To the person reading this -

Smile, smile because you're beautiful, because you're amazing, you're unique, because you're valued, valid and important. I want you to smile because tomorrow is a new day and because no matter what you think someone loves you.

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5 years passed, jimin now lives with his boyfriend, jungkook, who makes him happy, he doesn't think about yoongi, he has become a memory. a memory jimin doesn't think much about, he hasn't seen him around, but he has seen him on the tv, he saw when he inherited his father's company, he's seen him with hoseok, they both are now married, and jimin doesn't care. after all, he didn't like yoongi, after thinking about it. it was all an illusion. an illusion that made jimin content for a little while.

that's why, when he see's yoongi in the supermarket he doesn't question it. he doesn't avoid him. he goes on with his day, however, yoongi ignores him. he tries not to see jimin, and avoids him at all costs, however fate doesn't have it like that. so he sucks it up, it's not the first time yoongi has seen jimin
except, all the times he does he avoids him. not understanding whether it's the guilt or something else.

yoongi turns to the corner, keeping his distance. what he doesn't expect is to run into someone, much less to run into jimin. the collision dropped jimin to the floor, and yoongi's fruits fall along. he mentally cusses himself, he didn't want to talk to him.

"i'm sorry." yoongi apologises quickly, and helps jimin stand up. he puts his hand out and jimin is hesitant in taking it, he stares at yoongi in the eyes before he takes his hand. the sudden warmth reruns to yoongi for a split second before it gets cold again. jimin has retrieves his hand and is now picking up his groceries.

yoongi quickly leans down to help him, picking up whatever jimin had in his basket. he picks his own things as well. come done, he vows, apologising once again. "i didn't mean to." he says, with a frown.

jimin just lightly laughs. yoongi hasn't changed at all, he's still the same guy he remembers. the same one he met 9 years ago, but that's in the past. yoongi is stunned, he hadn't hear jimin's laugh in so long. he stares at jimin.

"it was an accident, nothing to worry about." jimin smiles, yoongi notices the way jimin doesn't shown any signs of hatred, regret or sadness in his face. in fact, he looks happy. yoongi is glad he is however that feeling in his chest doesn't leave. "how you been?" jimin says, making a conversation with him. yoongi clears his throat.

"i've been good." yoongi lies, he hasn't. he's been living through hell these past years. he's not happy, not one bit but he won't tell jimin that. "makes me glad to hear. i heard you and hoseok got married, i'm so happy for you." jimin's face lit up.

"i am too." yoongi says, staring at jimin with admiration when he sees jimin eyes sparkle, he remembers that night when he saw jimin stare at the moon, the night when yoongi realised his feelings for jimin where more than friendly. he quickly shakes his head, he shouldn't be thinking about that. "how about you? how's your grandmother." he asks. he hopes she's okay, after all, jimin's grandma was like his own. that's why he couldn't let anything happen to her or jimin. he had to protect them both.

jimin's face lights up once again, he fiddles with his basket, a blush is visible on his face. "i have a boyfriend, i managed to open my own restaurant, though it still needs some work but jungkookie is helping me with the last arrangements. but my granny is good, she recovered and somehow the hospital bill wasn't a lot, i'm so grateful." jimin says with a dumb smile.

yoongi shouldn't be surprised he has a boyfriend after all, his charisma was something yoongi always loved, the way jimin was able to attract people with his personality. maybe that's why it's hard to forget him. but he's happy his grandma is okay, though he won't tell him why the bill was low.

"oh, you're taken?" yoongi speaks out without meaning to, his words come out a little more harsh than intended. jimin looks at him, slightly confused but shrugs it off. "it's surprising isn't it, we've been together for 4 years now." jimin smiles. "ah, i'm so happy jiminie." yoongi gives a tight lipped smile, he doesn't notice the way the nickname jumps out. jimin notices it but chooses to ignore it.

"what about you? how's hoseok?" jimin asks, he stares at yoongi, curiosity written on his face.

"you're inquisitive as always." yoongi chuckles. jimin softly laughs along. "i guess i am." he says, between laughs. when they stopped laughing they stared at each other, a peaceful silence between them. they stared at each other's eyes, admiring. but that soon came to an end when jimin's phone signalled a message.

jimin quickly shook his head and took his phone out. he read the message and looked at yoongi with a sympathetic look. "it was nice seeing you but i'm running late. jungkook just got out of work." jimin informed him. yoongi nodded his head and forced a smile. "well, i must get going." jimin stared at yoongi once last time before turning around and walking away.

yoongi gazed at him, he soon brought his gaze down, jimin was walking away once again. he had to learn to accept that, jimin was happier without him.

except, yoongi wasn't happy. he quickly walked towards jimin, he grabbed his arm and jimin turned around shocked, his eyes widened. he had a pained expression, yoongi noticed that. but soon that expression was changed to a confusion one when he looked at yoongi. yoongi let go of him, he cussed at himself for doing that. he stared down, ashamed.

"i was thinking about catching up." yoongi whispered, he didn't dare to look up. he knew if he did jimin would meet him with a disgust face, however jimin didn't stare at him in disgust, instead, he looked at yoongi with a skeptical expression.

"that sounds like fun." jimin mumbled. he looked at yoongi, who still wasn't looking at him, but he did notice the way yoongi's shoulders dropped in relief. "pardon me?" yoongi breathed, and looked up, meeting jimin's gaze.

yoongi stared at jimin, trying to read whether jimin was playing with him but nothing. jimin was sincere as ever. "i mean, there was never any bad blood between us, so why not. i'd like to know how it's going, from what i remember, managing the company before was exhausting. imagine now that you're its successor, you're no longer a baby, isn't that right, Mr. business man." jimin playfully punched yoongi.

yoongi widened his eyes but soon laughed along. "you're still as childish as ever, aren't you." yoongi ruffled jimin's hair. "perhaps," jimin stuck his tongue out.

"then how about i give you my number." jimin proposed, "i'm sure you don't have it anymore." yoongi wasn't going to lie, he still had jimin's number. he never once erased it, he couldn't bring himself to do it.

"why don't i give you mine, that way if you really want to talk to me you'll message me. if not i'll feel like i'm forcing you." yoongi reasoned. jimin shrugged and gave him his phone.

while he was putting his number in he noticed a message that came in, from jimin's boyfriend. yoongi didn't like intruding but he couldn't help himself, in the message he read: come home and cuddle me, i miss you.

he remembered when he used to tell jimin the same things. when he used to cuddle him but there's no point in living the past, he has to love on even if he doesn't want to. after all, you can't always live in the past, even though it made you feel so happy at some point you're only damaging yourself further by doing so.

but yoongi doesn't mind damaging himself, he already had. the day he let jimin walk out of his life, that's the day he lost himself, the day he damaged himself to the point where he didn't care anymore.

he placed his number in and gave jimin his phone back. "well, i guess this is goodbye for now." jimin said, as he put his phone away. yoongi nodded, he hopes it was for now and not forever. jimin didn't walk away right away, he stared at yoongi and then smiled. "you still have such a bad posture." he teased yoongi.

yoongi laughed one last time before jimin walked to pay for his things and yoongi returned to look for what he was missing.

that day, was they very first encounter but today was just one of many.

[fear is brought by ignorance.]

[i think intelligence is attractive, i love feeling inspired from people who are smart, learning new perspective to things, seeing the light in a direction, i never thought about before. but intelligence comes with critical thinking skills, too critical sometimes. i think intelligence is attractive but sometimes they become a little too exhausting.]

yayay ! i wrote again.