Burned a lot of bridges

Cut a lot of ties

Walked the path of principle

And boy, did I pay the price

Sitting alone in my room

Left with no one at my side

Thinking that I miss the people

But it's the memories that kill me inside 

Hostility where once affection was

Fueled by a righteous pride

They thought I did them wrong

When all I could think of was doing them right

Really wanted to fit in

Heaven knows that I tried

Had a twisted childhood

I think that set me aside 

Thrown into whirlwinds

That never seemed to subside

A lot of emotional trauma

Which I tried to take in stride

When you rubbed salt in my wounds

I suffered dark nights and cried

I am so far away from those days

Yet I can't seem to be able to hide

I still live in their shadow

Away from the sunlight

I wish that it wasn't so hard

For me to be a child

Random thoughts remind me of the past I want to escape 

Always dancing in my vision, shadows solidifying into shapes

Vivid despite their darkness, leaving me agape

Rendering me frozen so I can't open the drapes

Numbers dwindled down and they never went up

I offered you everything that I had in my cup

You left me behind, never looked back

Took away my armor, then you attacked

But your betrayal bled into my vengeance 

So you better count your days

Every game lets both players

Have their own say

I survived your sick torture

Now you'll dance to my wicked ways

You don't have much time, 

So you better learn to behave

Bite your tongue and sit tight

And maybe I won't set you ablaze

You might not have bothered

But I did keep my heart in its place

Maybe I won't do anything and let karma work its magic

After all, if I give you less than what you deserve it will be tragic

Let's see how you like to be subjected to your heartless ways

If it ever gets too hard, don't worry darling, and remember it's just a phase ;)

I'll be there on the sidelines as I pretend to care

While I watch you suffer tenfold for what I had to bear

Don't you dare complain when you feel you're gonna break

There's a long way to go before you make up for your mistakes

Every tear shed because of you will be avenged

With the interest of all the years that you chose not to make amends

It's a shame that you peaked there cuz high school did end

And now I get to watch the real world strip you of all your bravado and pretense

High up from my throne that I built from my blood and sweat

Realizing that I did manage to build a life with no regrets

My wounds are balmed but my scars are far from faded

It took some twisted payback, but my hurt has finally abated

Revenge is a dish best-served cold, isn't that what they say?

Well, I wholeheartedly agree; I wouldn't want it any other way.

-Vaish
(28/12/22)

Posting on: 14th January 2023

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A/N: Let's just say that I have a lot of shit to unpack up there lol.