Continuation of chapter 28

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One of the most difficult tasks in life is removing someone from your heart, you are in love with...

Eventually the same day that incident happened...Rea told me that she has forgotten to bring the next class note. I told her not to worry I have extra copy she can borrow it. But she said there is some other reason she has to go. So Rea went home during the break hour assuring us that she will be back soon before It's end.
After she left me and Sohan, we walked to the canteen to order some sandwich for lunch. Though I wasn't in mood to be there but Sohan insisted to company him and I agreed not to spoil their day in effect of my bad mood over some good people like them.

I just finished having my lunch and inadvertently my eyes fell at the entrance. I saw his gang along with him advancing here to the canteen.
So that I could avoid looking at him or creating any awkward situation as such, I immediately took out the copy Rea gave me and I nervously started rewriting the lines I have already written few days back, to avoid the effect of his presence around me. Even before taking out the note I haven't realised which one I had took out being tensed to scribble over it blankly. I couldn't said Sohan immediately to leave that place because he had then just ordered something more so that was of no use,I stayed being highly aware of his presence in that spot.

It was the note Neil made it for Rea which I had supposed to get it from her later. Before I would have comprehend what has just happened Neil already assumed the things. I never can think someone could even predict of me so low. Though I had already got a glimpse of that Neil khanna in the morning going to see him in the field same day. But still I was in stock staring at his every expressions, at every word he has chosen for me to insult, least bothering to anyone's presence there around that place.

If I would have stayed there a second more I would have never able to look into anyone's gaze being broken at the spot, the humiliation I went through that day by my love.
My first love.

His every single word stabbed me nothing less as deep as a sharp knife could have done to that exact part of my flesh. His gaze full of hatred gave me goosebumps all over my body winching me hurt. It left me numb, all of his intense accusative approach towards me. Instead asking him the reason of his showering so much abhorrence upon a simple, average girl like me, I prefer to be mum and left the place, my eyes full of unwanted tears I have kept it hold inside me untill then.

If anyone knew how I went back my home that day. There wasn't any energy left in me to walk to the main road. Whatever vehicle came in front of me I slipped my exhausted body inside it.
I flinched when the driver asked me my location and then I realised I have got into a taxi that I hardly travel by, to avoid unnecessary expenses I usually use Metro or bus sometimes. But that day I wasn't in the condition to think about all these. Giving him the location to my house I closed my eyes and leaned my head to the passanger seat behind.

I saw my pH was ringing continuously but there wasn't any courage left inside me to talk to anyone in that shattered condition of mine. So I switched off my phone and threw it inside my bag, tightened my quivering jaws. That was how desolation engulfed me,My soul curled up like a snail in shell.
The only thing was flashing over and over again inside my brain was his words, his face, that loud voice when he cause my meet toppled over.

It's so painful when you realise the person you have fallen for, hates you.

Yeah that night I didn't get any other call from Rea.
Whilst desperately, She has given me almost 50 missed calls, 20 texts saying me to call her immediately. That I have found the second I switched on my pH later.

Sobering myself a bit next day around evening I called her and informed that I'm not feeling well so I won't be able to attend my classes for few days.
In response I just heard her exhaled a heavy sigh on the other side and before I could have cut the call she said hesitantly that the man who is responsible for my condition right now is wanting to talk to me to apologise and this info all of a sudden made me forget to take breaths. Didn't know how long it take me to gather myself back and in response I smiled painfully replying her "tell him he did exactly what I deserve" and I hung up the call biting my lips together to suppress a mass of sobs that accumulated inside pushing my throat to come out as loud gasps.

Huh!! Neil khanna wants to apologise Avni Mehta...god knows if any thing still left from his side to break me more!!

I was chosen to sing a song for the seniors on their Farewell day. I cancelled it making excuses that I have a sore throat, I wouldn't be able make it for the event..
Obviously the organiser got offended tried many possible ways to put me out of my sickness as I told to them. But it says, if you have already decided to give up on something then no one could cheer you up to resume that particular task to bring it on further.

Even Mamma got curious having me staying at home not attending classes during almost a week,which she rarely seen in those years since I had started my academic years except due to some health issues humans normally face. I always been an attentive child and much serious to my studies so she had never needed to worry anything regarding my grades.
Successfully as per as my point I convinced her temporarily telling that because of this senior's last week, classes are not going in much organized way they should be.
And instead going to college this week I have preferred to be at home and finished some of my incomplete subjects, as within a month we have our exams lined up next.

I rejoined my classes around a week giving a sick application to our co-ordinator.
Within those days the seniors have already left the university, they would only arrive their exams days which will be held in some other buildings away from our campus.
I have never come across him..
I had least wanted to face that man in my lifetime anymore.

And now after so many years he wants to talk to me!!
Be my friends!!
What does he think of me or think of himself it should be said rather.
Avni Mehta isn't count in those chicks he usually meet everyday.
If she could love a person from her whole heart then she could hate that person with same intensity.

Yes I hate him.

I hate him for all those nightmares he has given me in this few years. That left me demoralized in my work place, being backsteps, lack of confidence when I speak to someone, even when I rarely make new friends...
There always been that voice kept appearing inside reminded me how mismatch I'm among them, everytime I attempted to approach in such events.
And one day being frustrated on my ownself I knocked on the door of the renowned Councelling Phychologyst Dr.Cris Welson.
And he showed me the path to get over those pain I have somewhere carrying deep inside my subconscience mind and the results are my nightmares.

"Take it as an experience.
Good experience makes person happy and bad experience makes person complete" Dr Chris said listening the whole event I had confessed to him during my each sittings and I immediately asked him being confused 'complete' how !!

In reply Dr.Cris gave me a warm smile and said "that you will discover one day..Definitely....as my experience says" I smiled confusingly.

For Neil khanna I have lost a good friend like Ali.
And now after so many years I miss my friend Rea, whom I have totally disconnected all the links that could leads me to her, only to avoid that particular person in my life. I wanted to be stay away with every single person associated to him. But sometimes we can't fight with our fate if it bring you back to the same spot you have ended.

It would leave you inescapable.

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Joe Aryan's classmate called me last night to inform today is a holiday. So as per as our schedule when Bubbly Aunty got to know this as expected she and Param Uncle stopped Mamma and Aryan saying me that their driver will drop them our place around evening before I come back home off my Institute.

As usual there wasn't any other option left for me to continue the convo further with them, as I was in hurry to reach the institute as soon as possible, there were so much to catch up with. And not wasting much valuable time being ready to leave I left not before telling Mamma to wake up Arya around an hour next.

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I said bye to everyone who woke up at this hour around 8am including Mrs.Harleen in the hallway along with my Mom, Bubbly Aunty and some other elders. While most of the guests are in deep slumber getting back home midnight yesterday.

Everyone would leave today. May be that Akru and his family as well. Thank god finally the day has come I don't need to face him around me anymore.

I sighed...
Obviously in relief...

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Yeah it's a chappie has consisted only Avni's pov and I felt better to be it like this.
I didn't want to include some another person's pov or proceedings to other scenes because I wanted my readers to understand every emotional break down Avni went through the day she last met Neil. However the very known fact is, it wasn't a pleasant one at all. So not to loose it's flow I have ended today's update at the exact spot where it should be.

There are bunch of interesting scenes lined up next to come...
I'll definitely update soon.

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