I got grounded for something stupid, and filled almost 40 pages with just random MCYT stuff. It was 1000% a coping mechanism due to just the shitty mental situation I got shoved into but now I have all these things to tell you all about :D

Welcome all! To Notebook! Here I will be coping my notes, cleaning them up and adding to them. Get ready for a wild ride, we cover much in this Karlnapity filled episode of Notebook, from cute couple (thruple?) things, hybrid things, and even some angst, but don't worry here in the Notebook where there is hurt, there will always be comfort. Or death, depending on who exactly gets hurt. Without further, ado, I present Episode 1, of Notebook!

This masterpiece was by karda over on Tumbler. Go follow them, please, all their art is so pretty and nice. They drew Phil, and he's so ✨majestic✨ omgkanskdkd. They drew Sam, as this just fucking omg so cute so pretty. My brain not function after that. Anyways, go follow them please!

Sapnap is a blaze spawn so he runs hotter then most people. Sap can't get too cold, or he gets life threatening sick. They have a lava pool in their house, it's in their basement so it warms the whole house kind of like a heating system. In the summer, they kind of revamp their house a little (its Minecraft, so not that hard lol) opening up the whole bottom floor so all the hot air isn't trapped inside anymore, but the upstairs area where they sleep and stuff is still sealed and safe from mobs.

Quackity (or Alex as I will call him because its shorter and easier to spell) loves this time of year because everything feels more open and airy and he is a bird so logic. Totally not because now he can trust there is no glass and not have to question if there is glass that Sapnap forgot to tint before putting up. It's happened just the one too may times ya know? Sap doesn't care about weather but he doesn't like the open summer house plan because its dangerous, and they do get a lot more creepers inside during the summer. But Karl and Alex will literally die if they were forced to live a whole summer like that. They already have to share a bed with a literal heater.

When its not a billion degrees outside, Karl is like any dog hybrid (Karl's a dog hybrid btw, chocolate lab to be precise, welcome this fact with no questions) and loves warm things so he's always bugging Sap for cuddles and stuff when it's not too hot outside. He runs warm just as a person though, so he's most likely of the three to crash in the guest bedroom during the summer just because it's too God damn hot next to Sapnap. And Alex. In the summer. (Not me projecting my hatred of the sun and heat at all)

Alex is an avian. And I need to give him more side effects then just not being able to digest meat (poor baby, no bacon for you). So his bones are hollow. That comes with all the things you'd think hollow bones would come with ya know? They break easy, they don't heal very easily. He's very light weight so that he can fly. He can build up muscles, but not a lot of them, mostly just lean muscle mass. It's like how woman have a harder time building up bigger muscles because their bodies aren't designed for that. He has a very fast metabolism, so he can't build fat very easily either. Because of all this he gets cold very easily. (I've said the word easy, or a variety of that too many times now.) Thank god for Sapnap's hot ass literally all the time everyday, Alex wouldn't have all his fingers and toes without Sapnap there. Cuddles are a must.

And ofc what would this be without some angst and trauma? And first onto the chopping block is of course our favorite duck.

Because cuddles are such a necessary thing that Alex needs in his life, and he did in fact have a life before Karl and Sap he had to get said cuddles elsewhere.

When these three gays first started their relationship, Alex did not talk about his past marriage, engagement, thing. To the point that Sapnap didn't even know Alex and Schlatt had been married. Sap isn't the hottest coal in the fire sometimes, we just love him anyways. (Sap is still very smart, he's smarter then Dream and George, boy went to college. . . i think) Anyways. Eventually Alex would have to talk to to his boyfriend's about Schlatt's abuse and neglect because it left marks, and side effects and open communication is good. He had to talk about it big time when asking for cuddles, because guess what dickhole decided to teach Alex that asking for cuddles was bad? Yeah, Schlatt. Alex had to unlearn that one.

Schlatt is a ram, they run warm because of their wooly counterparts, it was one of the things Alex was drawn in by. They would be standing next to each other because when you work in an office close proximity is bound to happen, and Schlatt would just radiant warmth onto this poor cold bird boy. He stood not a chance fam, he was whipped faster then cream in Nikki's bakery on a holiday.

But after they started dating, and then Schlatt got distant, Alex started to think that maybe asking for cuddles just because he was cold was annoying, so he just kinda suffered and shut about it. When Schlatt spiraled even more and the abuse started, it was one of the first things Schlatt started to use against hm and belittle him for. Telling him was rude and selfish to ask for stuff like that, and waste his time with something so stupid when had much better things to do.

Just stupid shit honestly, but when it come to touch language, Alex is still trying to adjust back into the swing of it. Before Schlatt, touch had been a big part of Alex's vocabulary, just friendly stuff you know? Hugs, high fives, piggy back rides, play fights, etc etc. He can't really do high fives anymore, if someone's lifts their hand too fast he still flinches on a bad day.

This really sucks because poor Alex, but also touch is really Karl's thing. Time boy ain't good with words, not when he has to watch what he says so closely and he doesn't want to mess things up or try to help only to reveal that he'd totally forgotten something important. Touch is the main way Karl communicates muscle memory is something he can always count on.

Sapnap is also really open to touch talk, because he's been around it literally his whole life. Bad (Dad) and Skeppy (Daddy, which I will be explaining later you dirty rats) had been in physical contact almost 24/7 when Sapnap was a little little kid. They we're always curled up in each other's arms, holding hands, attached at the hip etc etc. They never showed PDA even back then, and as soon as Sap was old enough to question this closeness they began to hide it from him as well. But he still has plenty of memories of his parents all curled up and close. Looking right at home in each others arms.

Bad was also a lot more affectionate when he was a kid. Always ruffling his hair, even braiding it sometimes to hold it back because Sapnap would throw a tantrum at the sight of scissors anywhere near his head. Bad was always running after him so he could fix the boys head band, kiss the top of his head and then send him back on his way. Whenever he was upset or sick Bad wouldn't hesitate to scoop the fiery little boy into his arms and give him a hug and a kiss on the forehead. Singing his creepy but soothing demonic lullabies. And when Sap is sick especially back when he was a kid he would lose control of his fire, and Bad was the only one who would or even could get close enough to take care of him. Bad isn't fire or lava proof (at least not most of the time, but that's a different page in the Notebook I think) by any means, but he can definitely handle the heat a lot better then most people. Skeppy can as well, being a diamond with a very high melting point but again, different part of the Notebook to explain Sapnap and Skeppy's family dynamic.

When Sapnap's little family first moved to the over world he noticed that not everyone was as touchy feely as Sapnap's family was. And at this point Bad and Skeppy were hiding it from him as well, so he thought maybe it was just a family thing or maybe even just a Bad/demon thing since he was the common denominator ya know? Sap was one very observant kid you will soon realize, as most kids are. He noticed very many things.

Sapnap's observational skills didn't diminish as he got older though, and when George and Dream fell in love, he definitely noticed. He also noticed the new meaning behind every little touch seemed to have for them. They were both in gay disastrous denial of course, so they tried to not let it show, but any little touch that they did share they totally would melt into it. Sap had a very dark phase, Bad had just drifted out of his life practically completely, and he was very very jealous of his friends. Of their love, and how they both seemed to try so hard to hide it. Because if given the opportunity he would have loved to fall in love like that with someone, to know if it feels as happy as it looks to share even the brush of fingertips with someone he loved like that. He hated that they had that magical spark and didn't welcome it with open arms.

But he learned better. Dream started to show his true colors, and he suddenly understood all of George's fears first hand. He hadn't held himself back like George had, he had loved Dream with his whole heart, it may have been a platonic brotherly love, but he still didn't hold even a small piece of himself back from it. And he was still recovering from that betrayal when Karl and Alex wormed their way past all his armor and into his heart.

It the bigger picture it was almost a blessing in disguise that Sap was hesitant to open the door to that type of physical relationship. It gave Alex time to adjust to Karl's clingy nature on its own first. And all Sapnap really needed was a nudge from Karl and he was completely open to domestic touch talk. Despite what Dream did, Sap was still someone who loved with his whole heart, and would be at any and all given opportunities. Sapnap is definitely a 'better to have loved and lost, then never to have loved at all' type of person.

And given everything that happened Sapnap was rather touch starved, losing quite literally every single person in your life will do that too you. Again, maybe another blessing in disguise because for awhile Sapnap was not in a position to happily share Karl's cuddles, and Alex was not mentally strong enough yet to join in on said cuddles for very long before getting overwhelmed. But it definitely took both Karl and Sapnap to help Alex start to over come his trauma and move forward from his past relationship.

Karl knew all the physical tricks. He knew what touches might be triggering, and in what ways were probably safe. Like running the back of his hand down Alex's arm or cheek, instead of just grabbing him. Sitting beside Alex, but with a blanket between them so that there was at least some kind of barrier, if he ever did hug Alex or hold his hand he made sure to let Alex pull away first and whenever the other wanted, and kept his grip loose so that Alex would never feel trapped. Sapnap was at a complete loss when it came to that, as much as he'd seen positive touch, he'd never seen the effects of negative touch, or abuse. And he was smart enough to keep his distance and play it safe rather then do something wrong and scare or hurt Alex which was the last thing he'd ever want to do.

What Sapnap was good at, was understanding the fears that Alex had when it came to their relationship. That he understood. He hadn't at the time, but he did know now having watched George struggle with the same fears for years about him and Dream. George being right though was very different then this situation, because if Sapnap was sure about one thing it was that he would rather perma die then be like Dream and hurt the people he claimed to care the most about. He'd never turn into George either and just up and leave them because he didn't know how to handle something.

Sapnap has more balls then Dream and George combined and I will happily be buried here and spend eternity on this hill.

Sapnap would settle Alex's anxiety by sitting close to him, but not touching, and put his motor mouth to use. He'd go on and on and fucking on about all the happy memories he had of being a kid in the nether, and at first it just seemed like empty rambles to get Alex's mind of off things, and he was thankful for it. But then Sapnap would sprinkle in all the little moments of Dad and Daddy back in their nether house, all curled up on the couch when he came in with a stolen crossbow. Or holding hands as they walked around the lava pit as they watched him swim after the strider babies and swim away from the strider mamas. He'd eventually admit to always wanting the same thing they had, that magic love, that overflowed and made even the smallest of touches something special. That being a fighter was just who he was, but having a love like that to fight for was definitely something he wanted in life. He'd talk about everything and nothing, little things.

Eventually moving on to talk about Dream and George, and how they had been the same way once upon a time. Their talks were just as good for Sapnap as they were for Alex, who would talk about the good days he had with Schlatt and Tubbo before everything went so wrong. Sometimes Karl would join them, and just listen. Happy to commit every detail to memory, he had books and journals about his two loves, full of things just from these late night/early morning safe conversations. Things he never wanted to forget, and if he ever did to remember.

Alex eventually started to open up more. He'd melt into Karl's hugs instead of flinching away. He stopped hesitating to ask Sapnap for cuddles after flying home through cold air and even colder clouds. He finally started sharing a bed with them every night instead of just on the good nights. He helped cook now, instead of just watching the other two dance around each other, just centimeters apart. Now they all squeezed into their little kitchen, bumping hips and arms as they bustled around each other. Gentle hands on hips as they had to reach into the low cupboards for something or another, and quiet whispers in ears as they muttered apologies, excuse me, and move over fat ass (humor is Alex's defense mechanism, and Sap has a fat ass, it's a recipe for gay disaster. Meanwhile Karl is much more invested in an actual real cake kind of recipe).

Alex still does have bad days, they all do, where old wounds ache and old scars burn. There are days when Alex needs a bit more space. Days Sapnap disappears into the nether for hours and comes back covered in ashes and smelling like burnt wood. Days where Karl just disappears and when he comes back he's sickly and exhausted. But they're always understanding and patient with each other, always there to help.

Patience is something they all had to learn to have a lot more of, and your going to learn to have some too. Because that is the end of today's Notebook Episode! I hope you guys enjoyed this rollercoaster, because it is not over. This is only about half of my Karlnapity pages, not including the bonus Margin Notes. Karl was a bit of a side character this episode, but don't worry, next time { ;) } is gonna be all about our favorite time traveler, and the shenanigans said time traveling causes. We're on page 6 of 38 actually, so I have plenty more content to give you guys, and plenty more Episodes to come. Don't forget to like and comment, I'd love to ramble with you guys. And I will see you all in the next Episode, good byyye!