Hovering shadows, lightning sounds
Rustling leaves, barking hounds,
Poor hammering heart of mine
Just couldn't pretend to be fine.

Those walls shielded me
But couldn't make me warm,
Every passing second without them
Felt like a new storm.

With working mum and tired dad
There was no one else I had,
Going to bed feeling sad
I told God I hate them soo bad.

That little mind of mine
Wanted them to pay,
For leaving me alone
Forgetting me everyday.

So I wined
Wanting everything around me ,
New toys and clothes and games
For my friends to see.

I felt like a monster
For not saving them from the pool of guilt,
So they decided to make me happy
While I rested in my quilt.

Heavy rainfall, misted glass
Dim headlights of our car,
They went for my smile
While I bid adieu from afar.

That night gave me
Everything I wanted,
But left me with nightmares
That caged me and haunted.

They came back
Giving life to my heart,
Laid themselves on those white sheets
And went on their heavenly depart.

Years passed, wounds healed
But this heart has nothing to feel,
Everything around me is sealed
With no mum running behind for a meal.

The teachings of my dad
Were never bad,
Since I was their only child
So they never wanted me mad.

But now I have nothing
Except for those lifeless things ,
The surrendering silence
Is like a lullaby the darkness sings.

Agitated I asked God
Why this suffering
When I am not strong ,
The roaring wind whispered-
You didn't stop hurting and blaming
That's where you went wrong
You have earned this orphan hood
And this misery is where you belong...

-REEVES