Q/A SECTION AT THE END OF THE CHAPTER
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THE NEXT MORNING ten woke up on his bed without a blanket and without having changed his cloths. he sat up on the floor and tried to lean against his bed, when he felt a pain in his back. this is what you get form sleeping on the floor...

about half an hour later he made it to the kitchen with his blanket around his shoulders. lacking a lot of motivation he took a bowl of rice from the rice cooker and sat down by the kitchen table.

he knew he'd have to study a lot that weekend and also practice in the afternoon before meeting up with kun and sicheng in the evening; only thinking about it exhausted him.

it didn't take too long until he heard his younger sister fight with his mother in the living room again. with a loud sigh he got up again and went to his room to change his cloths. ten felt like he was probably better off anywhere but his home.

so he did everything he was told to: he studied, he practiced and he met up with his friends.

although it felt good to brabble with them about all the trivial things, he rather felt like talking his heart out to someone. it wasn't anything personal, but ten could rather talk about this to kun than sicheng.

still that would have to wait for another day, even if he got tired quickly.

at some point they ended up at a karaoke bar and when sicheng chose the song into the new world by girls generation, ten urged to cry. taeyong and him had listened to that song way too often when they were kids.

but those times were over now.

somehow ten was suffering his way through the evening until 11 pm, when all of sudden sicheng was called home. after he had left kun sang a few more songs, while ten just leaned back quietly.

after a while kun sat down next to him and observed him with wide eyes. "ten, i've noticed that you really don't seem fine tonight... is there anything i can do for you?"

ten didn't really find the power to look at his face, so he looked down on the floor "can you please stay over at my house?"

"sure, that's the least i can do!" said kun, honestly relieved that the other boy was finally opening up a little more.

eventually they found themselfs at ten's home a while later. apparently his family had already went to sleep, so he it took him a while to find a sleeping mat for kun.

the latter remained in ten's room taking a look around while feeling slightly lost; he really liked the room. it was small, but above the bed was a huge window and a small desk on the opposite wall. it wasn't very neat but kun didn't mind, since his room was the same.

everything went by unusually quiet, as ten had become more than silent.

when kun came back after brushing his teeth, he found ten sitting on his bed and staring out the window. he shifted in his seat, but didn't look at the other boy. "you're always so awfully quiet, but i can't do the same."

"what do you mean? i will listen." said kun in confusion and sat down next to ten.

"you're always so soft spoken and never complain about anything, i'm not like that. i have to talk to someone at some point."

"i don't really have anything to complain about, i'm pretty happy most of the time. so please talk to me about it, if you want to."

"you know, taeyong and i used to talk about everything. when we were kids i would even say that one day we would get married, because we could talk about everything; it wasn't even weird back then." ten quickly chuckled and shook his head. "i was so dumb. when we grew older taeyong stopped talking about how he felt, but i just went on like i always did. about two years ago he started saying things like are you a girl, that you always want to talk about feelings and shit? i couldn't admit it, but i pressured myself to keep quiet more often."

"oh damn, that's so messed up." as soon as kun said that, he felt like it was in the wrong place.

ten just hung his head. "no, i get his point. i must've been so annoying."

"you're not annoying me, in case you're scared of that."

"thank you so much, it really means a lot."after a short silence ten continued pouring his heart out. "i was holding everything back, which resulted in us arguing more; i should've seen it like this from the start, maybe we would still be talking now. anyways the last time we hung out at the park, everything got ruined."

kun just remained quiet to see if ten would tell him any more than that, before he would accidently intrude him.

"so i told him i was crushing on johnny seo, because we were best friends, of course i would tell him. it was the first time i had a crush on a boy, but i knew i was bisexual for a while. i thought he would be chill with it, but he wasn't, he even called me disgusting. of course i was hurt, but my dumbass decided to hurt him even more."

"what-"

"i said that he was stepping upon me, simply because he has a whole family and enough money to pay the bills or something like that. i shouldn't have done it, i know i hurt him so bad. especially since i knew more or less what was going on in his life. the problem was that i knew it only more or less, because he didn't talk to me about it."

why do i feel like this is one huge communication issue? thought kun, but didn't say anything.

"so we started yelling dumb nothings at each other, like i only wanted to talk so much because i am gay and all of it resulted in him telling me to never talk to me again."

"didn't you say you're bisexual?" asked kun, who had a hard time keeping up with all of it.

"i am, he just didn't listen, because he doesn't like people like that." replied ten and turned his head to the side. "i don't even like johnny anymore, i never really did. it was just a crush anyway."

and i was dumb enough to lose taeyong because of someone i don't even know. but ten didn't dare to say it out loud.

"i know it's far from being okay, but i'm here with you now and i'm thankful that you're willing to open up to me." kun raised his hand as if he wanted to ruffle ten's hair, but latter clung to his sleeve. "i'm the one who should be thankful."

"shut it, will you? although i'm a straight guy i don't think it's wrong to talk about how you feel. i really don't get taeyong's point."

"well me neither... whatever." mumbled ten, still clinging to kun's arm. it didn't take long for him to drift of to slumber.

meanwhile kun remained in his position until ten was asleep and layed wide awake for about another hour.

he had that uneasy feeling, that some things had still remained unsaid.
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please comment your questions in line next to the characters' names !! (i hope this won't flop lol)

ofc you can ask more than one question

✫彡 TEN ✫*.

✫彡 TAEYONG ✫*.

✫彡 CHAYU ✫*.

✫彡 KUN ✫*.

✫彡 JAECHEOL ✫*.

✫彡 SICHENG ✫*.

sorry for literally taking ages to update TT