The nurse asked the name of her daughter and my world came crashing down.

"Beyonce Knowles"

"Blue creek Ave" I spoke up behind her mom

"What?" She turned around confusion and anger clearly apparent.

"Blue creek ave. Was that where she was hit?"

"Yes"

I couldn't believe everything. I could lose the love of my life and its all my fault.

"Sir..sir are you okay?"

The room started spinning and I could hear the nurses voice in the distance but I couldn't answer. Everything went black and next thing you know  I'm in a hospital bed.

"Good to see youre up Mr. Carter"

"Damn, what happened?"

"You passed out"

"Bey..Beyoncé Knowles. Where is she?"

"Um...I'm not sure.  She's not my patient. You need to relax. You just woke up. I don't need you slipping back into unconsciousness .I'll go ask where she is though"he chuckled but I didn't see a joke.

I sat still and waited  but then I saw little Jerome come in.

"Hey old man. You're not supposed to be in here."

"Yea I know kiddo but I passed out."

"Dang so you have to stay overnight too."

"Nope. I'm speciallllll" I teased.

"Yea whatever."

I looked at Jerome wondering if he could handle the news about Beyoncé being in the ICU. I don't want him to have flashbacks of his mother and completely lose it, but its now or never. I can't protect him forever.

"Jerome listen up. Alright"

"Ok"

"Bey..she..shes here too."

"She came to see me?" Jerome smiled from his wheelchair.

"Not exactly...she was the other person in the car."

"What?...."

"She was the other person in the car...I hit her...she's in the ICU right now in critical condition."

"I want to see her."

"No Jerome. Not now"

"I WANT TO SEE HER"

"NO JEROME...not now. Alright?"

"Why?"

"Because I said so"

"FUCK YOU"

"BOY YOU BETTER WATCH WHO THE FUCK YOUR TALKING TO"

"OR WHAT? You're gonna hit me. You already have me rolling in a wheelchair." Jerome rolled away while I sat in silence, I was completely stunned. My son has never cursed at me...never fixed his mouth to curse at me, but now he has the balls.  I can't lie though. I do feel guilty for putting him in a wheelchair. I laid back on the bed and chilled out until the doctor came back with beys room number. I left without hesitation.

Mama Tina POV

I walked into  my daughters room and heard the monitor beeping.  She was hooked up to a million cords. I could barely recognize her. She had a cast on her leg and a bruise on her arm. A huge gash on her face with her head wrapped up in a white bandage. I wept at the sight of my baby girl.

I walked over to her and brushed her hair.

"Hey mama's baby. I know you can't hear me but its nice to know that you're still here. Baby you gotta be strong because I need you. Its been a minute since I've seen you, but I'm here for you no matter what. Its hard not seeing you all the time. Your father misses you bey and you need to stop being so bitter baby. I know what happened troubled you and messed with you but I need you to make things right. We are your family and this accident has opened our eyes, so baby wake up. Ok? I need you. This family needs you."

I kissed her forehead and watched my angel. She looked so peaceful. I know things haven't been perfect these past few months with us and the family but I just want my baby to wake up. Solange came to see her sister. Them two have always been close until the incident but anyway we have to be going.

We were leaving and we clashed into the same motherfucker from earlier. He is so irritating. He tried to walk into the room but I wasn't about to let that happen.

"What do you think you're doing?"

"I need to see her."

"I'm her mother so before you waltz yourself in there. you need to tell me who you are"

"I'm her..I'm..I.ugh--"

"Dad is bey in there?"

"Jerome I told you, you couldn't come. Go back to the room."

"I want to see her. What if she dies? I wont get a chance to say goodbye." Jerome had tears in his eyes.

"Rome she's not gonna die. She's a trooper. You know that."

"...but what if she does?"

"She won't so don't worry about it. Look I'm gonna see if we can get in to see her okay? Just relax. "

"Ok."

"Now ms..--"

"Knowles"

"I know you don't know me but I know your daughter and I love her. I was actually on my way to see her when the accident happened. I'm sorry about bey. I really really am and I will make it up to her but please I need to see her and so does my son."

"....why are you sorry? "

"Its my fault..I was distracted and I wasn't paying attention. She was coming out and I didn't see her and we crashed."

"...so you're the reason my daughter isn't on a plane right now. You're the reason she was crying her heart. You're the reason for her pain and you want me to let you see her. Boy if you don't get to stepping."

"What plane?"

"She was leaving. She said something about there being too much trouble here in new York with Michael,work and I'm assuming you're Shawn."

"Yes I am"

"Well she was leaving for a couple weeks I believe but it wasn't a long convo so I don't know all the details. All I know is you're the reason she isn't in  the islands right now. So no you can't see my daughter."

"Please  my son wants to see her too. " she looked at Jerome and smiled.

"What's your name sweetheart?" 

"Jerome"

"How  do you know Beyoncé."

"She's my principal and step mom "

"You two are married?" She said looking at me.

"No we were dating and getting serious. She lived with us for a while and helped me and Jerome out ALOT"

"Well I will allow you two to go in but only for a minute. I don't need you hurting my daughter anymore than you already have."

"Thank you ma'am."

I pushed Jerome inside and saw bey lying there. I couldn't bare the site. She looked like she was in so much pain and I was the cause. I never meant to hurt her and I  did.

"Hey beybey. I know I'm probably the last person you want to hear right now. I love you so much and I'm sorry for all that I said. I didn't mean any of it. I need you to wake up for me. I'm so sorry for everything. The accident. The fight. My mom. Please stay with me baby. Please." I cried as Jerome stared at me. I wiped up my tears and tried to be strong for my son but that was hard with the love of my life in a hospital bed. Jerome didn't say anything instead he just rolled out.

"Thank you Mrs. Knowles for letting me and Jerome see her"

"Mhmm.."

I went to Jerome's room where he was sitting in front of the window. I sat next to him. We didn't say anything we just sat and let the silence talk for us.

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