Going Wrong
*Frisk's POV*
Back in the cell is when it happened.
Back in the cell, when G and I were alone, is when I had planned to let the idea fall into action.
G was in there before me, laying on the bed with a cigarette in his mouth, his legs stretched out before him.
Instead of wondering how I would pull this off, instead of wondering if this would even work, I wondered how he got his cigarettes with his hands cuffed behind his back.
Regret.
Oh I could feel it coming as the door shut and locked behind me.
Regret.
I should have seen it there, I should have seen the fear and worry of what I was about to do.
Though I never listened to myself, no matter how much it would save me.
One of the biggest questions I had to ask myself, was, 'Do I want this?'
All my answer's were the same, a strong and sharp, 'No.'
How I wish I knew the no meant, "Don't do this, don't do this, you will regret it later."
Yet I was desperate to get G on my side, get G's protections.
Maybe that's what prison did to you, maybe that's what made the others snap.
Was the feeling and need of control.
Is that what brought G to his state?
I had convinced myself he was always bad, always wanting the worst in everything, always being the worst in everything.
Yet I could barley think when I walked over to him, swaying my hips slightly so he knew my intentions, but didn't know I was faking it all.
His eyes watched me, and I couldn't read anything they said to me.
When I thought about it, I wondered if they were even saying anything at all.
'Focus,' I told myself as I reached the bed, 'Don't mess this up.'
G's eyes continued to watch me, his body not moving a muscle as I crawled over his legs, making sure to keep myself hovering over him just slightly.
I kept my eyes down, making this seem as casual as I could.
Yet I almost felt like throwing up.
I crawled over him, letting my body graze his leg only slightly before I put my knees at the side of him, my body only inches from his chest.
Was I actually doing this?
Did I think this would work?
The chance was too strong to ignore, and it tapped my head like an addiction while I took out his cigarette, looking into his stone hard eyes.
They didn't flinch, and showed no emotion at all.
How would I know if he enjoyed it or not?
Was the risk really worth taking?
Apparently it was to me, and I rubbed myself slightly against his lower region, the feeling striking through my like an electric shock.
'Do not enjoy this,' I said sternly to myself as I wrapped my arms around his neck, 'Don't you dare enjoy this.'
I had no reason to enjoy what I was doing, so I focused on what would happen if I succeeded.
G would be my control, my protection.
Jail wouldn't be as bad as it was.
Key word: If.
I did it once again, my jumpsuit feeling lighter then before, the darkness of the cell covering the blinding orange on G.
When I darted my eyes to his face, his eyes were shut and his face was straight.
I told myself I was winning, I had felt like I was winning, and I knew I would.
Was I getting to him?
The truth would have made the regret flow right then and there.
But I didn't know the truth yet.
So my body grazed his lower region again, my upper half pressed against his chest, the feeling beginning to overwhelm me.
There was no way I was enjoying this... right?
I moved my eyes away from him and shut them slowly, forcing myself to stay strong, and graze once more.
Finally, I pushed myself down, fighting the shiver that wanted to force it's way up my back and arms.
When I glanced at G again, I saw his eyes still shut and his face still blank.
That is, until he smirked.
Then chuckled.
At that moment I felt like I had won, like I had gotten his attention, his lust.
Until he said in his usual voice, "Ya really think this will make me like you?"
My whole body jolted to a stop of regret.
The truth filled me and I realized I hadn't done anything but make a fool of myself.
G caught my react and laughed as I got off him quickly, my embarrassment out powering my anger.
Why was I such an immature little child?
Could that have ever worked?
Why had I done that in the first place?
The regret pounded in my heart, making it sink with sickness, full of G's laughter.
"Wow goodie-goodie," G laughed swinging his legs over the bed with enjoyment, "Never knew you could be such a slut."
He laughed more and I had to cover my mouth to keep from puking, my hands shaking like I had been scared almost to death.
What had I done?
Even though it was useless, I tried to defend myself, yet everything I said was weak and poor, "I'm not a slut..."
The words came out as a whimper which made G laugh harder.
Oh how I would have cried so hard if he wasn't in front of me.
"Of course not goodie-to-shoe-slut."
There was another nickname.
A nickname that would fill me with regret for as long as I lived.
A nickname, I knew that every time it left his lips, I would fill with embarrassment, anger, hatred. All of it would be for myself though.
This was going all wrong.
And I knew it too.
I should have stopped, I should have given up and let G take his victory, but instead I shouted at him, fighting the tears, "You enjoyed it!!!"
"Of course I did sweetheart," He said without sarcasm which made me quite shocked, "Any guy would love a sexy woman to give him a little grind."
His words stumped me.
Sexy?
He had called me sexy and that made my face burn terribly.
When I realized he was just teasing, I shouted through his laughter, "You are such an asshole!!!"
Which just made him laugh harder.
I knew he didn't mean it, he would say it to any girl just to get them flustered or in love with him.
Never in my life would I have ever been in love with him, I believed it was true until I burned it into my heart where it felt like nothing was left.
Slumping in my defeat, I laid against the wall and left G to his laughter.
Even with my hatred burning, my embarrassment lighting up my face, all I could think about was the fact G had called me a sexy girl.
And the fact my plan to get G on my side, wen't horribly wrong.
*****
A/N: I TOLD YA'LL NO LEMON! I'M CLEAN!
Sorta....
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