPEN THE BARRIER , THIS COSTS MORE THAN HER LIFE ..

But she is just a mortal .. Why do you need to be so crazy about protecting her ?? He also stated that she has to be killed .. Are you willing to fight the immortal lord just for her ??

I am willing to fight the whole world for her ..

His words startled me ... He was sent here to make use of me but he is trying to save me ??

{ Again I heard him speak }

Just finish your left over assassinations and set yourself free from immortal lord .. He is not simple as you think , just try to finish your work get the fu*k out of the demon relam ...

His last words ... W - What ?? Did he just said ... D - Demon Relam ??

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Done .. This chapter ends here .. Now I guess you guys got an idea about the poison guy and Lingyue ..

They both work for the demon Relam but Lingyue is a mortal so there is a chance for poison guy to be a demon ..

Soooo I have been adding the main character's giggly , butterflies in the stomach scenes and a lot more ..

Bye bye ...

Happy reading ..

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