"Whatever I want it to be?" He asks slowly. I nod my head feeling my heart beating faster. It's beating so loud I can hear it in my ears.

I'm both scared and excited. Something about Seth makes me feel dangerous and alive. It's a feeling I can't explain.

"I want to know your real name." He doesn't sound mad but he doesn't sound happy. There's no emotion on his voice.

"Nicole Garcia." I whisper. "Nicole Garcia." He repeats with so much sweetness it makes my heart swell.

My name is so unimportant but when it comes out of his lips it's like it's the most most important.

"Very well, Nicole." He says sipping more from his cup. "Actually sir, I'd rather be called Nikki."

"I call you whatever I want. Is that clear, Nicole?" I have to bite my tongue not to say something. So instead I nod my head once again.

It seems like all I can do is nod my head so I don't say something stupid. Or something that'd piss Rollins off.

"Do you know why you're here, Nicole?" He asks looking right in my eyes. I smile thinking of what Lana told me earlier.

"Yes sir." I answer my smile getting bigger. "Good. Now how should we settle this? Do you want cash? Clothes? Cars? Jewelry?"

My smile starts fading away. "Excuse me?" I mumble quietly. "I'm asking how am I suppose to pay for your services."

I don't say anything because I have no words. "Sir, I don't understand." Lana said he wants to help me and that he respects me and - and none of that seems true.

"Isn't that what you like, Nicole?" His voice no longer sounds sweet. It's bitter, cold, and harsh.

"Don't you like cars? Money? Clothes? Shoes? Jewelry? Purses? Wine? Isn't that what you most crave in this world?"

My body starts to feel hot and I can feel my cheeks turn red. "I mean that's why you work with Lana don't you? That's why you wanted Roman." He hisses.

"With all your respect sir, I don't understand where this is coming from. Lana said..." I stop myself from talking because I know I just screwed up.

"Lana? When did you talk to Lana?" He asks straightening up. "The day I got picked up." I lie.

"I don't know what Lana said but whatever she said is a lie." My heart can't help but to crumple.

I glance at my feet and chew on my inner cheek. "That's a lovely white shirt you're wearing, Nicole."

I slowly look up to see his face. He still has a serious look on his face and I can't tell what he's feeling.

"Thank you sir." I reply quietly. "Take it off." The words slip out of his mouth just like that. "What?" I blurt out.

I'm hoping I heard wrong but he looks me right in the eyes and speaks again. "You heard me." He says.

I have no choice but to follow his orders. So I take off my shirt leaving me in my bra and skirt.

"Now take off your bra." At first I don't react right away because I'm letting this sink in. He looks me right in the eyes and I feel a shiver down my spine.

"But sir I thought-" he cuts me off. "Take it off." He still sounds calm but is starting to look a bit aggravated.

The blood rushes to my cheeks as I reach to unhook my bra. I can't help but to feel anger inside of me.

How did I possibly think he could be any different? He's just like every man I've met before. They just want me for pleasure.

"Happy?" I say as my bra falls on the floor. He glances down my body but quickly looks at my face again.

He puts his cup down on the floor and gets up. I feel embarrassment standing here half naked in front of him. It's so different with him. And I don't know why.

Seth starts walking to me and I freeze. When he's a few inches away from my face he bends down to grab my bra and shirt.

He hands them to me and I look at him confused. We look at each other for a few seconds until he breaks the eye contact and walks out of the room.

"I've never done this before." I say with a blushed face. He looks down at me and smiles. "I'm glad I'm going to be your first."

He bends down to kiss me and he kisses me with so much sweetness. The kiss is so gentle and so, so, sweet. Sweet like cinnamon.

It makes my heart skip a beat and my stomach turn into knots. When he pulls away he leads me to his room.

I bite the inside of my lip as he closes his room door behind. "Don't worry. We have the whole afternoon. My roommate won't be back until later on tonight."

He kisses me again. This time not so sweet. He kisses me hard, fast, and sloppy. His hand slowly travels down my lower back and I pull away.

"I can't." I whisper. "What? What do you mean? We've been planning this for weeks. You can't leave me hanging."

"I know but I'm scared. You know how I feel about my body. No one has seen me naked before." I say quietly. "Scared of what Nicole? Stop being such a little girl. I can't be with a little girl like you. I deserve a woman."

He looks angry and when he steps closer to me I flinch thinking he's going to slap me. "Get out."

"But I-" he cuts me off. "I said get out." He screams. He's looking angrier by the second and that terrifies me. But the thought of losing him terrifies me more.

"Don't be mad at me." I whisper as my eyes fill up with tears. "Take off your shirt." He says. "What?"

"Take it off and I won't be mad anymore." He sits on the edge of his bed as I stand in front of him frozen.

He raises an eyebrow and I slowly take off my shirt. "Good girl. Now take off your bra." He says with a smirk.

I hesitate and look down at my feet. Do I really want to do this? "Don't you want to make me happy, Nicole?"

I close my eyes as I slowly reach to unhook my bra. My face turns hot as soon as my bra falls to the floor.

I don't even want to look at him. He's probably so disappointed on what he's seeing. He's used to being around pretty voluptuous women.

Not plain girls like me.

I feel my hot tears rolling down my cheek as that horrible flashback comes to mind. I quickly put on my bra and shirt and walk out of the room.

I'm rushing down the hall and I almost slip. I stop for a brief second and see that Seth is talking to one of his servants. He looks at me and I start rushing again so he doesn't see me cry.

I don't want to be here anymore.