showers had always been chaeyoung's favorite activity. it was a time for her to relax and feel the tenseness leave from every single muscle in her body. it was a time for her to reflect and clear her mind. it was a time for her to calmly think about her life.

showering with jennie kim, however, was the complete opposite. her whole body was burning, despite the water being mildly warm. she felt jennie's touch everywhere, all over her body, all over her skin. the older girl was gentle, yet rough. she clearly knew how to pleasure and chaeyoung wasn't complaining. it was euphoric - the feeling of the older's skin against hers, their synchronized heavy breathing and the intimacy between the two.

 jennie often stopped to check if she was okay, but she was more than okay - she was completely mesmerized. she couldn't stop looking at her, touching her and kissing her everywhere. jennie pinned her down on the shower wall and talked to her while she kissed her way down her chest, abdomen and the tops of her thighs and then. . .she went down on the younger. it felt amazing and chaeyoung was in pure ecstasy.

her first time was a blur of shower steam, passionate kisses and jennie's inked skin. . .

when she walked out of the bathroom in a towel, she saw jennie was already dressed and ready to go. in fact, it seemed as if the girl hadn't noticed her at all.

"um," chaeyoung teared through the silence, not sure of what to say or ask. she felt a bit awkward since it was her first time having. . . - she felt herself turn red. she couldn't even think of the word without turning into a tomato. how immature of her!

jennie had put down her dark red lipstick by now and was looking back at the girl, eyebrow raised.

chaeyoung bit on her lower lip, clutching the towel she was wearing to her chest. she felt even more nervous around jennie after all of that. her skin still burned in places jennie had touched, her heart was practically racing and her stomach was full of butterflies. it was hard for her to even make out any words, but on the contrary, jennie seemed very calm.

"are you okay?"

her brown eyes wandered over to jennie, who was looking at her expectantly, waiting for her to say something.

she only shook her head in response and walked closer to the older girl, hiding her face in her shoulder. she felt jennie tense almost immediately and chaeyoung didn't know whether the girl felt uncomfortable, because of what she did, or because she had never been in this position before.

on the contrary, she has been in MANY positions before. literally.

"do you want me to get you some water?" jennie asked, seemingly uncomfortable. it made chaeyoung wonder if she had ever done these things. had she ever been this intimate with someone? had she ever done anything beyond sex?

a yelp escaped chaeyoung's lips once she felt jennie's on her neck. the younger girl tried to pull away, but failed since jennie's arms were now wrapped around her to hold her in place.

"j-jennie!" she let out, even more flustered.

"what?" she could feel jennie's smirk against her neck and it only made her cheeks heat up even more. "you're the one exposing your neck to me. what did you expect me to do?"

definitely not this, chaeyoung thought to herself, but didn't voice it out loud. slowly, jennie let go of her and she took a few steps back. a blinding flash of light poured in through the windows of jennie's apartment, followed by a loud thunder, causing the older to grimace, while the younger held her chest as though she was about to have a heart attack.

"this isn't good," she mumbled to herself, walking towards the living room and closing all the windows. "it's raining too much."

chaeyoung frowned at her words, following after her. it really was pouring buckets outside. people were running around, trying to find a shelter, cars were stuck in traffic and strong gusts of wind were blowing, dragging different dead leaves with them. it looked like a whole storm out there and she didn't know how she was even going to make it back home.

it was as if jennie had read her mind, because at that moment she turned around to face her and shrugged. "guess you're stuck here for awhile."

though from her tone the younger girl could tell she wasn't happy. kim jennie seemed like she didn't want the commitment that came with relationships and chaeyoung could tell she never had anything beyond sex. it was sad, but maybe that's what worked best for her.

chaeyoung also noted jennie had some sort of emotional trauma which had led into her being depressed. she didn't know exactly what it was, but she could only assume it had something to do with her family, since last time chaeyoung mentioned jennie's family, things did not go well.

"i'll. . .get you a few clothes you can change into." jennie spoke after a bit, walking past her and chaeyoung frowned. she was acting as if nothing had happened between the two, as if she didn't just take her first time and it was making her feel like she was worthless. lisa had warned her about it. she had told her to stay away from jennie, but chaeyoung hadn't listened.

speak of the devil, she thought when her phone started buzzing. she walked over to the stand beside the front door, seeing lisa's name flash on the screen. with a sigh, she picked up.

"where the hell are you?"

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a/n: uh oh, dramaaaaaa.