•feral boys
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//death, knife, stabbing (idk how to tag things)

Sapnap's amber eyes scanned the destroyed plains, the builds, the mushrooms, the posters, everything was gone. Smoke and fire started to dissapear thanks to the rain, the patter sounds were calming, yet he still missed everyone. He missed the laughter, the screaming, or that one time where they chased eachother around just for fun.

He was cold, he missed the embrace of a warm home, a home that made him smile and fill his heart with happiness. Sapnap looks up from the ground and stands up, he explores the bits of ruins that were left.

A piece of paper laid on the overgrown grass, it was half burned. He picked it up and flipped it over, it was a picture of him, dream, george, karl and quackity. They were smiling, laughing, sapnap would do anything to go back to that moment right now, he remembers it as if it were yesterday.

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"Oh my god guys stop moving" geroge complained looking annoyed at the boys, "oH mY gauD stAwP mOvinG" sapnap and quackity giggled as they made fun of georges accent.

The clicking sounds indicated that the picture was about to be taken, just as there were 5 seconds left, a moth flew onto Karl's nose, "OH MY GOD WHAT THE HELL" he jumped.

The boys looked over at him and couldn't help but fill the air with wheezes and laughs, dream sounded like a kettle, georges loud laugh, quackitys wheezes and sapnaps giggles. "BAHHAGAHA LOOK AT YOUR FACE" the boy makes fun of Karl who was standing behind dream, using him as a shield from the moth, "SHUT UP AND GET IT AWA- AAAAH" karl starts running for his life all around the place.

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Sapnap snaps back to reality when a cold shiver trails down his body, his jaw jitters a bit.

He sits on a fallen tree and damaging thoughts start stomping him over and over, he couldve let dream run away instead of holding his best friend dead in his arms, he couldve let him live instead of impaling a knife into his heart.

He couldve told quackity, he couldve told him about kinoko kingdom. He couldve helped karl, he should've helped him, but why didn't he tell him the secrets? Arent lovers supposed to trust eachother? Cause if not.. why be lovers?

Karl...

Sapnaps head spins and spins, if Karl could time travel.. maybe he could go back to the old nostalgic times?

Sapnap runs towards Karl's old little hideout, he had never ran this fast, except for when he had to chase his best friend down. He got to where he wanted to be and made his way down the stairs.

He stumbles on some books and quill left on the floor, the pages were ripped out and the tint was dry, sapnap breaks down and falls onto his knees. The boy holds the leftovers of the books and hugs it tightly on his chest, he couldn't hold it back anymore. An anguishing scream comes out of him, tears break out from his amber eyes. The scream kept going until he's voice was sore and his throat hurt, painful sobs escape from him.

He can still remember the day everything happened, he should have noticed it earlier.

After quackity left, sapnap didn't make a big deal about it, 'he will come back' the boy thought

Next was George, he left a nots which only had 'leaving, sorry for dragging you guys down -George :]' written in rushed handwriting, there were also tear marks on the paper.

Then it was dream, he chased him for hours until he finally shot his platonic soulmate on the leg. Dream collapsed onto the floor and groaned, "well done brother, guess you win this tim-" the more dream talked, the more sapnap cried, he raised the sword and stabbed it through his best friend's chest. Dream closed his eyes, a faint and low "love you brother" was heard as his final sentence.

Karl, that man was everything to him. Sometimes he would be there for sapnap through the toughest times, it's just, karl would never tell sapnap anything.

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It was 3 in the morning and sapnap got up for a glass of water, instead he crossed the path of a tired karl. The eyebags were heavy, he had clouded eyes and bruises all over him. sapnap kept asking and asking, he wanted to know what happened and what or who hirt his beloved, but still, It was always the same answer: "oh it's nothing.. Im fine" tje sentence would always be accompanied with a sad smile.

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"I... love you.." karl struggled to breathe as he whispered those words, sapnap begged, he kept begging that death would leave his lover alone. But, no one listened and the only person that made sapnap feel joy, was stolen from him.

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The sobs start to quiet down but the waterfalls from his amber eyes still rushed down. He closed his eyes and imagined dream patting his back and cooing the words; "you are doing so well"

No, sapnap wasn't. Everyday since the events happened, it had been living hell. he just wants to go back, he would sacrifice anything.
Anything.
just to see what he called 'home'

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