Dinner is filled with awkward silence. Neither Seth or I have tried to make a conversation. It's not like we can have a normal conversation anyways.

It never works out. We can't talk about normal things like the weather, news or something that happened to someone we know.

We always end up arguing or leaving each other hanging. Mostly him though. He always leaves me wondering. Seth Rollins is a complicated man.

Honestly, I thought I was eating by myself again.When I entered the dinning room I expected to be by myself so I came down in my short pjs and tank top looking like a complete slob.

Of course by the time Seth saw me I couldn't run away to change or hide. So I had no other choice but to sit down like this and look horrible.

I keep my eyes fixed on the table counting the minutes until I'm done eating or he's done eating. I'm not even hungry anymore because the tension is too much.

But it's not like I can just get up and leave because that's just rude. I begin eating faster and shoving more food in my mouth so I can finish quicker.

"You might choke, Nicole." Seth says out loud. At that instant I almost do choke. "Do you always eat so quick?"

Sometimes I don't understand Seth's emotions. Right now he sounds so calm and like nothing even happened. Like I didn't try to kiss him and get rejected. Like he didn't confess he loved me.

How in the world does he do that? Because I'd love to do that too. Just push aside my feelings and emotions and pretend nothing happened.

"I wasn't eating quick." I mumble. I hear him scoff and I continue eating. Minutes later the servant comes to pick up the plates.

Before he says something I quickly get up from the table. "Nicole." He says just as I'm about to walk out.

"Yes sir?" I reply turning around. "Are you going to call me sir when you're mad at me?" He asks.

"I'm not mad at you." Seth smiles, "Oh my precious, Nicole. You forgot your eyes spill all your emotions."

I look away, "Can I leave now?" Seth doesn't respond right away making me look once again. "No." He finally says when my eyes meet his.

I stand still not saying anything. "I just can't let you go." He sighs. "Well I mean sir my room is right up there. I'm pretty sure you can let me go plus we're already done eati-"

"You know that's not what I meant, Nicole." He says giving me a stern look. "Then what did you mean?"

"I meant that I can't let you go even though I know I'm not good for you." He responds. I furrow my eyebrows together, "Sir, I don't know what you're talking about."

"The first time I saw you... you flipped my world upside down. I had never looked at a woman the way I looked at you. My whole life I played, cheated, and had multiple women at the same time. When I got into this business it only made it worse. Since I started making lots of money I could pay any beautiful woman to be with me and that's what I did. But that night I didn't pay for you. I didn't pay for your affection or body. I didn't pay because I didn't want you to be there. When my eyes landed on you I stopped smiling. Not because I didn't like you but because I was both breath taken and sad. I was sad to see such a beautiful human in that crappy prostitution world. At the time I didn't know what an impact you had on me. I tried to go ignore the thoughts and took Eva, your sister and Naomi with me. That night I didn't even sleep with Eva. Ever since I met you that night I didn't sleep with any other woman. I tried to several times because I hated how vulnerable you made me but I couldn't do it. And when I saw you crying dancing on that pole and when that drunk guy hit you. I knew I had to get you out no matter what. So I did and that's why I brought you here. The reason I was mean to you and humiliated you was to push you away. I wanted to convince myself that why I felt wasn't true. But damn Nicole, I can't fool myself anymore. Every time I look at you I fall in love over and over. Every atom of my body craves you. And the worse thing is that I know I'm bad for you."

It feels like the breath was knocked out of me. My eyes are starting to sting because I haven't even blinked.

"How do you know you're bad for me?" I finally say. "Because look at me, Nicole." He gets up from the table and walks to me.

"I'm a bad person. Look at the business I'm in. You deserve someone better than me. Someone who's honest and someone who gets you out of this miserable world."

"You're not a bad person, Seth. You're the sweetest guy I've ever met. I never met someone who would go through so much for me. And I've never met someone who liked me for me."

"Don't try to sugarcoat it. I don't want this life for you." He says as he touches my cheek. "I want you to live a happy life. Away from all of this. I don't want you to constantly fear everything. I don't want you to fall in love with me."

"You can't stop my feelings, Seth." I say. "But you have to." He replies. "What's so bad about loving you? What's so bad about this life? Either way life is always going to be complicated and scary."

"If you love me you risk getting heartbroken. I could die very young, Nicole. Or I could get caught and arrested for the rest of my life. This is a dangerous world I live in and I don't want you to suffer because of me."

"Okay. Fine Seth. Push me away like you always do. Go ahead hurt my feelings and disappear for days without even talking to me. Or better yet lock me in my room."

"Nicole you know that's not what I want. It's what's best for you." I roll my eyes. "That's not what's best for me."

"Trust me it is. You should go to bed now. It's getting late." He says. I stand exactly where I am and look him in the eyes.

We look at each other for a few seconds but then I glance away. I bite the inside of my lip and start to turn around to go to the room.

Before I walk out he grabs my hand. I turn around and our eyes meet. He grabs me by the waist and pulls me in towards him.

My heart starts speeding up. He looks at my lips and then in my eyes. Slowly and very gently he grabs my face. "Fuck I don't care if I'm no good for you."

A wave of electric waves rush through my veins as I feel his soft tender lips against mine.