Dedicated to ProjectiGotCancer 

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It weighed me down... like an anchor 

Restraining a sail from the shore it yearns

The ocean within me; poisoned and deadly

The toxicity clawed at my skin; trapping me

There was a waging war; not on the outside

It was inside; it was in me, it was... my being

I am the war; for I battle against myself 

But how do you win a war you are destined to lose

My breaths were silent; tired and lacking life

The chaos played with me... wrecked havoc in me

Just a little longer... I said to myself

One more minute... to live, to love

Just one more breath... to savor life without pain

Hold on... the voices screamed

I don't want to let this go... I don't want to say goodbye

I want to live... I want to see the stars and feel the wind 

But the ocean within me hummed a melancholic song

It thrummed through me; rippling through my bloodstream

The white light shone brighter; the serenity unwinding

The shore didn't seem as far away 

Maybe I can break free... from this demanding pain

The boundless war came to a halt

The corners of my lips tipped up in a peaceful smile

I let the waves crash and carry me far away into oblivion

Light as a feather I finally felt free falling into the unknown

At last I had learned to fall before taking a flight

I could breath... I could feel everything but the pain

The world blurred before growing smaller and disappearing eternally

Afloat in the wind, I let it guide me to the end of the horizon

Where I could live another life in another world...

Yours truly,
Hazel.