Chapter 18: What is Life Anymore?

“You have got to be kidding me.” I deadpanned and then the words that flew out of his mouth kept repeating in my head-I'm gay. He's gay. Gay as in g.a.y. Before Ryan could respond, laughter broke out from my lips. I was cracking up so hysterically more than a few eyes glanced at our table. As if they already weren't.

“I'm not kidding.” Ryan shrugged, but I could see a pain behind his eyes. Please, this cannot be happening.

I just rolled my eyes, but I could feel the anxiety start to rise up within me, “You mean gay as in happy, right?” I found myself leaning in to hear his response, just in case I heard him wrong.

“Noooo.” Ryan dragged on, “I mean the other one.” He smiled at me and all I could do was gape.

“The other one meaning... something else besides what you're thinking of?” I laughed nervously as the situation just got more serious. I knew what he was talking about. And I knew that he was completely serious. He was nervous for a reason.

“You do realize that made no sense right? I mean what other gay is there besides happy and liking other men?” He asked me, running his hands through his honey brown hair.

“Ugh!!!!” I groaned loudly, my hands itching to pull on my hair in frustration. My mind couldn't wrap around what was happening. “You are gay as in you like men?!!” I was trying so hard not to imagine Ryan with another guy, drying humping each other. Ew... I started shiver. Not that I was a homophobe or anything, I just don't want to see the image in my head.

“Ye-”

“Excuse me, here are your drinks.” The waitress said with a smile and turned, walking towards the kitchen. We didn't even order any drinks. I bet that woman only came over here to get a better look at Ryan, so she can tell her friends that were currently peaking at us from the kitchen, all about what he looked like.

I narrowed my eyes at Ryan and grabbed a glass of what looked like sprite. Just as I put the straw between my lips and took a sip, Ryan decided this was the perfect timing to continue the conversation.

“So as I was saying... Yes, I do like men. But! On occasion, I do like women.” At the last part he winked at me, before shaking his head. “But you're a little too young for me.” I would have snapped my fingers with an 'Awe man!' and pouted with sadness, but this was not the time for that.

“I have another confession to make...” He scratched the back of his head with his hand. Oh no, please don't be something horrible. What was more surprising than finding out that Ryan was freaking gay!

“My brother is gay too...”

I choked on the sip of sprite that I was taking and spat some out, right on Ryan's new suit.

“You have other sibling besides Matt right? Because you haven't introduced me to this other brother... Haha..” I laughed nervously.

“No. I have no other siblings. Besides Matt. So... Do the math.” Ryan grinned.

I coughed loudly, gasping for air for at least a minute with Ryan sitting there patiently. Legs crossed and hands folded right in front of him. I can't believe this... I can't... Matt. Matthew was gay? But he's a player for peat's sake! Alright Savannah. Calm down. Take a deep breath... That's it. Good. When I could breath again I looked up at Ryan who looked like he didn't give two craps if I was practically dying or that he has a huge stain on his expensive looking suit. The man was weird.

Not wanting to think about the fact that my Ponyboy was gay, I changed the subject back to Ryan. “So your Bi?” I asked confused. Why couldn't he just say this from the beginning?

“On the most part. I just usually prefer guys since they nag less.” He gave me a look I couldn't really comprehend, but I had a feeling he was insulting me.

“Shut up!” I laughed and he started laughing too. As we were laughing, I saw that a few tables away from us was a handsome looking guy. His eyes were narrowed on Ryan with what looked like lust.

I cleared my throat and kicked Ryan from underneath the table. “Pssst. Ryan!” I whisper-yelled, still kicking him every two seconds.

“What?!” He screamed.

“Shh! There's a hottie at 3 o'clock, staring down with his piercing eyes. Man, he looks like he wants to eat you alive.” I licked my lips and smiled devilishly as a thought popped into my mind. Ryan never told me he had any lover at the moment... I took out my phone and saw Samson's name and didn't think twice before clicking the call button. I heard it ring a couple times in my pocket.

I looked up and tried to make eye contact with the guy that was staring at Ryan. When I did, I nodded my head to Ryan and then waved him over. He raised his eyebrows up in surprise, but got up out of his seat anyway. As soon as he was close enough to the table I jumped up out of my seat with a grin plastered on my face.

Ryan gazed up at me, “Where ya going?”

“Mmm... Bathroom.” I smiled and skipped off, going past the guy who muttered a 'Thanks' before taking the seat where I was just sitting it. Before I reached the bathroom, I saw in the corner of my eye the both of them making conversation. Wait a second... Was Ryan blushing? Oh this was going to be great!

I was looking in the mirror and fixing my glasses when I heard a muffled noise coming from somewhere. I stopped what I was doing and listened again.

“-ello?!”

I scrunched my eyebrows up in confusion as I heard it, but then cursed under my breath when I realized what it was. I fumbled for my phone, and practically started to jump up and down. When my phone fell out of some random place that was on me, I hurried to pick it up off the ground.

Before I said hello, I noticed a brand new scratch right on my screen. “Fudge! Dang it, I hate phones!” I scoffed and then spoke into my phone, “Hello? Samson?”

“Yeah hey. I was calling you for at least five minutes. You should be lucky that I didn't hang up after the first ten seconds.” Samson playfully growled.

I shrugged, even if he couldn't see it. “Yeah well I would have just recalled you anyways... Uh so can you pick me up?” I went straight to the point because honestly, I was tired of sitting here in this stupid bathroom with nothing to look at but my face, the bathroom stalls, floor, door, sink... Oh and the ceiling! How could I forget about that? I chuckled to myself. Man, I crack myself up.

“Sure, where ya at? Don't tell me Ryan raped you and left you on the side of the road?”

“Ew! How could you even think like that, Ryan is an awesome person!”

“More awesomer than me?”

“Awesomer isn't a word.”

“Let's just say it was...”

“Well it isn't, and if it was then that would only be in the world of stupid!”

“What if we were in the world of stupid right now?”

“Then I wouldn't be here. I'm a nerd remember?”

“Not to me you aren't... okay maybe you are.”

I scowled and rolled my eyes, not daring to say anything in response. “Can you just pick me up? Ryan is kind of busy right now and I want to go home to change out of my pajamas. Oh and I'm starving. I could eat you right now.”

“Hmmm... Maybe later you can eat me. And why would he be busy? What's more important than you? If you are at a breakfast place then why the hell didn't you eat breakfast?”

“First of all I have no money and second of all, I am trying to hook him up with someone. And that's all I'm going to tell you, period. I'm at Denny's, I have no idea where, but just hurry alright?” I sighed and slid down the bathroom wall, onto the floor.

“Okay, I'll send someone-” He said before screaming in the backround to whoever was there, “Who want's to go to Denny's and pick my baby Savvy up for me?” I heard many 'me!'s in the background and I couldn't help but groan. Don't tell me...

“Alright. Vincent and Jordan are coming to pick you up because they can't decide which one of them is going to go get you. Okay? Okay. Bye bye bayyyyyybeeeeeeee.”

I opened my mouth to scream at him and curse him all the way off of some bridge, but he hung up too fast. “Fudging sneaky butt face. I'll get him later.” I mumbled to myself in exhaustion and stayed there on the floor until I figured it was okay for me to leave. It'll take them forever to get here... What if Matt was coming with them? I wouldn't be able to sit next to him without being all awkward. I'd have to get him to confess to me somehow. But I'd have to do it in secret, without him knowing that I know.

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