10th june 2014.

❝dear diary,

taehyung and i.

we're dating.

i feel so happy yet i'm so scared.

after i kissed him, i thought he was going to push me away and run away from me but he didn't.

instead, his hands gently found my cheeks as our lips met. his lips were so soft against mine and he guided the kiss as i wasn't experienced.

it felt right. so so right.

i felt like the outside world had disappeared and it was only us.

only us in a bubble. our bubble.

the reason i'm scared is because i met his dad.

he doesn't like gay people. he said they should die because they sin. that the bible said that only a man and a woman could be together.

i was sad. i was sad because of the pure hatred and disgust he had for them. you could see it in his eyes.

i looked at taehyung and he only smiled sadly at me.

i didn't want to leave him.

i couldn't leave him.

i wanted to believe what he said to me. that being different is great. that god would accept and love us the way we are.

so i asked him if we could keep our relationship a secret for a while.

he smiled, nodded and pulled me into a tight hug.

i ... i think i love him.❞