I'm extremely emotional writing todays update..

♥️♥️

Avni

His confession hit me to the core_  Neil and Rea, they had got engaged.

"Hey Avni I got late. Sorry." I still remembered Rea sulked first then grinned pushing the little gate opened to the garden, the path to our house main entrance.
I said Mamma last night to wake me up at 9 but she called me quarter past nine and my alarm didn't budge. God knows why.

Rea slammed her car door closed before she pushed that little gate opened.

My luggages are all brought down, out the main door. Mom hugged me and cried. She was sad since I had got the scollarship for research on my subjects in abroad. I know she wants me to stay close to her but she knew how important it was for me. I always dreamt of going abroad doing research there. As Mamma knew about my dreams she kept silent but I know deep down there she wants me not to leave my country.

But I had to leave. I can't just let go this golden chance. I have put on stake my each and every happiness and enjoyment to achieve and reach to that opportunity before any other candidate could have grab it away from our university. I am one of those very few, have got that international scholarship.

And there was someone to whom I specifically wanted to show what this average, most simple yet middle class girl can achieve. And how vast it could be.

As continuous denial of us, Rea didn't put a single words inside her ears instead she kept requesting me and Mamma to let her drive both of us to the airport.
My flight was at 11:30am. And three of us started at 9:30 to reach the airport as soon as possible.

That was the day we had last seen each other . My heart clenched looking at both of them before I departed, disappeared their sight through the entrance gate. Because I had had already decided what my step would be the next, with my only bestie.
And I know I was so wrong. I shouldn't have done such heartbreaking act to the most beautiful and genuine soul I have ever met, among those bunch of fake people around. One more person I would like to mention, Ali. Both were just out of those class, status conscious people I had come across during my campus days.

Few those initial days we used to talk over ph calls, sometimes through mails. But gradually and unwillingly I knew I need to distance her. I need to cut all those connections related to that person,who was behind all my nightmares, my ruined self image, in front of my class fellows, left me grounded. One of them was Rea who was related to Neil and his friend Ali too.

But the bad part is I miss my country and the people, I miss hanging out with my only bestie Rea, revealing to her my every secrets. I really miss our long chattings over calls.

Would she ever forgive me the way I behaved with her since few last years. Even I never tried meeting her if I had ever went to see Mamma, there to my homeland.

Even I truly believe somewhere she must haven't forgotten me. Because I know she isn't. Or if she have then I would be glad considering it as a little reward to my guilt self.
She had always been the person who tried to continue the contacts, whereas I'm the one always behind who just only distanced.

One of the hardest things in your life to loose your Bestie.

And one of the hardest feeling in your life to get disgraced and mistrusted by the person you loved.

I went through both of them.
What about you!

************

I nictated my eye lids few times to see through, around the place. I stretched my hands straight and my legs. And then grabbed my phone from the table top beside the couch I had slept last night. It's nothing uncomfortable sleeping on the couch, I have slept on it several times before. Every night before the paper submission day. Each paper I prepares,I spend the entire night working in this small yet vast library. It's quite habitual to me sleeping in the couch often.

It's 7 in the morning, my pH clock showed.

Putting it back on the table my gaze fell on my left hand and it's stopped there staring at my ring finger and my eyes slightly knitted.

It's empty, no sign of any ornaments there I'm wearing. Do I supposed to! My heart questioned and my forehead scrunched replying myself.

Some flashes came over my eyes and mind. Did I.

"Ohhh God not again. Would I get over all these, ever!!" A loud groan came out of my throat tiredly.

I pulled out my hand indicisively, looked at my ring finger again.
A slight derisive laugh pushed came out my chest "Me and my Dreams" shaking my head smiling awfully on ownself I heaved a sigh and got off the couch pulling my hands away my gaze. I slipped my feet inside the slippers, my steps subdued, I headed to the washroom. Tied my hair in a bun before I get inside and shut the door behind.

********

I just reached to the dinning, all dressed up to leave for the institute as I do every morning.

"Avi is it yours!" I saw Mamma kept something on the table surface before I could take a seep from my morning coffee that Daisy set up the table and went upstairs.
My eyes fell on it, the second my mother pulled away her hand leaving that thing there.

I stared at the object momentarily and then my eyes grew broader. My astounding gaze went back to my Mamma then it dropped back down at the same object.

My inside shambled looking at that piece of ornament.

"Daisy got it today morning on the kitchen counter. You might have left it last night while doing kitchen" Mamma stated casually but I couldn't moved a bit nor even speak.

Because I wasn't in a condition to say something instead I got transfixed by whatever just happened.

"That means it's all true!!!! Not my Dreams!!!!" an awkward gasped immediately slipped out my mouth, half of which I sucked inside and swallowed. My eyes started paining of being wider and wrinkled for so long.

"How could you be so careless Avi! You have never been before" Her voice thick rebuking, she glared at me. But I didn't miss there was an exhilarating flicker in her eyes instead. she then turned around and moved to the kitchen.

'Yes Avi! you never been so careless. Do you!" I heard a male deep tender yet carnal voice just close to my face. And my breath stuck inside my throat, that I wanted to release as soon as Mamma pulled her face away. I failed exhaling then.

I know who's the person standing behind me.

I can see he is looming over me from behind with a decent step away. But my brain stopped working as my nostril hit his cologne. And his lips almost touched my side cheeks the spot close to my ear. Hell.

I wasn't in my senses when I felt he inserted the ring into my finger almost hypnotising me by his actions, he did few seconds before. For the second time in 24hours he did the same thing, made himself wear me the ring. And I felt a gusto of wind flurried through my face.

Damn. I felt thousands of butterflies flipping there wings inside my stomach the way his shoulder gently brushed over mine while passing away.

My shy eyelids batted down, I bit my bottom lip, finally a heavy breath came out my nose. I was squeamish, feeling his presence closer me. I never seen that unknown smile in his eyes.

"Mom!!" I heard Arya squealed out from upstairs fence. His voice chirped. He is in his school uniform his right arm in Daisy's grip and in another hand Daisy holding his school bag.

My gaze went upward followed by Neil. Then I realized Neil is in his business suit. And his trolley is in the hallway kept nicely aside.

Arya scurried down the stairs being in Daisy's hold and as soon as they stepped down Neil pulled Arya in his arm and Arya giggled.

"Are you leaving today!" Arya sulked being into his Dadda's arms.

"Yes" Neil grinned. And by then Mamma came out of the kitchen drying her hands in a towel and grinned looking at both of them.

"Let's go Arya we are getting late" Mamma said and my eyes instantly snapped at her next.

"What do you mean by Let's go!" I stared at her questionably my lips slightly parted but I closed it immediately, took a quick look all of them.

"Me and Daisy going to drop Arya at school and you will drop Neil at the Airport" Mamma stated as if it nothing was ever been as casual as that way before, what she just said.

I glared at her and gesticulated my lips as no. But she just shrugged it off and ambled towards the side where Neil and Arya was.

Now What the crap she is planning again. Everything has gone as per as her plan. Now what she want more! My teeth gritted looking at her so carefree face.

"Mamma Arya won't be comfortable travelling by Bus at this busy hours" Even I was stubborn too.

"Relax, I'll be going by cab" Neil turned his soft gaze at me for a minute or less, assured and again whirled them back at Arya.

"We will be seeing each other in your, and Mom's wedding, is that so! Granny said" I heard Arya whispered in Neil's ear which was much clearly audible to all of us around them. And in reply Neil nodded yes with his flushed smile. I bite my inner cheeks not to gasp holding my breath.
Then sucked a harsh breath looking at them. My fingers gripped each other digging nails on my skin inside the palm and on the knuckles. I averted my gaze being beetroot red before Neil or anyone could have catched me at that moment.

"Okay we are taking the cab, you go and drop Neil" avoiding my daggering glances over her Mamma removed the apron over her head and quickly slipped her arms inside a long coat away the couch, she has kept surely heading to the kitchen this morning. Before She could have pulled Arya down Neil's arm, Arya gave a kiss on his Dadda's right cheek and we startled. "Please wait for me Dadda, will you!" His eyes were glassy and we all heaved a sigh of admiration looking at Arya's tiny hands cupped Neil's face.

"Sure baby! And Dadda, Aryan will meet soon. That's a promise to Aryan from his Dadda!" Neil replied him with an assuring grin on his lips, responded with a same adorable kiss on his cheeks and then they shared a warm hug holding each other for few seconds.

And we were all in aww staring at both of them.

Sometimes we should just let the time decide, if the Dreams we have seen is worth chasing them or they chase us.

Na udne ki is dafaa thani
Parindo ne bhi wafaa jaani

Andhereko bahon mein leke
Ujale ne Ghar basaya hai
Churaya tha Jo chukaya hai

Shiqaayatein mitane lagi

Subha be daag hai
Subha be daag hai

Jo barf ko galane lagi

Ek jeet tu hai ek haar main hoon
Haar jeet jorey Jo taar main hoon......

😌😌😌😌😌😌😌

This is most probably the second last chappie of DREAMS. I hope you all have enjoyed reading it as you always do.

Don't panic there is one more chappie left and I'll write epilogues and also some edited scenes I have planned but couldn't have added them in the chappies, as they never fit to any of my updates.

Love MoN ❤️