The next day I didn't want to go to school. Not because I didn't do my homework, not to mention Jeonghan and I were no where done our project. I could care less about our project though, the main reason why I didn't want to go to school was because of my friends. 

My friends are probably mad at me for not being honest with them yesterday telling them I was going to the mall, not to mention they're probably frustrated that I didn't tell them about the 'girl' I was with. Especially Hansol, it's like I can feel his anger from my bedroom even though I'm nowhere close to him right now. 

"Joshua are you getting up or not, you're going to be late for school if you don't get up." My mom calls from downstairs. 

I groaned slightly while getting out of bed and getting myself ready for school. 

On my way out of the house, I didn't bother to eat breakfast like usual and I made my way to school. The whole time I was walking to school I couldn't stop thinking about Hansol. He's my best friend and I just got onto okay terms with him again from our last fight. I don't want him being mad at me again because it's hard to get Hansol happy again whenever we're in a fight. 

I walked into school holding my breath. The loud school greeted me with boys shouting down the hall and laughing coming from different classrooms. When I hesitantly entered my own classroom, luckily none of my friends were there yet, but Jeonghan was. 

He was laying his head down on his desk like he was trying to get some more sleep. I smirked just seeing the top of his head and walked over to him, poking his shoulder lightly. 

When I poked his shoulder, he slightly looked up to see it was me. Once he saw it was me who had poked his shoulder, a bright smile appeared on his face. "Morning, beautiful" I say while pulling out a chair to sit down in front of his desk so that I could face him. 

When I called him beautiful his face flushed into a light pink and he looked at me embarrassed. "Joshua don't say that stuff here..." 

"Why not, it's not like anyone is listening to our conversation. Jeez you overthink way too much." I say while pinching one of Jeonghan's cheeks.

Jeonghan swatted my hand away agressivley but I still had the same smile on my face. "So did you get home okay last night, it was a little dark."

"Yeah it was fine, my mom was upset though because she found out I skipped school. I got scolded a lot and she hit my bottom. It still hurts a bit to sit down but I guess that's punishment for skipping school and lying to her." Jeonghan admits, adjusting how he was sitting in his seat, making a face every time he leaned on one butt cheek. 

"Sorry I made you get scolded..." 

"It's not your fault, it was my fault for going along with you so don't blame it on yourself." Joenghan paused midway through talking and his gaze was directed off of me. He looked behind me with a concerned expression on his face. 

When I turned my head to see what he was looking at, I saw my group of friends entering the room all laughing and smiling together. When I made eye contact with Hansol, he glared at me and turned his head away so he didn't have to look at me anymore. Some of the others did the same thing and the rest who didn't glare at me I guess were trying to ignore my existence altogether. I guess this is what I get for choosing a 'girl' over friendship. 

I turned my head back around to face Jeonghan again and sighed deeply. "This is about yesterday, isn't it?" Jeonghan questions and I nodded meaning he was right. I couldn't even get words to come out of my mouth. "I'm sorry Joshua..." he quietly says, looking down at his desk. 

Hearing Jeonghan sound so sad made me feel bad for looking so sad if that made any sense. I quickly put a smile on my face. "You don't have to be sorry Jeonghan. I have you, don't I?"

"I know but they're your friends...this is the third time you ditched them for me..." 

"Third time?" I repeat, confused. 

"The time when you all went to the movies together and you left them from shopping to go have bubble tea with me. Also the karaoke place when you left early because you heard me getting assaulted...and also yesterday." Jeonghan explains and I was surprised he remembered all of that. 

"Well yeah because you're precious to me. Don't worry, I've been friends with them for a long time, they'll forgive me, I'm sure of it." I explain in a reassuring smile but Jeonghan didn't even look up at me. I couldn't force him to look up and kiss me either because everyone would see. 

The bell rang meaning class was starting and I winked at Jeonghan one last time before getting up from the seat in front of his desk. "I'll make things right with them, you don't have to worry too much about it, it's not your fault." I answer, ruffling Jeonghan's hair before turning around and going to my desk to sit down. 

When lunch time rolled around I went into the cafeteria and after grabbing my tray of food. I then went to the table where my friends and I usually always ate lunch. I could see them all talking and laughing while I was still walking up to the table, but when I actually got there everyone went quiet and just looked at me. 

I hesitantly took a seat in front of Hansol but the people beside me scooted away. "I don't feel like sitting here, I'm going to sit somewhere else." Hansol says, already standing up while holding his tray. 

"Oh come on Hansol, you can't stay mad at me forever." I say before he could even turn around and walk away. 

Hansol glared at me like what I said had offended him. "Joshua you always do this when you find a girl you like. You always abandon or lie to us. I bet you abandoned us to hang out with that girl when we were at karaoke too, wasn't it?" Hansol questions in anger and I looked down, chewing on my bottom lip to hold myself back from saying yes. 

"I can already tell that's the answer, you don't even have to say anything. Joshua, even when I have a girlfriend I tell you everything and I let you in on everything. I don't lie to you guys or hang out with my girlfriend behind your backs. I'm honest with you guys all the time. I'm tired of your lies...all of us are tired of your lies. In a friendship you need trust and it's like you never trust us. It's getting annoying, repetitive and I'm done. Find new friends." Hansol says, he didn't only sound angry but he sounded hurt and upset, like he was just as upset saying it then if it were to be me saying it. 

"Hansol...I'm sorry." I say, loud enough to be heard over all of the other people in the cafeteria talking but Hansol still had the same cold, sad expression on his face. 

"I've heard your apologies too many times." Hansol says before turning around and walking away, not letting me say anything else. 

Everyone else slowly got up from the table and followed after Hansol, leaving me to sit alone at the table. I was astonished, shocked more to say it. I never thought in my whole life...that my friends would abandon me. 

I looked down at the tray of food in front of me and gripping my chopsticks tightly in my hands. I felt like I was going to cry. I for sure in hell can't cry, not in a place like this anyway. I made sure to eat my lunch, sitting alone holding back tears. 

When I was done my lunch I put the tray back and went into one of the closest washrooms. I went into one of  the stalls, locking the stall door behind me and sitting down on the toilet. I've never been abandoned before, not by my friends at least. 

A single tear rushed down my cheek...what am I going to do now?