OUTSIDE ICE CRYSTALS were glistening in the cold air, since it was still winter. but ten couldn't care less,

once he realized where he had actually been going, he instantly stopped and turned the other way around. this was the neighbourhood of taeyong's house, the last place he wanted to be right now.

am i even sure about this? he didn't know at all.

just like that he continued to wander around the area until he reached an abandoned playground in between some crippled trees. all of sudden ten realized how tired his legs actually were, so he let himself down on one of the swings.

ten wasn't sure for how long he had been sitting there when his phone started vibrating in his pocket and even though he tried to ignore it for a while, he ended up taking it out anyway.

incoming call...
KUN

with a sigh ten answere the phone, only to be greeted by kun screeching in panic. "are you sitting on the playground outside my house? because that guy pretty much looks like you!"

actually ten was surprised by how much he had underestimated kun's kindness, so he didn't manage to get out a reply other than a quiet if that's okay with you. meanwhile kun still seemed to worry. "get in here, i'll bring some blankets! my mother isn't home anyway."

right then ten could feel his heart clench, because he thought he didn't deserve such kindness. ever since he had spend his time with taeyong, he had neglected pretty much all his other friends, so he felt bad for leaning on kun like this- he went to latter's house anyway.

just as he walked towards the front door, kun already opened up and handed him a (ver soft) blanket. "oh my, you're so cold! come inside!"

kun lead him to the living room, where ten sat down on the sofa in a slightly awkward motion. "i'm sorry for disturbing you like this, we're probably not that close." mumbled ten, wrapping the blanket around his shoulders.

"don't say that!" objected kun. "we're friends and i care for you... besides i feel responsible for you health right now."

unable to find a kind reply ten just nodded in agreement. for a while silence lasted on them, but it wasn't that kind of umfortable silence, which makes you want to leave the room; no, it was a warm silence filled with understanding.

though this only lasted until ten suddenly realized something. "why're you still awake? isn't it like 2am?"

now kun was the one, who couldn't find the right words; in the end he decided that lying would be easier. "i just couldn't fall asleep tonight, i guess."

"oh okay." mumbled ten and clung to the blanket.

after a while ten's thoughts wandered back to taeyong; the more he processed it in his head over and over again the less he actually cared.

at the same time kun watched the expressions on ten's face attentively until he couldn't bear it anymore. "ten" although he said his nick name in a quiet tone, the other winced in surprise.

"i don't know what exactly happened with you and taeyong, but i think at the moment you just need a friend." kun took a deep breathe before he continued. "i can be that friend."

"thank you so fucking much, it means a lot." embarassed ten turned his face away, so kun wouldn't see him bite his lips in order not to cry. "unlike everything that has happened with taeyong."

without interrupting him, kun moved from his sofa to where ten was sitting.

"i still can't believe it all ended because of a stupid crush and my sexuality..." ten went on rambling between some soft sobs, that he couldn't surpressed. "i never thought it'd be that deep and now that he's gone i realize how much i need him."

obviously kun was quite shocked about ten's statement, but he didn't have time for that. "you know, you can cry all you want. i won't judge."

so ten did exactly that, while kun softly patted his back until he had calmed down. just as he was about to leave the sleeping ten in the living room, he heard him mumble again. "why don't i ever mean anything to someone?"

i better be staying by his side, before he does something stupid again thought kun and turned back to the living room.

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kun, an actual sweetheart

*elegantly drops hints* so who do you think had a crush on someone?

Q: should one of chayu's friends make an appearance? if so, which one?

here are the wallpapers that i promised

sorry, this took me so long TT it's sow damn crappy, i'll probably have to edit it again