Every time my feet touch the ground it feels like I'm walking on clouds. It reminds me of that time Paige gave me one of her happy pills.

Except this time I didn't take a happy pill. I am happy. And there's no reason to be sad and blue anymore.

Lately, I've been feeling content with myself. My life has been difficult and insanely crazy. But now everything seems to be falling in the right place.

"I'm going into this store." I tell Dean who follows me behind. "I'll be waiting by the door ma'am." Dean says behind me.

I nod my head as I start looking around. A particular dress catches my eye. It's a gorgeous long white dress with stunning soft pink flowers.

"Would you like to try it on?" A lady that works here asks. "Yes please." I reply. The lady nods her head and walks away.

Second later she comes back with an identical dress on her hands. She motions me to follow her and I do.

The fitting rooms are huge. The one I'm in has mirrors all around. Literally all around. Seeing myself over and over kind of creeps me out but I ignore it.

I remove my clothes to try on the dress. I wonder if Seth will like it. The dress feels and fits perfectly.

I'm looking at myself in the mirror when a pair of hands grab my arm harshly. When I look at the reflection in the mirror I almost faint right then and there.

"Hello Nicole." He hisses with a smile. I turn around panicking. "How did you get in here?" I ask alarmed.

He shrugs, "I've got my ways. Tell me how are you doing? I see you've blossomed well." He says with a smirk as he stares down my body.

"Leave." I say with a shaky breath. "Leave? But I just got here, Nicole. Aren't you excited to see me? It's been thirteen long years without seeing you. Do you honestly think I was going to leave you alone after what you did?"

"I didn't do anything." I reply with tears in my eyes. He smiles, "Typical Nicole. Always lying and pretending to be the victim. Don't deny it Nicole. You know what I'm talking about." He grabs my face harshly and I wince.

"I'm going to scream if you don't leave." I say feeling my knees tremble. I'm feeling so terrified and vulnerable.

"Go ahead scream." He says. When I don't do anything he squeezes his hand around my cheeks tighter making me yelp. "Scream!"

"Stop it leave me alone! Help! I need help! Dean!" I scream. He let's me go and leans back against the fitting room door. Why isn't anyone coming? How did he get in? Where's Dean? How come no one hears me?

"No ones coming to help you." He laughs. My heart quickens and I'm waiting for Dean to burst through the door but he doesn't.

"That's a lovely dress you have on." He says looking at it. He steps closer and I step back but I get to the point where I can't step back anymore because the mirror is behind me.

"But you know what?" He asks looking down at me. "It would look more lovely if you took it off." He grabs my thigh abruptly and I start panting.

My heart is beating rapidly and I feel the tears streaming down my eyes. "Why don't you leave me alone?"

He rolls his eyes. "Why do you always cry? Gosh. I don't know how Seth can handle you if you're so damn annoying. You're always crying and pretending you're innocent when you're not."

"How do you know about Seth?" I ask. "I know everything, Nicole." He responds. This only makes me cry louder and he grabs my forearms.

"Shut up. I can't stand your crying. Why're you crying? Seth's going to get tired of you one day you know? You're annoying and a little slut. Do you honestly think he's going to forget that you slept with men for money? I always knew you were a whore but I never thought you'd stoop that low."

He turns me around and forces me to look in the mirror. I'm staring at myself crying. "Look at yourself, Nicole. You're a mess. A mess that can't be fixed. You're unfixable and worthless. You're not worth it, Nicole. Never was and never will me. Look at yourself!" He screams brusquely grabbing my face.

I try to look away but I'm surrounded by mirrors. All I see is myself crying and what a big mess I am. And all I hear is his voice in my ear and it's awful. I squeeze my eyes shut until I start seeing lights.

My eyes open and I'm screaming with sweat dripping down my forehead. I look around petrified and see that I'm in my room on the bed.

My heart is beating loudly and I can hear it in my ears. I glance at the clock and see that it's 3:34 a.m.

My body is hot and flustered. There's sweat all over me and there's tears on my eyes. It was a nightmare, Nikki. Calm down.

The tears keep streaming down my eyes and I can't stop them. The nightmare felt so real and it hurt so much. All I keep thinking about is his face and everything he said.

I get out of bed and walk out of the room. It's dark and I'm not sure where in heading. All I know is that I need to find Seth.

I'm walking down the hall making weird noises because of the sobbing. My heart still aches and I'm so frightened that my dream does come true.

What if Seth does get tired of me? He deserves someone better than me. I'm not worth his time. I don't deserve his love.

As I'm walking down the dark hallway I hear a door open. "Nicole? Are you okay? What's wrong?" Seth asks as he steps out of his room.

When I see him my whole world collapses and I cry louder. "Nikki! What's wrong?" Seth rushes to me and grabs my face.

I can even talk because I'm crying so much. It's a pathetic view honestly but I can't help it. I'm emotional and reckless.

He wipes my tears and I take a deep breath. "Nikki." He whispers. I can hear the panic in his voice.

I look at him and see his beautiful eyes. His hair is in a messy bun and he's only wearing pajama pants. He looks so worried about me it makes my heart melt.

"Can you hug me really, really tight?" I feel the knot in my throat getting bigger. "Just hug me and tell me that you love me and that it's going to be okay. Tell me that you're happy to be here with me. Tell me that I make you feel happy and that I make you feel alive."

He doesn't hesitate and pulls me in for a hug. Feeling his warm chest against me makes me feel more calmed. I wrap my tiny hands around his body and feel more warm tears spill from my eyes.

"I love you. Everything will be alright. I'm happy to be here with you and you make me feel happy and alive. Okay? Trust me everything will be okay."