As the sun bows to the moon

I sit down alone in my room

I curl my legs to my chest

It's one of those days when I feel less blessed

I rest my chin on my knee

Trying to keep hold of my sanity

Closing my eyes I exhale deep

Counting slowly: one, two, three;

I want this heaviness on me to go away

I want some positivity to flow today

I hate these dreary days I spend cooped up in these walls

Barely catching myself in these treacherous roads and falls

I hate watching these lectures back to back

But there is too much to cover and I can't slack

The exam is in a month and the stakes are too high

All I can do is give my best and try

My mind is exhausted, my brain is fried

This is torture, I'm not gonna lie

How often I suppress the urge to cry, only I know

These days are fewer highs than lows

But my dreams are right on the horizon and I must keep running

It's a race against time and I can't be succumbing

Forfeiting was never an option, it has always meant too much to me

The only thing driving me forward is the aftermath and the happiness it guarantees

Keeping it in mind I strive forward mightily

I imagine the relief that will flood me in the end finally

When all this will be worth it, all the blood and sweat

Working hard for a life with no regrets

With renewed strength, I will conquer my discomfort, pain, anxiety, and sadness

You know what they say: achieving something great always needs a touch of madness.

-Vaish
(24/6/22)

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A/N: God knows I checked madness off my list a long time ago lmao

How're you guys?