My dearest Angie,

It's been a year since your death. It's been a year since everything has changed. I can still feel the sadness in the air. I can still see your broken body.

Your funeral was beautiful. It was a closed casket, though, so I couldn't say my last goodbye to you.

You never let us say goodbye. But I saw it in your eyes that day. I saw it on your face. I'm sorry I could never save you. I'm sorry I wasn't the one who gave you hope. 

I'm sorry for everything that happened. You deserved none of that. You deserved only the best. I hope, wherever you are, that's what you're getting. The best. It was all so unfair to you. You were such a beautiful and pure girl who was a ray of sunshine in all of our lives. While it may have never seemed like that to you, everything you did created a new, wonderful memory. 

The day we were all at the beach.

The way your incredibly forgiving and loving heart forgave the man who first broke you.

The way you looked at Isaac and the way he looked at you.

The way you were with Bella and how she adored you so. 

The way you helped Dave back up to his feet after his first breakup. 

The way you stole my heart. 

I loved you like a sister. And I still do.

Daniel moved out of his apartment and moved a town away. He couldn't take it anymore. I think he still loved you.

Isaac and Bella are still here, though. Isaac coups up in his room most days and won't come out. Bella is extremely sad and rarely talks. 

Dave moved away, too. He quit his job at the club.

And, for me, well, I'm staying right here. I lost you once and I made you feel forgotten. Not again. I won't lose you again so I'm staying right here where you'll be remembered in my heart forever.

I'm sorry for what you saw. It's just... after you stayed at the beach with Daniel, Isaac felt like he could never compete. Could never give you what you needed. And maybe no one could. Maybe what you needed were rest and freedom. No one could tie your beautiful soul down. No one could truly hold you captive. A pure soul in a world of corruption and evil.

I know what we did was wrong. Your death is my fault, and that's something that I'll never forget.

I'm a mess. I'm a mess without you, Angie. Your smile, your hug, your soul. You were an angel sent down to this corrupt, evil world. You were my light in my darkness. I'm holding on to that thin thread that I'll see you again. One day. One day, I'll see you again. I'm holding on for you. Only for you.

I'm so sorry, and I love you, Angie. I know we'll see each other again someday, and we'll remember all the good times we had. 

I'll always remember you. I'll never forget you.

Until the day we meet each other again with open arms and beautiful smiles,

Yours forever,

Holly

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