I was about to make things right.

Bey POV

I sat home and pondered everything that had occurred at Shawn's house and before. I know Shawn has helped me a lot and I know that I have kind of been a burden on him but dammit I've helped him just as much as he helped me. I am tired of feeling sorry for myself. I refuse to feel like crap because his mom just thinks I'm a gold digging bitch. Fuck that. Me and Shawn had something nice but we shouldn't have even started what we did because it wasn't gonna last. I'm his son's principal I'm pretty sure I'm off limits to him, so you know what I'm officially done with him. I'm sick of all the drama in my life so I'm going to leave. I'm taking a break from it all Shawn, Michael, my job, and little bab. This is the only thing I can do right now. I'm tired of crying and feeling like I'm not good enough. I deserve to be happy just like any other woman.

I looked around my room to check for anything else I needed to put in my bag. I think I have everything but I ran through my list  one more time. I sighed and grabbed my bag. I'm going to the airport to be in the Caribbean. I plan on staying for a couple of weeks. I already called in and since I rarely ever take days off they were more than happy to let me leave. I checked out the hotel and put my suitcase in the trunk. I wasn't going to be coming back to the hotel after today. I found a nice little place in Manhattan. It was cute and it made me feel happy. I backed out of the parking lot onto the main road as soon as I get out BAM! Everything went black.

Shawn POV

I was on my way to beys house.  Jerome was in the back.  I brought him because I knew bey had a soft spot for him. I started thinking about bey not taking me back and how I acted a fool and she probably didn't feel the need to deal with me. I can't lose her. I love her. We are perfect for each other. Yea we had our problems but I want her. I pressed on the acceleration hoping to get to her faster. I felt anger, pain, fear, and heartache. Tears formed in my eyes as Jerome was talking to me. I couldn't focus right so I just stayed quiet and tried to look at the road.

"Dad...dad...DAD..DADDD." Jerome screamed my name.

"WHAT JEROME?"  I screamed at him as I turned to look back at him.

He didn't get a chance to respond because all of a sudden we collided into another car. Our truck swerved and slid to the side of the road. I saw blood and smelled smoke. Jerome was slumped over, unconscious. I climbed out and opened his door. I dragged him out and called 911. I held Jerome in my arms and rocked him.

"Hello"

"Yes..I need an ambulance off of Blue creek Ave"

"Hurry. My son is unconscious"

"Yes..please..yes"

I hung up and cried.

"Jerome come on. Wake up son."

"Don't die on me please Rome. I'm sorry. I love you please." I kissed him on his forehead. I heard sirens and saw the ambulance speed up. Two paramedics with two stretchers came and took Rome. The other one went to the other car. It was smoking and flipped over on the roof of the car. I didn't bother to go over there and check on the person because my son was my number one priority. They put him in the back of the ambulance and I jumped inside.

I prayed the whole way. When we arrived the doctors put Jerome in surgery. They said he was in shock from the accident and he broke his leg. The accident was bad.  Of course they had to check me out too. I had a gash on my forehead and I was bleeding. I got wrapped up and waited on Jerome. I called my mother and my sisters. They said they would be here soon so I waited alone in suspense.

Its been an hour and I still keep replaying the car accident in my head.  It was my fault. I should've pulled over. I could barely see because of my tears, I wasn't paying attention, I was speeding, I was being careless. I started crying again but then I heard my mothers voice  in my ear.

"Its going to be Ok baby. Jerome is a strong boy. You know that. Keep praying and everything will be okay"

"Ma, it was my fault. I'm the reason why he's laying in that bed."

"No its not baby" my mom spoke as she rubbed my back.

"Its my fault. Ma..I yelled at him. I can't let that be the last thing I said to him. I can't Ma." She embraced me in her arms and I cried harder.

"Baby, he will wake up. Yes you may feel guilty but he'll be okay. You know that in your heart. It was  an accident Shawn." I stood up as all the pain and anger surged through me.

"BUT IT WAS MY FAULT. I ALMOST KILLED MY SON. I SHOULDN'T HAVE BEEN DRIVING. I TOOK MY EYES OFF THE ROAD. I CRASHED INTO THE CAR. IT WAS MY FAULT. " I punched the wall causing my mother and everyone else to jump. I sat down on the floor with my head in my hands. I rocked back and forth until I heard the doctor.

"Mr. Carter."

"Yes sir. " I said jumping up wiping my tears.

"Your son is fine. He is in room 404. His leg should be healed within in a couple months. Were keeping him overnight to monitor him. He's awake and he can see visitors but only two at a time. His medicine is still wearing off."

"Thank you doctor. " I shook the doctors hand as I ran off to see my son. I thanked God and smiled. He turkey is good.

I walked into his room and saw him laying there.

"Hey buddy"

"Hey dad"

"How you feeling? "

"Fine..it hurts."

"Yea I can tell. Look Jerome I'm so sorry about this. I never want you to feel like your the cause of this or anything for that matter. I love you so much and I don't want anything to happen to you. I love you. Ok?"

"Its Ok. I like the cast though. It's cool . The accident  was like a rush. What happened to the other car? "

"So do i have a daredevil on my hands? And I don't know. I didn't ask. I was too busy focused on you."

"Yea i think so. Ok well when can we leave?"

"Probably tomorrow. They need to monitor you."

"Ok well at least I packed an overnight bag."

"Yea good thinking huh?" I chuckled as I looked at my son talk as if nothing happened.

"Look kiddo, you need to get some rest so sleep and  I'll have some Chinese food when you wake up. Ok?"

"Yasssss" he screamed. I stayed until Jerome went to sleep and I watched him. I figured he'll be sleep for a while so I told everybody they could go see him but to be quiet.

"Hey Shawn"

"Hey T"

"How's he doing?"

"He's good. He only has a broken leg which is better than expected."

"Thank god. What happened?"

"Well I was going to see Bey because of all the drama that had happened. I wanted to make up for everything. I was speeding and I started getting worried about whether or not she would want me and all of that shit so I started crying. The tears were blocking my vision and Jerome was calling my name over and over. It was frustrating so I turned around to see what he wanted and I slammed into  another car. We slide off to the side of the rode and the truck landed on its side"

"Oh my god. Is the other person Ok?"

"I don't know I was too focused on Jerome to figure out"

"Shawn they could be hurt or killed. You need to check that out forreal and did you call Bey and let her know what happened to Jerome?"

"Alright i will. Nah I didn't think to."

"Mm...Ok well imma go check on him."

"Alright."

I called bey and I got her voicemail.

"Hey bey. Look I'm at the hospital. There was an accident and Jerome got hurt. I'm fine. I don't know about the other person. But If you want to come we're at Carnegie memorial hospital. Love you bye."

I walked to the front desk to find out who the other person in the accident was. I was about to ask but a woman mid 40s and a 20 year old woman bum rushed me and cut. 

"I need to see my daughter" she said almost out of breath.

"Excuse me but I'm talking" I guess that wasn't the best thing to say because she ripped me a new one.

"YOU THINK I GIVE A DAMN. MY DAUGHTER IS IN ICU BECAUSE SOME DUMBASS FLIPPED HER IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAMN ROAD. SHE IS HANGING ON BY A THREAD AND I SWEAR TO THE LORD,  IF YOU PREVENT ME FROM SEEING MY BABY, I WILL KILL YOU, SO MOVE." She shoved me out the way. The nurse asked the name of her daughter and my world came crashing down.

"It's  Beyonce Knowles"

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Sorry I haven't updated in a minute.  I've been really busy with school so enjoy. I'll update again soon.