(A.N. So the picture..., doesn't really have anything to do with the story at all I was just looking up photo's trying to find something for reference of like Toya or Dabi with red hair or something like that because I find it easier to describe things that I can see rather than describing it from my head and I found that picture and I thought it really cute and wanted to share I don't know who drew it but props to them because that's really cute now continuing with the story)

Dabi [POV]

I slammed my door sitting down on my bed.  I didn't know what I felt or what to think.  I was trembling and I hated it, I felt weak and useless all over again.  I couldn't even control my own emotions, just like before I was weak.  I ran my fingers through my hair.  What if- no he's not here anymore that Toya isn't here anymore he can't be hurt and Endeavor won't hurt him.  I stood up pacing around the room trying to clear my head.  I wasn't Toya anymore that wasn't me so why?  

"Hey Dabi do you want anything to eat?" Kurogiri asked knocking on my door

"No" I responded my voice shaking.  I sat down on the floor leaning against the wall leaning my head back.  I'm sorry Fuyumi.  I'm sorry Natsuo.  I'm sorry, Shoto.  This was my choice and I'm not going to regret my choice to run away I guess I've always been a coward in that way running away from anything that got to difficult.  The only thing I regret is joining this trash hole of a group.  I scooted over to my bed shuffling around underneath.  I pulled out a box and started to sift through it.  I ignored the tons of pictures that were in it and grabbed my camera.  I looked through the view finder at the room.  It was tinted red from my blood that was no good.  I popped open the back looking through the roll.  There were still a few undeveloped photos on it.  I stared at the roll for a long time debating if I should develop them or not I thought I had developed all of the photos.  I put the roll of film back into the camera and stuffed the camera into my coat pocket.  I sucked in a sharp breath standing up and going down the hallway.  Though as I went to the front door Kurogiri stopped me

"Where are you going Dabi?" He asked from the bar

"I'm just going out to get something I'll be back in a bit" I responded pushing the door open the bell on top ringing.  The bar to the street was almost like a complete different dimension and it was insane.  Everything was friendly here and it didn't smell like alcohol and smoke like I was used to.  I walked down the street my hands in my pockets knowing I was getting quite a few weird looks.  I always did whenever I was out in public.  I didn't expect there to be any places open still that were made specifically for developing photo's so I went to a drug store and walked up to the counter

"Hello how may I help you today sir" The girl behind the counter asked cheerfully with a smile

"Do you develop photos off of film?" I asked

"I think we still do but do you know what kind of film it is?" she asked

"I don't remember it's been around 6 years I forgot I still had some undeveloped" I explained pulling out the camera and taking the film out.  I put it on the counter showing it to her

"I see yup we can develop this for you and if I can just get a name you can come back in an hour and we'll have them for you" She pulled up a clipboard from behind the counter handing it to me.  I took the pen from the woman and hesitated for a moment before writing on an empty line underneath the other ones 'Toya Todoroki' I wrote the date time and everything else before handing it back to the girl.

"Well you can come back in around an hour and we'll have them developed for you sir" she smiled (A.N. I don't really know how long it takes to develop film but let's just go with this for the sake of the story)

"Thank you" I nodded and turned to leave the camera still in my pocket I looked at my watch it was noon now.  I walked back to the bar the bell jingling again as I entered

"Dabi you're back already what did you need to get?" Kurogiri asked

"I found an undeveloped roll of film" Was all I explained to them holding up the blood stained camera before walking back to my room.  I shut my bedroom door behind me and put the camera back in the box.  I lifted it up putting it on the bed and sat down.  I decided to search through the box some more though I knew it would bring up bad memories.  I tried not to look at the photos and grabbed a film canister, it was empty.  I wondered why I would keep the empty film canisters.  The next one I pulled out wasn't empty but it had no film in it.  It was a collection of my nose rings.  That's why I kept them, I put my piercings in them.  I sifted through the photo's and found another film canister this one had my tons of other earrings in them.  I sighed putting the two canisters on my bedside table looking through.  I knew there had to be at least one more canister for my lip piercings but I never found it.  Did I lose it?  Makes sense I lost everything that I could get my hands on.  My glasses, my piercings, homework, one single shoe anything that I could find I lost.  My heart skipped a beat as I saw the edge of a black rim.  I pushed aside the other things and pulled out my old glasses.  The lenses were shattered and gone by now but there were a few shards left in the frame.  They were bent and the hinges were busted.

"Why did I even keep these?" I asked out loud putting them back in the box

"Because you still can't let it go" The voice in my head responded.  I shook my head the thoughts going away.  I let go a long time ago

"But you didn't you still hold a grudge against your father and still you miss your siblings" The voice insisted

"Shut up" I hissed putting the rest of the things back in the box shoving it back under the bed.  I stood up going out into the bar sitting down on one of the stools not being able to handle being alone anymore with the voice in my head being so loud

"What photo's are you getting developed?" Kurogiri asked curiously

"I don't know I was looking for my camera but it's no good now blood has ruined it but apparently there was still some film that I didn't develop I thought I developed it all" I explained with a shrug

"For someone that seems to hate his past you do seem to have a lot of photo's from it" Shigaraki commented with a scoff

"I hate my past and I hate remembering it but I don't ever want to forget the one's most important to my past" I muttered with a sigh

"You're a Todoroki right?" Kurogiri asked not meaning any harm by it

"Yes"

"There are three children in the family now two of them are in college and one goes to U.A." Kurogiri explained

"I know, I am very aware my little bro goes to U.A." I nodded

"You don't have any problem with that?" He asked

"No I want him to do good I want him to be happy doing what he wants I have a problem with how Endeavor treated all of us" I shook my head

"I see" He wiped down a beer glass.  I checked my watch it had already been an hour.  I stood up going to the door

"I'll be back in a few" I called as I left going down the street to the drug store.  I walked in and went up to the counter again

"Ah hello again I assume you're here to pick up your photos?" She asked with a smile but it seemed a little forced

"Yes" I nodded

"Well I'll be right back with those for you" She left to a back room I pulled out my wallet even though I had no clue how much money this was going to cost.  She came back with a folder with my name listed on it

"That will be ten dollars" She explained with a smile I nodded and sifted through my wallet.  I handed her two five dollar bills

"Thank you" I took the folder from her stuffing my wallet back in my pocket

"Of course come again" She called as I left I wonder what was on the photos she seemed a bit nervous.  I clutched the folder and walked back to the bar.  

"Dabi let's see the photos" Twice exclaimed a soon as I stepped in

"Why would I show you guys when I don't even know what's on them" I snapped

"Come on don't be like that we wanna see" Twice whined

"Yeah we wanna see whatever it is" Toga exclaimed coming in behind me snatching the photo's from out of my hand.

"Toga" I exclaimed "Seriously you guys"

"Good job Toga" Twice commented I sighed

"You guys are such pains" I walked over to the bar grabbing the photo's from Toga sitting down

"Kurogiri can I have a knife?" I asked

"Mhm" Kurogiri hummed in response handing me a sharp knife I aimed the knife at Toga

"I'm only sitting in here because you guys are annoying and I want you guys to leave me alone alright" I hissed

"Yeah yeah open it already" she smiled I rolled my eyes cutting open the top with the knife I took the photo's out laying them on the counter.