~Jeonghan's POV~

Joshua said he wasn't feeling well for the rest of the day so he was in the nurses office, resting up on one of the beds. I feel like that was probably for the best anyway. With the attention he had brought upon himself in the classroom, people were probably going to question him about what was wrong. 

The rest of the day went pretty normal, which I was a bit surprised about. I thought the class would be a bit confused about Joshua's abnormal outbreak. Considering Joshua's always so strong headed and paying attention to his work, I thought someone would have at least mentioned that he was acting a bit out of place. What surprised me even more, was that Joshua's 'old' friends didn't even bother to seem concerned about him. 

I know they're not friends anymore, and they have no reason to be concerned about him, but don't they still see him as a friend even in the littlest sense? 

When the last bell rang to end the day, the first place I went to was the nurses office to check up on Joshua. "Is he still here?" I ask the nurse as I opened the door.

She nodded to me meaning yes and pointed at the bed on the far end of the room. I nodded to her pointing and closed the door behind me as I walked inside the room. "Joshua" I faintly say as I walked closer to his bed. 

Joshua slowly opened his eyes when he heard me call out his name. "Jeonghan?" He says in a rusty, questioning tone. 

"It's me, are you awake...did I wake you up?" 

"No, no, I just woke up." He answers, starting to sit up in the bed while rubbing his eyes with one hand. 

"Well it's the end of the day, do you want me to walk you home?" I ask, looking at him in a pout. 

"No, I think it's better if I walk home by myself today. I need to clear my mind anyway about the whole thing that happened today. I'm probably going to hang out at a internet cafe for a while as well so my parents don't question why I'm home so early again." He says, now standing up from the bed he was laying down in. 

"Are you sure you're okay to stand up?" I question, looking at him a bit concerned.

"I was just a bit tired Jeonghan, it's not like I broke a rib or anything." He says in a faint smirk. He swung his backpack over his shoulder and started walking to the front of the room and I followed behind him like a puppy. 

"So do you at least want me to walk you out of the school or anything?" I question, looking at him with the same concerned expression. 

"It's fine Jeonghan, I need to talk to the teacher anyway to see what I missed in class today." 

"You can just ask me-" 

"Jeonghan" he says in a stern tone, cutting me off from talking. Now I knew I was really being annoying. I nodded meaning I understood and turned around to walk away and out of the school. 

That's the first time I've ever heard Joshua sound so serious, he sounded a bit...angry as well. Did I make him angry, is he annoyed with me now? I was just trying to help...well maybe I put too much pressure on him to share everything with me, even his time. Damn it, I'm too selfish.

I walked straight home today where Mrs.Lee was there sweeping the front again. I looked at her confused and she had an upset expression on her face. "Did you forget what was happening today?" She asks in a faint tone, speaking to me.

"What?" I say in faint confusion, looking at her in curiosity. 

At the same time Hyojoon opened the front door, when I looked at him, I remembered that Hyejin was leaving today. "Oh damn it, did she already leave?!" I ask, looking at both of them concerned. I was going to come back home at lunch to say goodbye, but I was too caught up and worried about Joshua that I forgot about Hyejin- how could I forget about her?! Damn it! 

"Hyojoon, I'm sorry about Hyejin..." I say, looking down at him with upset eyes. 

"Why weren't you there...she was asking where you were..." He asks, he sounded really upset, so upset he sounded like he was about to cry.

"Hyojoon I'm sorry..." I answer, looking down at him with the same upset eyes. I crouched down so I was at the same eye-level as him and put my arms out for him to hug me. 

"No, I hate you Jeonghan!" he shouts, pushing me back, making me fall onto my butt. I saw the tears rushing down his cheeks before he turned around as he ran back into the house. 

I was a bit taken aback, seeing Hyojoon start crying. At the same time I remembered when my own brother left me...he was my only protection...I should have stopped him from going with those people. 

I slowly stood up from where I was pushed back and continued to stare down at the ground, still in a bit of shock, thinking about my own brother. I then started to think about my parents...why...why did they have to... 

A slap across the face brought my back to reality. It hurt really bad, I brought one hand up to rub my cheek. I looked up to see it was Jangmi. She looked upset. "Where were you this afternoon, Hyejin was so upset that you weren't there you should have seen how hurt she was!" She asks me in anger, almost so loud that she was shouting. It was causing attention to the other kids, but they most likely already know I wasn't there so they were probably mad at me too. I could feel their glaring gazes on me. 

I blinked a couple of times before looking down and saying a faint "I'm sorry..." 

"You're sorry, that's all you have to say?" She asks, I glanced up at her for a second and she let a tear rush down her cheek because she was so upset. 

"I don't know what else to say..." I answer in an apologetic tone, sounding even more upset. 

"I need to get some air away from you..." she says in anger, turning around while wiping underneath her eyes and storming back into the house.

Damn it, I really messed up this time. 

I looked up at Mrs.Lee who still had her head down, like she didn't even want to look at me. Hyejin was probably really concerned about where I was. I can just picture her crying now while getting into the car, I can't believe myself. I'm a horrible person. 

At the same time, I had the same mini flashback to my older brother leaving me, going into the car. Tears started to form in my eyes as I turned around and ran away from the house. 

"Jeonghan!" I could hear Mrs.Lee call out to me but I ignored her. 

I don't know where I'm going, where am I even running to, I have no where to go. I don't know where I was going, but I just kept running. I ran so much that I was out of breath. I supported myself by leaning against a light pole and tears started to slowly rush down my cheeks....hyung... 

I could feel a raindrop fall onto my head, and as I looked up at the sky, I saw rain was starting to fall. Damn it...

I can't go to Joshua's house because he wants to be alone to clear his head, and I don't have any other friends to ask if I can stay with them. What do I even do? 

I looked around me for any sort of shelter, but there wasn't any in sight. The only potential shelter to keep me dry from the rain were from the nearby stores which were by now closing. 

I sighed, looking down with the rain now starting to pour harder, I sat down on the wet park bench that was nearby and just sat in the pouring rain for the rest of the night.