start song: sex drugs etc by beach weather

SORRY THIS IS A MESS UWU

also small smut warning

Josh is happy, his legs are draped over Brendon's lap, Brendon's hand gently squeezing and unsqueezing his ankle, the gesture calming him. It's nice, the comfort he feels in his touch. Tyler is at the front door, collecting the pizza they'd ordered. Josh had offered to pay at the sound of knocking but Tyler had just kissed him softly and laughed before prancing away to get the food.

His lips are still sore from the amount of kissing he's participated in, in the past 30 minutes. Their relationship has done a complete 360 within that time frame and even with reassurance Josh feels slightly out of place. Tyler and Brendon have been dating for years, he's jealous of this, jealous that their so close, scared that this means he'll never fit in. So even with the comforting touches from Brendon he's still kind of intimidated by the whole situation.

And he voices these things when Brendon frowns at him, pulls him closer with a gentle tug and asks. "What's wrong?"

At first he denies anything and shakes his head before shutting his eyes. "Nothing."

"You're a shitty liar." Brendon snorts, scooting closer to him, Josh's thighs end up in his lap, Josh is blushing.

"Is it weird to talk about your relationship with the person you're in a relationship with?" Josh asks, letting his fingers wander into Brendon's hair so he doesn't have to make eye contact. Frankly, he's surprised that Brendon doesn't ask him to stop considering Josh has ruined his hair at this point.

Brendon raises an eyebrow. "Uh- that's a big no, you're actually supposed to talk to the people youre dating when it comes to the relationship."

Josh groans, pouting. "I'm bad at that."'

Brendon frowns. "Do you not want this or something?"

"No- No I do want this. I want to be with you and Tyler." Josh smiles shakily, lacing his fingers with Brendon's and giving them a tight squeeze. "That's definitely not the problem, i'm just scared I guess." He looks at Brendon softly. "This is new to me and you guys have been dating for a long time and I don't feel like i'm intruding but I sort of do at the same time. I want this to work, I really want it to work. But i'm like a new addition to this relationship and I don't want to be a burden or ruin things." Josh exhales and looks at Brendon. "Sorry, uh- I guess I needed to get that off my chest."

"You're overthinking this way too much." Brendon kisses his knuckles one by one. "Don't think about it like that, me and Tyler might be going on our fourth year together but that doesn't make our dynamic of this relationship superior. We're excited to have you be apart of this and you're definitely not intruding." Josh sighs in relief and presses himself to Brendon's chest, Brendon still continues. "We really like you Josh. Everything will work itself out naturally just do and say what feels right you know?"

Josh nods against his chest just as Tyler wanders back in, two pizza boxes in hand.

"Why does Josh look like he's about to cry again? Did you show him that other painting I did of him?" Tyler scolds, setting the boxes of pizza on the coffee table along with their drinks.

Brendon snorts at the way Josh's cheeks flush and he wiggles closer to him. "I mean why don't you ask him?" Brendon's lips go to Josh's ear, whispering softly. "He'll probably say the same thing i did."

Josh looks at Tyler and asks him. "I just, I guess im worried that i'm not gonna fit in with you two." Josh admits shyly, it's not easy to be this vulnerable for him but he decides that if this is going to work it's necessary.

Tyler smiles, settling beside them, managing to wiggle his arm around Josh's waist and pull him closer; away from Brendon. "You already do Joshie."

Josh snorts, he can't even help it. "Gross, do not call me Joshie. I'll call you Tylie and i'll call Brendon, Brendie."

"Brendie, now that's hot." Brendon grins, scooting unbelievably closer to him.  Josh immediately finds himself leaning into him instead of Tyler. It's easy and even though he feels really squished between the two of them, he never wants to move.

"Hm, okay I think I know what might reassure you a bit I guess..." Tyler says in thought, running his fingers across Josh's thigh delicately.

Josh tenses slightly, Tyler laughs. "Relax." He squeezes his thigh instead and moves it lower towards his knee. "I was thinking more along the lines of a story about my past relationships, unless that would like bother you or something." Tyler looks at him then, eyes soft, cheeks flushed.

"If you want to." Josh says, glad that there's no awkward pauses when Tyler smiles at him and starts talking.

"So, well my first relationship ever was with my 2 best friends at the time." He says, there's nothing uncomfortable about it though. Just by his posture and tone Josh can tell that Tyler is comfortable talking about this. Even Brendon doesn't seem particularly bothered that Tyler's talking about his exes, his chin is just resting on Josh's shoulder. "Which, is as messy as it sounds. If you want an example of a bad poly relationship that was it."

"Brendon likes to argue that his first relationship was worse."

Brendon breathes against Josh's neck, it sends shivers down his spine. "Mhm, definitely was but i'm not gonna try an invalidate my baby's experiences."

Tyler rolls his eyes. "Oh sure, as if you don't do that already."

Josh has a lot of questions and he's just now realizing that he hasn't really seen Brendon and Tyler interact a lot until today but for some reason that just excites him, he's excited to learn everything about the two of them.

Tyler smiles at him. "Anyways, I dated my two best friends who were already dating each other first. Which shouldn't have been a problem y'know? but it was because they were both very jealous people which is ultimately bad especially for poly relationships. Because really, it's important that you don't get jealous. Like when you're here with Brendon, i'm not jealous that you two are spending time together. If anything i'm happy about it."

"Yeah." Brendon touches Josh's waist. "Neither of us are jealous, even in bed."

Josh blushes. Tyler snorts.

"So I told them I wasn't going to be monogamous and they said it was fine as long as i always came back to them. Which I did. Regardless they cared a lot more then they let on and wouldn't let me leave our apartment."

"What do you mean by that?" Josh frowns, tilting his head to the side when Brendon presses a kiss right under his ear and then his jaw. Tyler doesn't seem to care, his hand still possessively holding onto Josh's thigh as he speaks.

Tyler shrugs. "I mean they locked me in our bedroom for like 2 days after I told them I was going out to see my girlfriend."

Josh's eyes widen. "What the fuck."

"Yeah, what the fuck is right." Tyler is still smiling somehow though, always able to keep a smile on his face. "So that was shit."

"Then after I got out of that horror show, I met Brendie." Tyler leans over and presses a kiss to his lips, gripping Josh's thigh to keep him steady as he leans over. Josh bites his lip, an attempt to maintain his very calm exterior.

"We met at work actually, isn't that surprising." Brendon mumbles against Josh's neck once Tyler pulls away from him and settles back to his previous position, his hand straying to Josh's hip, which makes Josh takes a deep breath.

"Hm, yeah. I really was expecting you two to have met at a bar."

"If it tells you anything, our first time together was at a bar in a bathroom stall." Brendon chuckles.

"Which bar?"

"Ha, um. The one you work at." Tyler looks at Brendon.

Josh gapes. "Wait what?"

"4 years ago, give or take." Tyler smiles and gives Josh's thigh a squeeze. "Were you even working there?"

Josh has only been there for maybe 2 years now, he doesn't necessarily keep track of how long he works his jobs but it definitely hasn't been 4 years. "I-yeah i wasn't."

"We're getting off track again."

"Anyways lets just shorten this up, im really hungry." Tyler says, hooking his ankle with Josh's. "Long story short, I met brendon and his girlfriend, i was scared that i wouldn't fit in to their relationship, but turns out i did. And listen Josh, we wouldn't want to be in a relationship with you if we didn't think it would work okay? You fit in so well, I don't think we've even had a really awkward moment yet."

"You both made me feel very awkward at first." Josh admits a bit shyly, Tyler kind of frowns at him so he reaches for his hand to reassure him. "Maybe not awkward but confused, very confused."

Josh expects Brendon to say something, but he's still kissing up and down his neck, not hard enough to leave hickeys but enough to make him shiver. So he turns to Tyler since Brendon isn't participating in the conversation anymore, Josh isn't sure he'll be able to stay focused enough to participate either for very much longer.

Tyler nods in understanding. "That's fair, I mean i'm kind of a blunt person so people usually feel awkward around me."

"It's not a bad type of awkward or anything though." Josh assures him. "Just- i'm not the best at relationships in general and the way you were coming onto me-"

"Oh I wish." Brendon nips at his skin.

Josh yelps. "Oh my god!" and turns to him. "Brendon."

Brendon smiles. "What's up?"

"Ignore him," Tyler says automatically.

Josh sighs and looks at Brendon, glasses pushed into his hair, cheeks pink. Josh kind of wants to kiss his neck too now, just to make it fair but instead he smiles and turns back to look at Tyler with an easy smile. "Get back to the story?"

"Okay yeah." He narrows his eyes at Brendon. "So, finally all three of us dated, Brendon and I were the monogamous ones. Which surprised me but like-i was so helplessly in love with him that i didn't want other partners beyond him and sarah."

"I agree with that." Brendon says against Josh's skin, already moved back to his previous position. "He was soooo in love with me, still is."

Tyler blushes. "Yeah......So sarah left us. We just lost that connection with her, she comes around to hang out with us sometimes though. Once a year maybe, so after her, Brendon and I sorta stayed together and yeah, that's sort of it."

Josh is nodding and he gasps when Brendon licks over his pulse point. Clearly unable to stop himself. "D-Dude."

"Okay, time for food." Tyler pushes Brendon's head away from Josh's neck. "Behave yourself Brennie."

"Of course," Brendon perks up and pulls Josh right into his lap, forcing Tyler to let go of him. "i'm very well behaved. Don't you agree Josh?" He nuzzles into the soft skin of his neck, Josh curls his hand around Brendon's bicep.

Josh looks at him, cheeks a rosy pink. "Um, no. That's a big no."

"Ha!" Tyler yells once he's stood up.

"Oh shut up," Brendon rolls his eyes and cuddles up to Josh again, he holds him tightly and Josh can feel his binder digging into his ribs in the most obnoxious way. He'll need to take it off at some point tonight.

"So pizza time?" Tyler asks, sitting on the floor in front of the coffee table while already pushing open the lid of one of the pizza boxes. Josh breathes in, he hadn't realized how hungry he was until now.

"Yes, please." He says.

Tyler smiles and heads to the kitchen, Josh assumes it's to get paper plates or drinks. He's not sure, meanwhile Brendon is still holding him and Josh is still surprisingly really comfortable with him.

"Did that story help at all?" Brendon asks him, whispering into his ear. It makes Josh laugh because it tickles but ultimately he just smiles and nods against Brendon's chest.

Tyler comes back with paper plates, a few cans of red bull and ranch dressing.

*

After they eat, they all relocate to the bathroom.

Josh sits on the closed lid of their toilet, facing the wall. And much like last time he was here, he's not wearing a shirt. His binder remains intact though, tight around his ribs and body. It's not that uncomfortable still. When he showers to rinse out the bleach he'll definitely be taking it off for the rest of the night.

It was his idea, Brendon had immediately offered him some of his old clothes but Josh figured it was pointless. He's comfortable around them, so comfortable and he figures why take steps back when he's perfectly fine with baring his covered chest.

Tyler had also offered him his clothes, he'd said. "You'd look cute wearing one of my shirts." Josh had a sneaking suspicion that Tyler just wanted him out of his binder, he knew how bad Josh's ribs looked at the end of the day.

Currently, Tyler has gloves on and is reading the instructions about how to apply and mix the bleach and Brendon is sitting on the counter smoking. He'd asked Josh before hand of course and Josh hadn't really cared.

"I honestly do like the red a lot." Brendon says. Eyes on Tyler preparing the dye with Josh's careful instruction because really Josh doesnt trust the box dyes instruction.

"The red looks like shit, right now anyways." Josh turns to him, shivering when he feels Tyler's hand warm at the nape of his neck. "My roots are completely grown out, it's bad."

Tyler snorts from behind him, he's got the bleach ready to be applied, hands already hidden underneath gloves. "It looked good when I first saw you."

"Oh, I agree." Brendon swings his legs, like a child from where he's sitting on the bathroom counter.

Josh flushes slightly, groaning. "You're both lying, shut up."

"Nah, Josh you were so cute back there, no shit."

"I saw him first." Tyler murmurs, too concentrated on not messing up. His fingers are just carding through Josh's hair, parting it in a way that'll make the process faster and less messy. Bleaching hair isn't the easiest process, especially for a beginner.

Grinning Josh turns his head back to look at Tyler and then to Brendon. "I dare you guys to tell me what your agenda was." Brendon grimaces.

Josh sighs. "And don't even try and tell me you didn't have one, so fucking cryptic all the time I swear."

"It's embarrassing." Brendon says, cheeks a shade of pink.

Josh blinks. "You're kidding, I really doubt it."

"Oh no, it's uh- kind of um, very elaborate." Brendon says awkwardly.

"We were very determined to find a way to get with you." Tyler adds on, unbothered unlike Brendon.

"Now you have to tell me."

"Wait Josh am I doing this right?" Tyler asks, the bleach formula on at the tips of his gloves and on the small brush in his hand. "Just your roots right?"

"Yeah you can kinda just put it everywhere honestly, just make sure you don't miss anywhere." He knows it's already going to turn out better then how he usually does it. Having any help at all usually makes it look a lot better then when he does it himself.

"Do you really want to know?" Brendon asks, not looking at him but at Tyler. Waiting for him to say it's not okay. Josh is definitely not going to let them get out of telling him.

"Yes." Josh murmurs.

"Okay so, Tyler is it like okay that I-"

"Yeah you tell it, you deserve the embarrassment."

Brendon snorts before carefully looking at Josh. "Okay look, please don't be mad firstly. Um, it's going to sound like we thought of you as an object and not a person which is shitty so you have every right to be offended."

"It's really not that awful, jesus you're bad at this baby." Tyler giggles, gently applying the bleach to Josh's hair.

"Shut up." Brendon rolls his eyes. "So, um it was all planned out. Mostly, the times you ran into Tyler selling his art wasn't and you coming here after you know-getting beat up- that wasn't planned but we kind of had this plan about how we'd ask you out and yeah....."

"What do you mean by planned out?" Josh flushes, unsure if he should be flattered or not.

"We saw you at the bar like a week before you noticed either of us and and we wanted to bring you home with us immediately." Brendon rushes out, not looking at Josh.
"And we didn't tell you we were dating until later because we didn't want to freak you out since we were both sort of coming into you."

"So your plan was to do what?"

"Seduce you and then y'know bring you home........... and Tyler really wanted to paint you because he thinks you're really hot."

"Is that it?" Josh asks, wincing at the way the bleach is making his scalp burn. Despite having been expecting it and despite having bleached his hair many many times he's not sure he'll ever get used to the pain that comes with it. Tylers doing a really good job though, he can feel him working section by section, holding parts of his hair against his gloved hand and then saturating it with the bleach.

"I mean, we were also kind of competing to see who would kiss you first or who'd would manage to get you into bed but I guess yeah that's it." Brendon scratches at his hair before ruffling it a little. He pointedly looks at Josh, bottom lip caught between his teeth as he slowly gets off of the bathroom counter. "Are you upset?"

Josh frowns, shivering when Tyler scratches at his scalp just right. "Should I be upset?" He asks, mostly because it sounds like something that would upset most people. But he's not, he finds it sort of cute for some reason. "Because I don't think you did anything necessarily wrong and i'm like not mad about it."

"Mhm I guess not, unless you're offended that we only wanted to have sex with you at first." Tyler murmurs and Josh sighs when Tyler's gloved hands are no longer touching his head.

"Do you still just want to have sex with me?" He knows they don't just want sex, but it's still a thought. He doesn't think he would mind but still, he does like them both way more than he thought he would.

"Well.......yes, but we don't just want to have sex with you." Tyler says, a blush high on his cheeks. Which kind of surprises Josh, he turns around to face Tyler completely so he's no longer staring at a wall but at Tyler and Brendon instead. "We want you to be our boyfriend and we want to bring you on dates and we want to hang out with you and all that stuff."

"We want to do all the boyfriend stuff with you." Brendon clarifies.

Josh crosses his arms over his chest awkwardly. "We can do that." He gulps. "I-um, want to do all of that too."

Brendon smiles at him and Tyler pats him on the head. "Oh your hair is done by the way." Tyler smiles and peels off the gloves, throwing them into the small garbage can beside the toilet. Joshs scalp feels hot but it's tolerable, he's excited to rinse it out later.

"Cool. um well now we've just got to wait." He says and slowly stands, using Tyler's arm to pull himself up. Tyler's bicep is much stronger than it looks.

"Want to help me paint?" Tyler asks, cleaning up the counter space a little bit so it's more organized. There's still a lot to be done.

Josh frowns a bit, unsure about actually helping Tyler an actual artist with his art. There's no way this could genuinely end well.   "Oh, I, wouldn't wanna ruin anything."

Brendon's leaning in the doorway when he says. "Well you guys can hang out, i'm gonna bake a cake." It's extremely random and Josh and Tyler both turn to look at him.

Tyler raises an eyebrow. "You're going to bake a cake...."

"You can bake?" Josh asks, equally as surprised.

Brendon grins and shoves his hands into the pockets of his sweater. "Yeah, look I want something sweet and Tyler," He looks at him fondly. "You're a shitty baker."

"Okay, uh,well you do that honey," Tyler grins and kisses his cheek. "i'm gonna show Josh my art studio."

Brendon wanders off to the kitchen and Josh lets Tyler guide him to the art studio. Immediately Tyler reaches for his hand as he guides him along, which makes Josh smile and he's kind of realizing that Tyler's doing his own version of a house tour, despite them having an apartment that doesn't really require much of a tour.

It's big though, way bigger than josh's place. Tyler had pointed into a room as they passed by it. "This is our bedroom." He'd said and then the next few words out of his mouth were "Hallway closet, guest bedroom, and....... art studio." Which was a room at the end of the main hallway. He pushes the door open and if Josh thought the living room was messy then he'd surely underestimated how messy this room was going to be. Somehow he'd expected it to be clean.

It's not clean, at all. There are fresh canvases stacked in the corner of the room, some standing, some flat and then a bunch of paintings against the other wall, some Josh has seen before. There are jars of acrylic paint on a bookshelf, medium sized along with some oil paint solvant and fuck, theres a lot going on. The wooden floors have specks of paint all over them and the walls have actual paintings on them, Josh would consider them murals. It's so pretty and actually kind of cramped in here.

Tyler pulls him inside and Josh just kind of stares at everything in awe, mostly because it's difficult not to. "So this is where I spend a lot of my time." Tyler smiles and squeezes his hand. "It's kind of.... small but i think it works, i don't need that much space."

Josh nods. "This is really cool man." Josh gestures to the walls, the murals.

"Thank you!" Tyler lets go of his hand and Josh would've been offended had he not let go of his hand just to go grab a tiny canvas that's set on the desk.

The painting Tyler lets him help with isn't actual the tiny one though. He ends up leading him over to this huge canvas with a very abstract looking flower and says. "All I need you to do is is help with the background." And he hands him a medium sized paint brush. "I'll show you what I need you to do first and you can like, follow my lead I guess. Don't worry too much about it, it's an oil painting so every little mistake can be covered up really easily."

Before they start, Josh sets a timer on his phone for his hair. It won't need to be in for long, just enough to lift his roots to a light yellow-blonde colour. Which he hopes it'll do, he really doesn't want to bleach it twice considering how bad it is for his hair. Seriously, his hair feels extremely dry half the time and he knows it's because of the amount he bleaches it.

Tyler demonstrates, they're using white paint and all he does is dip in his paint brush and do a quick, kind of messy, stroke downwards.  And then he does a few more, some longer than others, some shorter. It kind of reminds Josh of rain drops rolling down a window.

"Okay so thats kind of it, you try now." Tyler says.

"I'm sorry if I ruin it." He says in advance and Tyler immediately smiles and assures him that he won't. Josh does exactly what Tyler had done. Dips his paintbrush in the paint, and then creates a medium length stroke downwards, ending it right before it touches the petal of the flower.

Josh looks at him nervously and Tyler grins. "That's actually perfect."

They get kind of carried away, really the canvas is so big and there's a lot of ground to cover. It could take an hour to fully cover the whole background like Tyler wants. They've done about half of it by the time Josh's alarm goes off.

"We're both covered in paint now." Tyler says, which Josh's furrows his eyebrows at before he looks down at his hands and arms and realizes that yeah he really is.

Josh smiles at him. "It's kinda hot."

"Hm, m' not sure if that's considered a paint fetish or a paint kink." Tyler grins and gently grabs Josh's paintbrush from his hand.

"Oh shut up."

*

Brendon and Tyler leave him to rinse out the bleach, which Josh is super careful about. it's kind of nerve wracking considering it would suck to get the dye solution in his eyes or anywhere that would cause him discomfort, especially knowing that he'd start crying. Which he doesn't want to happen because really, he's cried enough today.

It's an odd feeling to be in their shower though, knowing that both of his boyfriends? are right outside waiting for him. It's different from last time, last time had been about taking care of him because he'd been injured, this time was about taking care of each-other.

Well, Brendon and Tyler are still taking care of him, which Josh doesn't mind. He just wished he could be doing more for them, but maybe next time they come over to his house he'll feel better about it. He'll feel like he's taking care of them instead of the other way around.

When he's sure all the bleach is out he turns off the shower and goes to grab a towel to realize that there isn't one. Fuck. Josh sighs, looking down at his body that's already beginning to become covered in goose bumps from the cool air of the rest of the bathroom touching his skin.

"Uh-I need a towel." Josh yells, dripping with water. He pushes his hair back and he knows that he should probably tone it so it's less yellow, he knows his roots are definitely not the perfect bleached shade that the rest of his hair is but he just wants to get the pink dye in his hair and be over with it.

The door creaks open and Josh uses the shower curtain to hide his body before poking his head out. Its Tyler, with a huge fluffy yellow towel.

"Sorry we didn't leave you with one." He says and closes the bathroom door behind him. Josh can see the steam escape.

"It's fine." He reaches for the towel which Tyler easily gives to him. He doesn't immediately wrap it around himself though, he just holds it and keeps his head poked out so he can talk to Tyler.

"D'you want pyjamas?" Tyler asks.

"Am I sleeping here?" Josh raises an eyebrow, tries to not show how much he actually wants to sleep here. He's just nervous about what that would actually entail.

Tyler shrugs, Josh can tell that it's stunted, he wants him to sleepover. "Are you?" Tyler asks. "Because we'd love if you would."

Josh quickly pulls back behind the curtain and wraps the towel around himself in a tight hold. "Yeah, um id like that." He says quickly, quietly. It's kind of embarrassing and he's kind of freaking out because he's naked.

He hears Tyler hum. "Okay man, cool. I'll bring you some PJ's and then we can finish with your hair."

Tyler ends up giving him an old t-shirt and some basketball shorts. Josh is tempted to put his binder back on but it's pointless because he'll just need to take it off again when he rinses the pink dye out of his hair.

In the same position as before, Brendon actually ends up dyeing the rest of his hair, something about wanting to try it. And Tyler calmly sits on the bathroom counter, just like Brendon had been doing when they'd bleached his hair but he's not antsy, he's super concentrated.

He has his tiny painting with him and is way too focused to even look at them. Not that Josh minds, he's kind of falling asleep from the way Brendon has decided to massage his scalp with the dye. Which isn't really the best way to apply it, because his scalp will be bright pink for a few days now but it feels way too good to ask Brendon to stop.

But anyways, Tyler's concentrated, which really is sort of cute, his tongue pokes out a little bit and he's sort of frowning but more in concentration then annoyance. And every few minutes he'll ask them both for their opinion and if the sky is too blue, and if he should add in more purple and pinks. He doesn't show them the painting though but somehow Brendon just answers without thinking. "Purple." every time Tyler asks.

It takes less time to get the dye in his hair, probably because Brendon isn't being as careful as Tyler had been with the bleaching but still, the dye is in his hair within 10 minutes.

"It looks good already." Tyler smiles and puts his paintbrush on the counter, not even bothered by the paint that drips onto it. He hops down.

"Yeah another 30 minutes and then I can rinse it out." Josh yawns. It's getting late and he's been here for hours at this point and already, he never wants to leave.

"Okay, well i'm taking a quick-shower, im covered in paint. Why don't you guys go like pick out a movie to watch?"

Brendon peels off the now pink gloves he's wearing. "Yeah sure."

*

While Tyler's in the shower scrubbing paint and hair dye off his body, Brendon and Josh head back to the living room with the promise of finding a movie and not starting it. It's dark outside and the only light they have is a small yellow toned lamp that's sat beside the couch.

Brendon gives Josh the remote control, letting him scroll through their options on netflix while he softly touches Josh's neck and shoulders. Nothing intense, just tracing the freckles that dust his skin. Which is as blushed as the rest of him is, Brendon hasn't stopped touching him all night and Josh loves it.

"So were watching captain america?" Brendon asks, kissing up Josh's shoulder.

Josh shrugs, shivering, he doesn't really care that much. "I guess so."

He's quiet for a few minutes afterwards and Josh can feel the slight tension between the two of them. "Can I kiss you?" Brendon asks eventually.

Josh grins and sits up a little bit, touching his hand to Brendon's shoulder. "I guess so."

He ends up in Brendon's lap, straddling him shyly. It's different like this, without Tyler here. He wishes Tyler were here, just to watch, just to know that he really is okay with this.

"Bad idea, very bad idea." Josh whispers against Brendon's lips, hands on his shoulders, Brendon's hands cradling his cheeks, his jaw. He can feel some excess hair dye dripping down the back of his neck and down his back. He'd forgotten about the dye covering his entire head.

Brendon shakes his head and kisses him again, gentle, so gentle. His eyes are dark when he looks at Josh again. "Why?"

Josh rolls his eyes and diverts them to the wall behind them. There's a painting of a sunset he hadn't noticed earlier. "There's dye in my hair idiot." He whispers and looks at him again.

Brendon just shrugs. "I won't touch it then." And Josh is ready to protest again when Brendon kisses him and he gasps into his mouth, immediately squeezing his legs a bit. It's not that Brendon kissing him is unexpected, no, but the tongue that's introduced and the gentle nibbling at his lip instead of just soft chaste kisses is. It's like their first kiss but better, more comfortable, Josh is more at ease now, less worried about fucking up or crashing their teeth together.

He licks at Brendon's bottom lip and deepens the kiss, which Brendon allows and presses back against him. Pulling him against his chest by his waist. Considering his binders off, he's kind of uncomfortable. Very conscious of the small weight of his chest, he's not flat and that much is obvious when he's pressed to Brendon like this.

Ignoring the feeling is easy though, losing himself in the kiss is easy. It's so easy and when Brendon arches his back a little and cants his hips upwards Josh has to hold back a tiny moan in favour of spreading his legs a little more.

He's heat, hot all over his body. Brendon doesn't buck up against him again, which is mildly disappointing but he doesn't stop kissing him or running his fingers up and down his back which makes up for it. And when his hands up end up on Josh's thighs, gripping them nicely, Josh whimpers into the kiss.

Which Brendon seems to like by the way he holds onto Josh's hips and slowly grinds up against him. It's really slow at first, which Josh appreciates. The drag of their hips against one another is good, makes him squeeze his thighs a little harder and lose his focus a lot more then he'd like.

Even with the layers of clothes between them it feels good, and it feels better when Brendon's fingers draw at the waistband of his pyjama pants and start pulling them down. Frantically Josh lifts his hips up and helps Brendon pull his pants down to his knees, not bothering to completely remove them before sitting back down on his lap.

It's different with one less layer, his underwear are wet and his whole body trembles just a little bit when his clit gets stimulated by the way Brendon knocks his hips upwards, the hardness of his cock making contact with Josh. "Oh, shit."

And Brendon smiles. "Yeah? you're okay with this?" and Josh whispers yes and kisses him again, and starts squirming in his lap as he tries to get himself off. Which Brendon seems to like and follows along with, pushing his hips up to meet the steady grind of Josh's.

Josh is so caught up in everything, so close, he barely even heard the quiet. "Woah." It's just a small voice but it's not coming from him or Brendon. Brendon is still kissing at his neck and steadily grinding against him though so Josh glances behind him. Tyler.

"Oh." Josh gasps and squeezes Brendon's shoulders, lifting his hips off of his lap immediately, no matter how close he was. He can feel his thighs trembling and his face go red. "I-um." He looks at Brendon and then at Tyler. Not really sure what to do in this situation.

Tyler narrows his eyes at the two of them suspiciously. It's intimidating but Josh doesn't look away. "I thought you were gonna pick out a movie."

"We did." Brendon says before placing his hands on Josh's hips and gently pushing him back down, Josh squirms when that familiar hard pressure pushes up against him. Oh god he needs to get up.

"His neck is like completely pink, dye is everywhere." Tyler mumbles and walks over to them, placing a delicate hand on Josh's shoulder. It's like he's in trouble even though Josh can tell that Tyler's not actually mad.

Josh shakily climbs out of Brendon's lap, still coming down from what was almost an orgasm, Brendon grins at him. "Oops." He helps Josh pull his pants back up and pats him on the hip before leaning back into the couch. Josh isn't sure if he's annoyed that he didn't get to come or relieved.

"Dude," Tyler sighs and touches his neck, he shows Josh his finger.  That's a lot of dye. "C'mon,"

He ends up silently following Tyler to the bathroom, Tyler who's not smiling but just kind of neutral. Which worries him because Tylers always smiling, always playful. He's still aroused and he knows that a few fingers or just a little bit of pressure would get him off in under a minute but he's too focused on Tyler being mad that he doesn't even think about it.

"That was okay right?" Josh asks nervously once they shut the door behind them. "I feel like that wasn't something we've talked about and maybe should." Which it is, with all the talk of sex, they've never genuinely talked about it. He can feel the hair dye on his neck dripping down to his back. They should've covered his head with something.

Tyler looks at him and adjust the towel around his waist. "Yeah, it's just um." Tyler grabs his hand and gently intertwines their fingers together, it's reassuring. "Okay this is going to sound stupid but i'm worried that once we start having sex we won't be able to stop and it'll become the whole relationship."

Josh gulps, yeah he understands that. Considering it seems like most of his relationships in the past year haven't been actual relationships and instead just a bunch of threesomes with strangers. "I-um, get that." Josh says quietly, leaning against the counter. "That makes sense, but look, we're not going to lose the whole connection we have if we start having sex y'know? It's just like an added bonus to our relationship, more intimacy. And look, we've made it this far already. And all we've done is kiss, we've spent more time just hanging out then anything else."

Tyler looks at their joint hands, eyes soft. "Yeah, you're right." It's weird to see one of the most confident people he knows be so vulnerable around him, but maybe it's because Tyler really isn't that confident. It kind of breaks Josh's heart a bit that this is a genuine worry of Tylers. Because he would never let their relationship solely become sex.

"Mhm, but look." Josh pauses. "If you really would be more comfortable with waiting, that's perfectly fine." Josh says, trying to be as comforting as possible. He genuinely hopes he's helping. "Have you talked to Brendon about this?"

"No." Tyler sighs, defeated. He slumps over a bit. "Like I know I probably should but I uh, honestly I don't know why I didn't."

"Okay well how about, we don't do anything tonight and you go talk to Brendon about it while I get this shit out of my hair." Josh says, his hair is becoming hard. Genuinely hard from how long the dye has been in there now.

Tyler nods and touches his hips, gently pulling him forward. Tyler kisses Josh and Josh immediately kisses him back. Tries to make it slow and soft and chaste, his hands gently holding Tyler's jaw, his body not too close. They pull away smiling.

"Go talk to him, i'll be out in like 10 minutes." Probably more because there's no way Josh is going to survive the rest of the night if he doesn't masturbate.

Tyler grins. "Yeah, I'll talk to him and when you get out we can actually watch a movie and eat the cake Brendon made."

*

Josh does end up masturbating in the shower, very quickly and very clumsily. It doesn't take very much to get him off, especially after grinding against Brendon for 10 minutes straight beforehand.

And then he's back in the pyjamas, hair wet, eyes tired and very ready to just cuddle up on the couch and watch captain america with his boyfriends. Well he thinks that's what he should be calling them anyways. They hadn't necessarily established much of a label for what they were but the world boyfriend had been mentioned multiple times today so he figures that's what they are.

Tyler has his head against Brendon's shoulder and legs in his lap while Brendon eats cake, presumably the one he made earlier.

"Looks cozy over there." Josh says with a little yawn as he approaches them. Theres a whole cake on the coffee table, with no frosting. Which Josh thinks makes it even better.

Brendon grins at him and takes another big bite of cake. "Join the cuddles."

Tyler pats the spot beside him and Josh blushes and climbs onto the couch, immediately wrapping his arms around Tyler. It's comfortable and Tyler lets Josh sort of half spoon him, half hold him from behind. "Good shower?" Tyler asks lazily, bringing Josh's hand to rest on his waist. Which Josh does with no hesitation.

Josh looks away and at the TV when he answers. "Great shower. I'm officially pink."

Brendon smiles. "I bet."

"Ew." Josh grimaces, he shoves him gently. "Whatever man, pass me some cake."

Which Brendon does. They all end up wrapped up around each other, which made Josh sweat a little because it's genuinely hot when you're three people all sharing body heat and creating more by how close you are to each other. But he refuses to move away from them, it's amazing to have Tyler pressed against him and Brendon trying to hold his hand. And Josh loves it, loves everything about it, loves how they're all tangled together, feeding each other cake.

It's probably one of the best nights he's had in a long time. Especially when Tyler falls asleep half-way through the movie and starts drooling on him a little bit, which he somehow manages to make cute. Tyler's always cute and even Brendon points it out when he notices him asleep. "He can't stay awake during movies ever. I swear he falls asleep every time." He whispers, just for the sake of making sure Tyler doesn't wake up.

Brendon falls asleep next though, right before the movie ends and Josh just smiles and cuddles closer. Yeah, they were gonna be just fine.

A/N

yep, this is it jfjfhff

this fic probably has one more chapter left and it's officially at like 33k words which i'm really happy about