Why do nice people always get hurt the most? Why am I never happy? I don't understand why people blame me for things that I didn't even do... It makes no sense and I can't stand feeling this way anymore... I am tired of being treated the way I get treated... I get stepped on, and people treat me terribly, but you know what I do? I don't open my mouth... I don't say a word... I don't want to affect other people's happiness in a negative way, so I just keep my mouth shut... I always make everyone else happy before I make myself happy... I focus on everyone else's happiness and well-being, before I even begin to worry about what I need to do for myself.... Everyone tells me that I need to focus on myself and stop worrying about everyone else, but it's impossible... Or at least it seems that way.... I can't help but think about wanting to not exist anymore and I can't breathe under all of this weight that the world puts on my shoulder... I feel like I'm drowning, and I have cinder blocks tied to my feet... I don't know how much longer that I can handle this... I hate this and I hope that I'll be able to be happy.. Truly happy...And I really hope that is soon...

-CMC