how much does your heart weigh?
is it heavy like my eyes
which hoard sleep
even though i beg them
to let it go
they still hold
and carry the baggage
and i just want to leave it
behind.

how much does your soul weigh
clinging to your bones
and claws reach out
and drag you in the dirt
does it hurt?
carrying that pain
like my
heavy bookbag
on the very first day.

weighing myself on the scale
i feel light
clouds in my thighs
i float on the edge
slipping away from reality
i trip on a stone
and down i go
and suddenly i feel
heavy....

weigh me down
put an anchor in my sock
don't let me leave the dock
my ghost! hold on
don't let me go!

but still
i want to
leave behind my sleep
and useless education
and i'll be oxygen
so light and carefree
as can be
let. me. be.....
let me be.....

how much
do i
weigh?