Warning! This chapter contains the following, slurs and mental break downs. You have been warned. (The first time skip and skip to the song if you don't want the slurs)

Nagito's POV

       They actually remembered my birthday? Wow who knew trash could actually matter. "Thank you but you really didn't have too" I say. I was happy sure, I just don't deserve it. "Of course we didn't freak, we were forced to do this" Saionji stated.

      "Actually I asked and you guys volunteered" Ichi stated, annoyed. I turned and see Izzy wasn't there anymore. I'm sure he has better things to do anyways. "Anyways, we have presents for you!", "Come inside so we can start" Ichi tells me enthusiastically.

    "Ok, perfectly fine with me" I said, with a small smile. I walk inside and close the door behind me. I feel like crap, and something tells me I'm going to even more like crap. "Sooooo, would you like to start off with the presents or cake" Ichi asks me with a smile. "The presents first please". 

Bark Bark Bark! 

      "What was that?" I asked. "N-nothing! Here start with this!" she yells nervously, forcing a present in my hands. "From Sonia". I opened the present slowly, it has two hand made oversized hoodies. "Thank you Sonia" I stated with a smile. "Anything for my cousin".

     We're not actually cousins, people say we look alike, so we act like cousins. "Here take the next one" Ichi says, shoving another present in my arms. "Ichi~chan that hurts" I whined. "Suck it up buttercup". The next present is from Ibuki, it was mini guitar. "Thank you Mioda chan". "Your welcome Komaeda chan, it's custom made by the way" she states.

Bark Bark Bark!

      "Ichi is there a dog in here?" I asked. "What no? Of course not—" Bark bark woof! "Pecan?". "Damn it Peacan, you were supposed to wait boy" Ichi says while groaning. I bend down and start petting the brown pomeranian. "Well surprise I guess?".

      "Thanks Ichi, I went to the pet store the other day and he wasn't there". "I knew you liked Pecan so I got him for you, and FC is here", "I got him for Hajimeme though" she explains. "Where is Hinata kun?" I asked. She giggles, "You see that tall present over there, go open it".

      I stop petting Pecan, and walk over to the tall box. I unwrap it, inside was Hinata kun wraps in a ribbon and a playboy bunny suit. "Happy Birthday Nagito, now please let me out" he says. I playfully smirk, "No way, and did you just call me Nagito?".

      "Yes, now untie me" he demands. I lightly tap his nose, "No". He smirks, "I'll get you later then". FC waddles up to the both of us and unties Hinata kun. "Thank FC, now I'm going change out of this outfit and kill Berrycake" he mumbles. I wanted to take a picture before he was untied.

    "Koko, come get the rest of your presents" Ichi says. I smile, maybe today will be good after all.

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       I lied to myself, today was good, but also bad. Some of my classmates gave me nice presents while others... Nasty Slutty Whore? I know I'm trash, worthless, and the scum of the earth but a nasty slutty whore? That hurts. Is it because of my job at the maid cafe?

      I've never did anything slutty, or something that is considered slutty. My job is my job, I work there for charity. Yet, I'm getting judged for it... I can't do this anymore. A small tear drop rolls down my face. I can't breathe again.

      The walls are closing in and I'm suffocating. Outside, where is it? The eyes, they were staring at me. I don't like it, stop staring at me, please. It started shining a bright blue. Kind of reminding me of the night sky and the start.

       I slowly tread out to the balcony. I wasn't suffocating anymore, but I still couldn't breathe. I slid against the wall and sat down. The thoughts, my thoughts kept coming at different speeds and directions. I didn't like it, I don't like it.

        Why does this trigger me so much? I know I'm pathetic, but a nasty slutty whore? I could never imagine myself as that. My world and mind became a nightmare over reality. Spinning, and spinning, and spinning, repeat. "Hey Nagito?". I blinked, suddenly I was back in reality.

      "Hinata~kun? What are you doing out here?" I asked. I notice I was shivering and shaking. "Why are you crying?" He asks softly. "What do you mean? I'm not—". He slowly caresses my cheek. Oh. I am crying. "Can I touch you?".

     "What?". "You're not exactly done having a panic attack", "Berrycake said I'm not allowed to touch you unless you say so" he explains. "Oh, well you can touch me", "I don't mind". He engulfs me into a hug. I felt warm and safe. "You know Pecan and FC are worried about you right?".

      "The cute doggy couple is worried about trash?". "Stop calling yourself that". "I've been called worse" I mumbled. "Like what?". "You'll get mad if I tell you". "I'm your bestfriend of course I will", "Well I believe I'm your bestfriend" he says. "I um got this note today", "It um called me a nasty slutty whore" I mumbled.

       "Who gave it to you?". "Hinata kun?", "Are you angry?" I asked. "Of course! To hell with that person", "To even think calling an angel—". "An angel?". He blushes, "That's— I mean— fuck it nevermind". I giggle softly, "It hurts". "The words?". "Yeah, never been called that before".

       My tears starts falling again. "Hey Nagi, don't cry", "It's not true". "It must be if I was called that". "Whoever said it is just a hater and is jealous" he states. "Why would someone be jealous of trash?", "That's stupid" I mumbled. He sighs heavily. Great I made him more upset. I quietly sob, not wanting to disturb him.

(Ight another song bishes Italics-Hajimeme Both (Ichi)- I+B)

Not tryna be indie, not tryna be cool
Just tryna be in this, tell me how you choose
Can you feel where the wind is?
Can you feel it through, all of the windows inside this room
Cause I wanna touch you baby
And I wanna feel you too
I wanna see the sunrise and your sins
Just me and you

(Both) light it up, on the run
Let's make love tonight, make it up
Fall in love, try, baby I'm right here
But you'll never be alone
I'll be with you from dusk til dawn
I'll be with you from dusk til dawn
Baby I'm right here
I'll hold you when things go wrong
I'll be with you from dusk til Dawn
I'll be with you from dusk til Dawn
Baby I'm right here~
I'll be with you from dusk til Dawn
Baby I'm right here

We were shut like a jacket, so do your zip
We would roll down the Rapids
To find a wave that fits
Can you feel where the wind is?
Can you feel it though, all of the windows inside this room?

Light it up, on the run
Let's make love tonight, make it up
Fall in love, try, baby I'm right here
But you'll never be alone
I'll be with you from dusk til dawn
I'll be with you from dusk til dawn
Baby I'm right here
I'll hold you when things go wrong
I'll be with you from dusk til Dawn
I'll be with you from dusk til Dawn
Baby I'm right here~
I'll be with you from dusk til Dawn
Baby I'm right here

Go give love to you body, is only you that could stop it
Its only you that can stop it
Go give
It's only you
Go give
It's only you
Go give
Go give

Light it up, on the run
Let's make love tonight, make it up
Fall in love, try, baby I'm right here
But you'll never be alone
I'll be with you from dusk til dawn
I'll be with you from dusk til dawn
Baby I'm right here
I'll hold you when things go wrong
I'll be with you from dusk til Dawn
I'll be with you from dusk til Dawn
Baby I'm right here~
I'll be with you from dusk til Dawn
Baby I'm right here

     "T-thank you Hinata~kun". "Do you feel better now?" He asks me. "Y-yeah I'm fine now" I stated. The stars were pretty tonight, I always liked looking up there. "You like stars?". "Yes, stars are pretty and I like pretty things" I tell him.

       Hinata~kun lifts up my chin and I look at him. "Yes Hinata~kun?". "You know, you're pretty cute and adorable" he says, his voice being soft and smooth. I blush, "I-I'm not". "Yes you are". He nuzzles my neck, "H-hinata~kun stop". "Why?". "You tickling me, now get offff" I whined.

     He grabs my arm and pulls me closer to me. I blush harder as I stared into his eyes. "What's with you Hinata~kun?". "I have another present to give to you" he says. "What is it th— mm". Hinata kun kisses me. I have no idea why he would do that, but I kiss back. I've always wanted this to happen.

     He pulls back and looks at me. I blush, "I didn't actually expect you to kiss back". "Well I um like you Hinata kun" I mumbled. "I know that now, I'll leave you to look at the stars" he says, messing up my hair. I smile, "Thank you, Hinata~kun". "Anytime". He walks back inside, "That was a cute moment".

     Startled, I threw my shoe where the voice came from. "Sugar Buns that's rude". "Izzy?".

Author's note: This is long asf, I got threatened during the making of this chapter 😔✋ please enjoy. Chapter 45 and the rest will be sad, grab ya tissues and snacks.

Finished on: 11/09/20
Published on: 11/17/20