WHEN TAEYONG had to go to school again on monday, he was still hurt and confused about what had happened with ten. on one hand he was mad at the other, but he knew that the main fault was on him.

he would've reached out for everything that could distract him from his torturing thoughts; usually he would meet up with ten on the way to school, but he couls forget about this now as well.

in order to avoid the latter taeyong decided to go to school awfully early and awfully slowly. since the school year had started just a few weeks ago it was still winter and the cold creeped up his legs.

"this really isn't what i imagined my senior year to be like..." he mumbled between his gritted teeth.

anyway he reached the school all to soon, so he'd probably just head to his classroom and sleep with his head on the table; assuming that he would actually be able to sleep.

with a quiet groan he opened the door to said room and stood still for a moment, because he room wasn't empty as expected. one of his classmates had put a phone in a selfie stick on the window sill and filmed himself.

it was seo chayu, a boy he knew little about besides that he was famous on the internet. actually taeyong's interest suddenly grew, since talking to him would distract him for a while.

"hi chayu!" taeyong tried to say it in a friendly tone, still the other winced and bowed to him while apologizing quietly. "i didn't think anyone would be here at this time, well usually there isn't."

the blonde boy's surprise hit taeyong quite out of blue, since he didn't expect him to be so shy. but he'd just try to build up a conversation. "you usually come here early?

"i guess i do. your name's taeyong, right?" chayu asked and taeyong just nodded in reply. "is it okay, if i ask what you were doing?"

chayu's cheeks visibly flushed. "uum this is embarassing, i was filming a video for tiktok." he held on for a moment. "could you please not talk about this to anyone?"

"sure?!" by now taeyong was even more confused than before. "but i think that's actually pretty cool! i have the app too, only to watch videos though."

"well, it's fun." said chayu, looking a little comfortable for the first time during their whole conversation.

taeyong was really desperate to keep the conversation going and didn't even mind if it got awkward. "what's your id? then you'll have another follower!"

meanwhile chayu kept biting his lower lip nervously. "if you want to... it's yuyu1004."

"nice" mumbled taeyong, while looking it up on his phone and suddenly gasped. "wow 43k! it doesn't seem like you'd even need me."

"it's not a lot." the blonde now pretended that the floor was the most interesting thing in the entire world to look at.

"it is! that's really cool though." taeyong tried to put as much convincement into his voice as possible, while it actually caused him to feel even more miserable about himself.

"th- thank you." said chayu softly and even attempted to smile, although he failed terribly.

"for real, man." said taeyong, slapped the shorter boy's shoulder lightly and went to his seat anyway.

after remaining in place for a few more minutes, he took out his phone again and scrolled through some nostalgic pictures that he had taken with ten; even though he knew that they'd never feel the same.

i did what had to be done, if didn't it would've hurt both of us even more. this way he tried to justify his actions, but it was all for nothing.

as he felt like looking for a distraction again, he looked up his classmate's tiktok and was actually amazed. also most of the videos had been recorded in this classroom.
just how come that taeyong had never noticed any of this? because i only cared about my friendship with ten, as if we were owning the whole world he thought bitterly. 

all he had known was that chayu had an instagram account with tons of followers, which didn't surprise him as much when tilting his head and looking at the boy's face.

but knowing about tiktok also lead to him finding chayu's youtube channel and- shit, he shouldn't use all of his data only to stalk a guy in his class he hadn't given a damn about just the other day.

fuck ten, why do you drive me so crazy? taeyong's eyes filled with tears, so he quickly left to the bathroom.

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chayu meanwhile was utterly confused; just why would someone like lee taeyong talk to him? and why had he been so stupid to embarass himself in front of his crush's best friend?

what he wasn't so confused about was the fact, that taeyong was probably feeling terrible right then even though he had covered it well. chayu just knew it too well from himself and besides that he was actually quite good at reading people due to always staying in the background.

yet he was too shy to ask taeyong about his well beings and he also had a slight disliking towards the other boy, because of known reasons.

when the break started chayu was even more confused; for the past two years ten had come to their classroom to pick up taeyong every single break. it was also an event that chayu enjoyed a lot, but well.

that day ten didn't come to the classroom.

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notes: 1. don't even like tiktok
2. somehow this whole story might turn out very long

3. school starts tomorrow so idk if i will still be able to update daily

shoutout to SUNNYJAEJAE for giving me this idea: should chayu be ten's favourite youtuber?

also who would you like to see in the next chapter? ten x chayu or all three of them?