before i met him
i was blank,
pure white
in outer space
detached from
everything,
the stars
out of my reach
and the sky is
all over me
where is the sea?
when will we meet?

then pale waves
dragged me in
going further out
and then i saw him

he stained me
coloured me
my canvas
was full of
abstract art

paint was
splattered
all over my
arms.

now the sky
is jealous
because we make
lavender look
prettier
between the sheets

now the sky
is jealous
because your lips
my lips
make peachy orange
look like heaven
in a different
shade

now the sky
is angry
because i'm no longer
lonely
staring at the wispy clouds
lazily sailing by-
i used to be
them
hanging in
the sky.

but why?

some people ask me
why do you need
somebody else
to love you
when could just
love yourself
they don't know
how hard it is
because you're
the one living
in the broken home
that is your body
and the asylum
that is your mind.

grieving
angels
the death
of a
monster
who tried
to be
human

but then she
resurrected
a phoenix
in our midst
and the sun
in her flesh
was him.

now the sky
is jealous
because we make
yellow look
prettier
between our teeth
and in our cheeks
(and in our cheeks)

now the sky
is jealous
because your lips
my lips
make rosy pink
look like heaven
in a different
shade

now the sky
is angry
because i'm no longer
lonely
staring at the drifing stars
stuck there forever-
i used to be
them
holding on
waiting for someone
to walk by.

but i,

now i know
eternity
isn't eternal
when he leaves
the saviour
to save other
people

i'll be okay
i'll be okay.

cos i know
i can move on
cos the sky has
met the sea
and the oceans
can agree that the
stars, oh god, their
beautiful when they
don't know,

but for now
just for this second
that is an infinity
in itself

the sky
will be jealous
because we make
pale blue look
sadder
when our lips
don't kiss
but spit out
bitterness

the sky
will be jealous
because your lips
my lips
make bleeding red
look like hell
in a darker
shade

the sky
will stay angry
because i'm no longer
lonely
staring at the planets
spinning on their axis-
i used to be
them
orbiting in
the sky

but why?