Shubman's POV

One week passed after my accident. Ishan is taking care of me like a skilled nurse. I can't believe that how the clumsy boy changed totally within some weeks. Did I ruined his happy self ? May be Mayank will make him like before. But I can't communicate with that guy. Divorce etc formalities are under process but the main target --- Ishan's marriage with Mayank, can't be fulfilled without Mayank. Don't know where is he!

One thing I'm noticing in Ishan, he's a little unhappy after returning from hospital. Not only for my accident, there's some other reason.

Last evening he suddenly asked me with puppy eyes -- "Will you marry Abhishek after our divorce ?"

I was dumbfounded with that awkward question. Yes, I may marry Abhishek because I know he likes me, once he told me too but I denied. I treated his only as bestfriend, never felt something else. 

Anyway, after seeing him hospital I'm really worried for him. As a bestfriend I must help him. Marriage is optional but I shall stand by him. Although I have no intention to get married again but if necessary, Abhishek is the first option (obviously after Ishan).

"I don't know Ishu, I never thought about second marriage" I replied to the innocent boy.

"But you love eachother na ?"

"Who told you ? He's my bestfriend only"

I don't understand he believed or not through his expression. Why the heck thought occurrd in his mind that I love Abhi ? And if I, why he's pouting for it ?

Today he asked again -- "How is Abhi ?"

"Don't know Ishu, he isn't receiving calls"

"You're so worried for him right ?"

"A little"

We were sipping tea in the balcony. The environment was cool, mild wind made us shivered. Poor I was not aware about the next shocks given by Ishan.

"Is our divorce necessary Shubi ?"

"Is not it ? Wasn't it a forceful marriage for you Ishu ?"

"It was"

"Then ?"

"I'm afraid Shubi"  He blinked like innocent.

"Of what ?"

Ishan was standing so close to me leaning on the railing ledge. His half leaned upper body was like slope land, round mound below waist...I felt butterflies in stomach. Don't know why it seems that something gonna happen today which isn't expected. 

"Of what are you afraid Ishu ?" I asked again when he didn't answered.

"Of losing my love again"

"Once I find Mayank, then you wo..."

"I'm not talking about Mayank Shubi"  he answered a little annoyingly.

"Matlab ?"

"Matlab I lost him already. And to be honest I never desired him after marriage"

"Ishu..."

"Don't say anything. Just listen to me" 

I understand that he's aggressive today and gonna blast something hidden. He continued -- "You wanna give me to Mayank na ? I knew that he's a coward! He left the entire country Shubi"

"What ?"

"Yeah. Sometimes before I talked with his mother and Tilak. He informed them about his departure. It means he's communicating with them just ignoring me!!! And you know what did he say ? He said that he will live outside of country with his new family!! Can you understand ? He had a second choice and he picked him or her quickly. Ok, nice, I'm happy with it. But why he is ignoring my calls ? Is he thinking that me too will provoke him or try to ruin their relationship like your bestfriend Abhishek ??... Oh sorry.... he is dear to you .."

Ishan aggressively spoke long.... then sighed heavily and turned his face aside... probably to hide his tears. I was genuinely shocked with the sudden information. How Mayank can do this if he really loves Ishan so ?

"Ishan I wasn't aware about that... if I ... I never would ask you for divorce or remarriage. Really... I can't believe... I think Mayank can't do this under normal condition, must be there some..."

"Can you please stop talking about him ?"

"Hmm... ok" I left the topic for that topic because Ishan was disturbed. But suddenly a thing hit my mind.

"Ishu, what did you say about losing love again ?"

He just said that he's afraid of losing love again while he's not talking about Mayank. Then ? I noticed he became hesitant with my question.

"I don't wanna leave you Shubi" he gave a deep stare.

"This is not the answer"

"Even I don't know the answer... I've already lost my first love. Now... I can't help but don't wanna leave another one"

He looked down making me astonished. I took some seconds to back in normal state. Then almost whispered -- "Tell me Ishan you're lying, tell me I heard wrong, please..."

"You heard right"

"How ? Was not it me Ishu who bruised you in hellish way ?"

"That was accidental. Except that you burned in guilty after that, aren't you ?..... Then you decided to break the marriage, even giving me to Mayank... why ? In sake of my happiness! Never thought about your own happiness! Tumhe kya laga hum nhi samajhte ?"

"Kya samajhte ho tum ?"  My heart was beating so fast. Still I can't believe my ears.

"You love me. Don't you ?"

Words left my tongue. I kept staring at him like a immovable statue. 

"Tell me Shubi, don't you love me ? Don't you ?" He grabbed my shirt...  "If don't then why are you forsaking your married life for me ? Why are you prioritising my happiness only ? Tell me you don't love me..."

He jerked me and wept like a kid. He was just flowing in emotions. I wished to hug him tightly and tell him yeah I love you Ishan, I can do anything in sake of your happiness... But I just said  "Calm down Ishan" holding his hand only as I was still ashamed for that night. And here Ishan couldn't stop weeping...

"Ok don't tell me, but don't ask me to leave you please...... My papa and bhaiya will consider me as burden, they will mistreat me again... and here .. Mayank, whom I thought a true lover... now cheating me!!! It's only you who proved your love unintentionally....... didn't you ? You're my safest shelter Shubi... you can scold me, beat me... but please don't ask me to leave you... please...."

Ishan continued to blabbering in my arms, my eyes too have tears. What will I say to him ? I failed to conceal my love from him.

"Ishan..." I made him face me by holding his chin  "I fell for you at first glance... from that moment you're ruling my heart... it's true that me too can't live without you... abd after Mayank's betrayal I can't let you be anyone's, I can't consider anyone safe for you.... If you stay with me then nobody will be happier than me in the entire world... you don't need to go anywhere... stay here, prevail here like my queen as youre prevailing in my heart......."

I held his waist tightly not breaking the eye contact. Both of our hearts were beating fast. Ishan's innocent tear-soaked cute face made me forget every hesitation...... I hit him with lips....

Then suddenly I remembered about that night.... how I made him sore! And quickly moved backword.

"Kya hua Shubi ?"

"Sorry Ishan"

Ishan whinned and jumped on me, hugged my nape and buried his lips in mine. I can't deny... sometimes later me too kissed him back. Our tongues fought for domination. Finally Ishan surrendered and leaned up as an indication to let me rule on his body.

I lift him in bridal style and went to bed, placed kisses all over his face and neck. He coiled my waist with his legs pulling me closer. Soon our room filled with warmth....

I can't illustrate more, just can say that day I got the most precious night of my life. Again I took Ishan but in softest way, totally opposite of that unholy day! 

At the end of intense moments tired Ishan asked holding my hairs;

"Won't you ask me to leave you Shubi ?"

"Never baby"

I said kissing his sweaty face.

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