" Do you attend to study aboard right ?"

-She asked me with a beautiful smiling. She knew my anticipation.I had a giggle when i heard it.

"Oh sorry, why did you know that?"

Or

"Did you follow me?"

- I had joked. Cause' i don't really know why did she know it and who is supply this information ?. Then i was unobtrusively to read my book.

-Surprisingly.

She kept a small talk to me in my ears with an attractive voices.

"I just guess. I saw you usually study English so hard-working than our subjects."

-When she told this to me, i've thought of it. After a few seconds, i guessed who have told to her.

"Or Kane have done it yet ?"

-This statement was surprisingly turned up in my subconscious. I was doubted and i yelled as:

" Why did you so talkative,Kane?. You've promised to save this secret? "

-So loud, my friends and Natasha looked me for several time. I has losed my feeling at that moments.

-Then, Natasha questioned me:

" Do you want to study aboard right?"

-Still this smiling as solar and so nice. I knew again and told to her.

" Of course. I have attended to study aboard when i complete both semester."

" At first, i must study Ielts to grant the diploma."

-When i stopped and at that time, i realized she has been gazing fondly at me with this smiling again. Then, she made a giggle and continuously asking me.

" So where do you go ? America or Australia? "

Then i replied so prompt.

" I have chosen Australia which is the best place to advance my studying and develop my future career. "

-She was so surprised and squealing. At that time, the scenic landscape has surrounded really hectic. I was still observing her for a long time. I have been falling in astounded emotions when i saw her.

Then she told to me.

" You know, i have chosen Australia as you. It has been my dream. I am so glad and like when i heard you spoke up this."

-At that moment, i was preparing to tell her but suddenly, the school bell has rang and this section was over.

" Goodbye Meyer ! Have a good day to you. See you tomorrow."

" Today is not a vulgar day right ? It's so hectic" ( winked)

I replied her.

" You too. Don't forget you tools and books."

" Be careful"

Then she told to me.

" Don't worry about it. I know what i do."

-On the first farewell, i was preoccupied this smile. It has been hanging around in my mind. I have seen her, but... It was more than more so far away. And... I astounded again and again. Making a giggle, i disposited my books and tools into my backpack and then i went home.

- On the path lead to home, her portrait still turned up and it's so attractive and sexy. And her winking, it has made my heart stirred.

-Came home, washed face,ate some fruits and took a shower. I saw mine into mirror, it reflected mine and i thought of her including smiling, winking and us conversation.

- I whispered.

" why so weird ? "

" Something's so abnormal"

" This is the first feeling that i have ever touched."

" So weird, fuckin' weird"

- I yelled cause my heart was stirred.

- After taking shower, i was silently and sat on the chair and looked out to see the crowds including the scenery.

- While i was astounding as a foolish guy... Suddenly, i saw Natasha's reflection.

- I turned down but nobody was here. Just me with a harassing longling in abandon rooms with abundant sorrow.

- Having dinner, i rushed and ran to my room then studied and did assignment.

" Why did sentences so fuckin insane ?"

" Who is create this ?"

" Fucking idiot !"

" This guy so broadened when he made this sentences."

" Bullshit and Insane."

- I lamented and tried to solve it.

- After solving all assignments, i has wrriten my emotion into my diary:

" Today, i have seen a girl in same classmate. She's so beautiful. I was so astounded emotions as a broaden guy but this feeling's so hectic. I can not forget it. My heart has been tirred until now. And you know, she gazed fondly to me for a long time. She has the same choices as me. Now i am hoping that the time will let out to tomorrow so swift. I want to see her. My seat in the last and she's in the third. It's full of conditions to gaze fondly to her.19/9/2017.21:30PM."

- Then i felt so sleepy. I went to bed. Before sleeping, i was still remembered about us meetings. I was so glad and made a giggle.

- I rushed to sleep for tomorrow to meet her.

- I whispered again.

" Goodnight Natasha !"

" i hope to see you tomorrow "

" light off and us will sleep up."

In dreaming, i saw Natasha, but the scene so different.

I yelled.... As a child when he see the chocolate ice-cream.

" Oh Jesus, we are in Victoria region."

" Natasha, is it you ?"

- she was continuously and replied.
" It's me, Meyer."

" Let me keep your valises."

" what a great scene, right?"

" Us desires become true."

- She held my hand, was gazing fondly to me and kissed me.

" Now, us will cohabit. Trying to gain the best okay, Meyer? "

- Then i astounded and kept a quick talk in voice in chocked with emotions.

" Absolutely !" ( smiling)

" i kissed in her head"

- Suddenly, my mom has called me up to go to school.

- I woke up and said.

" It was fuckin dreams."

" it's so crazy man."

" Wow-hoh."

- I jumped out my bed and yelled.

- As habitual actions, i brush teeth, eat breakfast, but i rushed all of these.

- Then, i went home to go to school.

- At school,normally, i come so soon and continuously to learn English. But at that time, i was not only read my book, but also waited a girl. That's Natasha. I has waited for her.

- Looked at the watch, i lamented.

"Why do you go to school too late ?"

"Now, it's 6:30 AM."

- Breathing too long, i read book.

- Surprisingly, she came. At that time, i has gazed fondly to her and astounded.

"Good morning, Meyer ! Good to see you, guy."

- She has greeted me with this smiling. I made a giggle and replied her.

" How do you do?"

- I repaired to tell her but the school's bell was rang.

- I was vindictive hatred this. Why did the fuck invent this bell ?.

" Have a good days, Meyer."

" You...you too ! Bye..."

I am so coward. I guessed it. I has stammered.

-Almost, i had just gazed fondly to her. She's so beautiful.

" She had just greeted me. I was shyness and has stammered while i was talking with her. Natasha, you know, i have a feeling at first when we studied in grade 10."

- I wrote it into my diary, made a giggle. Harris, who's sit next to me, had touched me and said.

" Are you crazy, homies ?"

" Please focus on lesson above ! "

" You're so weird ! "

Then i called back.

" Hey, i has been hearing the lesson since the lesson has been started."

-I was silently and focused the lesson.

......
Time Break !!!

-Normally, i read my book with concentration. Unexpectedly, a soft hand has touched my arms, i jumped and turned back.... Natasha.....She's here.

- At that moment,unexpectedly, she gave me a breakfast.

" I has given this meal to you. I saw you was with concentration into the lesson."

"Thus, i bought it for you, my friend."

I was relentless stammered.

" Why.... Why .... did you see me ?"

She was smile and called back.

" I was coincidentally turned back to ask for answer and .. I saw you, and i observed you for a long time."

I prepared to ask her but she interrupted.

" The lesson was so difficult right ?"

" I was so strenuous but i solved it with persuasion."

-I has heard with concentration. The landscape seemed to eclipse. Just Natasha and me. This break time was so precious. You're so nice. I crushed on you. But i has still hidden my sentiment.

" Meyer, i think because of with concentration that you has been heard by me.... Your meal... ?"

-In astounding, unexpectedly, i has been called by her.

"Oh , i haven't eat it."

-I was smiling.

" i am so sorry, cause' i was with concentration."

- Then she replied.
(Smiling)

" Don't worry about that ! "

" Let's eat it promptly, boy"

-Suddenly, the school bell was rang.

-I'm really vindictive hatred the school's bell.

" Oh, time off "

" Goodbye. See you next time, Meyer."

- And she punched me a hit. Oh Jesus, it was really hurtful but she has bequeathed a bluish black.

" Aochhh."

" Bye ! "

" Hope to see you next time."

I made a giggle and saw her came back to the class.

.....

-The wind turned up and browsed away me.
Following this is a harassing longling. I missed you so much. How can we hold us hand ?

.....

---2 weeks ago---

" Boooyah"

- She made me so unexpected.

" What are you doing, Meyer ?"

- I answered and.... stammered again and again.

" I...I write.... diary.... This is my dairy...and.."

- She has taken unexpectedly.

"Let me see...."

"Uhm...Uhm..."

"Wow, Your english skill too good. It makes me so attractive and the incident of story is closest."

" Without imaginary, so close and reality,..."

- Then i called back.

" Yeah.. right, i had just used to vulgar word and i must rush and write it, i will be so fear if my homies look at this diary."

- I had written my diary so strenuous .
Sometimes, i had written it with concentration.

" I like your story..."

" So attractive "

And she fondled my cheek.

"You're so cute."

" Your internal is so unprincipled but... I can feel your emotions so sweet."

"You know, i had seen it for a long time but i has been advocating your actions."

- With these words, she said goodbye on that farewell.

- Unexpectedly, i felt sadly and had a harassing longing.

" Today, you know my secret and you said that you have avocated my work since you observed me from a far distance. So have you looked after me yet ?"

- I wrote it on my diary and had thought of you for so long times. Then i was continued.
" You're turned up in my subconscious. Your portrait always hang around in my mind. It can not be faded away including disbanding. Still in my heart and mind. I will be renewable us story to become as good as."

- I was unobtrusively came home with my familiar bike.

- Normally, all familiarly habitual actions, then that night, i was concededly crushed on Natasha but i was so coward and busily at that moments.

- At that time, still familiar scene, i lied down on the bed with smartphone to look the new.

" The legend of football who paving the path for all of us, is the trail-blazer, which is passed away and th whole has sent to letters of condolences to him. RIP."

-I lamented as the world is preparing to say goodbye with an outstanding person, who was affected this world significantly.

- The samsara as the cycle of birth, is always turning around in infinity.

---------A harassing longing came back---------
- It was turned up again.

- I has wanted this memories still besides with me. Don't be disbanded to the dust.
- I want you still in my heart forever and don't go away.

- I closed my eyes and thought about us conversation this day.

- she had truly looked after me so much and forthcoming, she fondled my cheek and said that i was so cute and not be unprincipled anymore. I felt her understanding into me. I made a giggle and...

" At that time, i can hold your hand and you can not be faded away in my subconscious. I crushed on you and i has accepted my fate with resignation. I expressed my deep gratitude with my emotions even if it's in my voices choked with emotion. "

" Goodnight and sweet dreams, my crushing !!!"

- With these words i slept away, bequeathed a sadnesses and sorrows. The life's in current so chill and frigid but its still a little caring and longing of someone. Kissing you !!!

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