Samaira Khanna, a 25 years old, bold and beautiful, an independent woman working as an Assistant Creative head at Birdsong, Mumbai along with his parents and friends. She is the elder daughter of Samrat Khanna and Piyali Khanna and elder sister of Manyata Khanna, younger daughter of Khanna family, who is currently studying at London.

Samaira's nick name is Sam, and this name was given by her best friend Neel in their childhood, as Neel could not pronounce her full name correctly in his childhood. From then, everyone addressed her in this nick name only. (I have already mentioned about Neel and Neel and Sam's relationship as well as Neel and Sam's three common friends Tej, Zubin and Krutika in my first chapter. So, I'm not going to repeat that again. And From now, I will address Samaira as Sam.)

Sam had an elder brother named Jai Khanna whom she lost almost one and a half year ago because of a fatal car accident. From that moment, her life has been changed upside down and she became out of control of anyone and anything because of her guilt - her guilt of being the reason of not being able to save her family's happiness and her brother who played an important role in her life being a guide, a mentor, a friend , a savior for her; reason of her dear brother's death; reason of her mother's pain, agony, and hate towards her own elder daughter; reason of her father's lost piller of strength, his only son Jai and reason of Manyata's pity towards her elder sister, Sam herself.

When she got to know that in the hospital that, her brother is no more, she herself was shocked beyond words, she screamed at the doctors and nurses continuously screaming at her highest pitch of voice that, "You are lying, you all are lying. I don't believe you, you are joking, right ? See Papa, Jai wants to make fool of us so he has made a conspiracy with the support of the doctors. This can't really happen, right? He can't leave us like this, no, no this is not fair, He can't do this nonsense joke with us, right Papa ? Please, say something , Papa. Please, say that it is not truth, they are lying to us." Samrat Khanna and all friends of Sam including Neel and his mother was present at that time, in the hospital to console Sam and her family. But none could not control her screams and cries which were being made out of her shock and disbelief of the truth. Her mother was not uttering any single word out of shock and her younger sister Manyata and Neel's mother Mrs. Prerna Malhotra were trying hard to make her respond by continuously shaking her and asking her to scream and cry. She became numb to react to anything. But may be Sam's continuous screams and cries somehow made her realize the shocking fact that she has lost her most loved son, her dearest child Jai. And because of the shock of her realization and the cries of Sam suddenly she became too much angry and aggressive and she with some too fast moves come closer towards  Sam. Sam, seeing and hearing her mother's footsteps towards her became alerted and looked towards her mother, seeing her mother's dry eyes and stiffened face she immediately goes ahead some steps towards her to hug her tightly and make her cry. But , before she could hug her mother a loud sound like "thud" was heard by everyone present at the corridor. All became too shocked to watch and realize that Mrs. Piyali Khanna, Jai, Sam and Manyata's mother has slapped her own elder daughter very hard. For Sam it was too hard to believe that her mother has slapped her hard in front of all the people, she became too much numb to react after this. Samrat Khanna, her husband then came forward wanting to stop creating anymore ruckus, but Piyali stopped him, showing one of her hands and saying, "No, Samrat, not anymore, today, neither you nor anyother can stop me to speak truth. I always had warned you and Jai not to spoil her by melting in all her tricks and unnecessary demands she makes every time, in future days these unnecessary demands of her may make us suffer very miserably. But both of you did not take my warnings seriously and made her nothing but a spoilt brat and look what she has done today, she has killed her own brother by her own hands. We lost our only son today only because of her, she is the sole reason behind our miseries today."

She looked towards Sam, and says that, "And you, Sam, what do you think of yourself or of me? Your hands became dirty with the blood of my son and you are coming towards me to hug me? Do you think that your hugs and condolences can remove my pain and agony? If you think like that, then let me tell you, you are very wrong in your thinking, Sam. You can't imagine the pain and agony I'm feeling right now knowing that one of my child is solely responsible for the loss of my another child. I'll never forget the fact that you killed my son, my own daughter is the killer of my own son. I'll never ever forgive you for this, Sam."

Sam was trying to find out some words to clarify her perspectives and position to her mother, but she was not being able to utter a word. After some time, she, with a very difficulty tried to say fumbly and in between her sobs that, "Momm...Mommm...please...please......try..to...under...stand...I...I...didn't... do...this...acci...dent...inten...tionally...Momm...please...be...lie...ve...me...I...I..did...not...kill...hi...m...how...can...I...I...kill...Jai?...no...no...mommm...you...are...mis...mis...taking...I...can't...can't...ever...kill...him...How...can...you...say...that...that...I...I'm...the...mur...murderer...of...my...own...broth...brother?I'm...not...a...killer...momm...momm...please...tru...trust...me...I'm...I'm...your...your...own...daugh...ter...I'm...not...the....killer....of...Jai...He...is...my...broth...brother...you...you...know...you...know....that...right?I...I...was...just...lear...learning...to...dri...drive...a...car...from...him...In...bet...ween...Pa...pa...call...called...me...and...Jai...rece...received...his...call...and.......got...got...busy...in...talk...talking...and....and...I...I...miss...missed...my...my...balan...balance...on...on...the...brea..........break...and...and...on...the...acce...ler...rator...and...and...sudd...en...ly...Jai......push...pushed..me...out...out...of...the..out...of...the...car...with...without..........saying...any...anything...to...me...and....that...that...acci...acci...dent...hap...pened...I...did...not...kill...hi...im...momm.."

And with these she got another hard slap from her mother once again and a highest possible scream of her mother saying loudly, "Shut up...just...shut...your...mouth...I....don't...don't...want...to...hear...anything........from...your...mouth...I...don't...believeyou...anymore...just...stop...being...drama...queen...stop...your...notanki...drama...I...hate...you...I...hate...the...fact... that...you...are...my...own...daughter...
In fact I hate myself for being your mother...may...be...it...was...god's...rewards...to...me...for...keeping...you...in...my...womb...for...nine...long...months. May be may be it would be better if I would...I...would...myself...killed...you in...in...my...womb...then...may be this...day...would...not...come...today" saying these she fell on the floor and cries hysterically and Manyata and Neel's Mother Mrs. Prerna Malhotra came running towards her to console her. Samrat Khanna looked at his wife once in disbelief and looked again towards his daughters being defeated, disappointed and distressed for the storm that has destroyed all of their hard works of years to make a strong and peaceful family bonding among his family members and a happy family life in a second. All of his family members were crushed and devastated from inside in that one moment of storm...and the storm took away all the peace and happiness from their house and from their lives as well. And except watching the destruction of his family and the bondings among them silently, Mr. Samrat Khanna could not do anything.

The sentences came out of her mother's mouth had stroked really hard to the heart of Sam. She could not believe that her own mother can accuse her of his own brother's murder, moreover, her mother wished if she would never born she could not take more of the shock, stress, guilt and accuses of her mother to be a murderer of her own brother, so she collapsed on the floor being unconscious.

After some long hours, Sam was seen in a private cabin, one of her hands was connected with the saline drip and she was restlessly moving her body from one side to another keeping her another hand in her head like she was pressurizing her brain, may be she was recollecting the shocking events that happened with her in front of her eyes some hours ago. And with a sudden jerk Sam gets up from her unconscious state, screaming the name of his brother Jai. Neel and other friends of Sam came fast into her cabin realizing she has gain her consciousness. After opening her eyes Sam was looking here and there to know and realize where she was at that moment, she gradually realized that, she is still in that hospital, now in a private cabin, looking here and there to find at least one of her family members was present there. But no, she found no one except her friends, those friends who promised each other to be with each other in all their thick and thins of life no matter what comes in their way and her friends kept their promises intact. They did not leave her in the middle of storm and destruction but rather they chose to became her hope and strength in her fight for herself, her innocence, her justice and for her family, for Jai.

Sam was feeling very guilty that she could not save Jai; she started thinking about what her mother said some time ago and thus started murmuring that "in place of Jai, she should die in that accident as she was driving unknowingly and recklessly on that cursed day". First she asked herself and then she screamed at god asking "Why I did not die? Why I have been saved by my brother in that accident? Why I could not save my brother? For what mistakes god is giving myself and my family this kind of punishment ? If I had made any mistakes in my past or present life , then I should only be punished for my wrong doings but why god is giving punishment to my whole family? Was my birth in this world that biggest mistake for which my mother is now suffering from one of her child loss?"

After much crying and screaming Neel and her other friends were able to make her calm a little as they hugged her tightly to give her the comfort she needed right then to give her the strength to face one more harsh truth and reality which she was unknown to.

After getting relaxed a bit, Sam asked Neel, she wants to see Jai. Hearing her demand, Neel and others became numb, as they knew that this was coming but they do not know, what to tell her and how to tell her. Reading all of their facial expression of nervousness and silent eyes she felt that something has surely happened when she became unconscious. Fearing something very dangerous she just could not sit on that bed any more, so she just took off her saline drip from her hands and started running towards Operation theater to see her brother Jai, at least one last time. When she reached in front of the OT , she saw a nurse was coming out from the OT. Sam asked the nurse, "May I see my brother once?" The nurse replied, "Who is your brother? There is being a bypass surgery of a serious heart patient, is he your brother? If yes, then, you can not see him, as the operation has not been completed yet." Hearing the reply of the nurse, Sam became angry and started scolding her saying,"What rubbish are you talking off , here in this OT , my brother , Jai Khanna was taken into some time ago, I myself had admitted himself, now you are saying that here another patient's operation is being performed, then where is my brother? Tell the truth, god damn it, or else I'll sue your hospital, mind it."

Hearing the chaos made by Sam, the head nurse, who was also assisting the ongoing operation, came in front of Sam who also was present in Jai's operation time, following the orders of her senior doctors, to make the chaos stop, as it is a hospital and doctors are having difficulties in concentrating on their surgeries. Sam sees that the nurse who had performed Jai's operation some time ago, is coming out from OT and she immediately pleaded her to let her meet his brother once.

But to her shock, the head nurse replied that her brother's body had already been taken by her parents for performing his funerals. Hearing this, Sam asked Neel and her other friends, "What the hell is going on? When this all happened? And why I've not been informed about this before?" But all of them were unable to face her , so they were looking down being silent. But their silence was killing her, and she need to know the truth so she screamed at them using all her force, "Why the hell are you all silent? Will anyone tell me the truth? I can't bear this silence anymore. Please tell me where my brother is. I want to see him one last time, please take me to him. Please I beg of you."

All of them were watching her pleading, screaming  and sobbing being helpless at that situation. But, not being able to see her like this, Neel silenltly came to her, hold her and hugged her tightly to comfort her. And after that, he decided to take her to the place where Jai was being cremated. So, completing all the formalities of discharging her from the hospital, he took her and all their friends in his car and started for the place where Jai's last rites would be performed.

Neel parked his car at a distance to the other cars which were parked there. Then they all saw from the car that, Sam's father, Samrat Khanna has already started taking circle around the chitah of his son with the pitcher of Gangajal that was pouring water from its small whole made by the Pandit. Sam now was watching all this silently, as she became shocked to know in the meantime that, her mother did not want her daughter to attend the funeral of her son, so she has instructed her all friends not to let her go to the cremation place. But, Neel has brought her here, without her mother's knowledge and all of their friends gave a silent nod in this act of his.

But, Sam was not at all getting peace by seeing all this, as she wanted to cry one last time hugging his brother, but she could not. She could not stay inside the car anymore and came out of the car to go more nearer fast, but Neel and friends stopped her to go further, requesting not to create a scene more by making them agitated and halting the funeral process. Sam did not want to hear their plights and wanted go there anyhow, but with very difficulty they became successful in making her understand the situation and thus stopped her progress of going more near. Sam accepted their request and did not go there further more and started crying silently over her fate that even knowing her brother is being cremated in front of her and only just a little bit far from her, she cannot go near, rather she has to see that heart breaking scene from a far, she cannot even go near her family and console them.

Meanwhile, Piyali Khanna and Samrat Khanna were being strong from getting the very first news of their only son's death but the scene of their only son's chitah burning in front of their own eyes, they could not bear anymore and broke down into crying. Suddenly Piyali became unconscious in the arms of her husband, Samrat Khanna. Everyone present there became alarmed by this event and they came forward to help the family. Samrat carried his wife in his arms, then laid her in the back seat of their car, then Neel's mother Mrs. Prerna Malhotra and Sam's younger sister Manyata also took the back seat of that car to give support to Piyali and Samrat himself drove their car to their home.

Sam, Neel and their friends all were watching all this happenings from a far, and after confirming the cremation place being empty only with burning chitah of her brother, Sam ran there fast and started crying loudly screaming the name of Jai again and again. No one tried to control her anymore as they knew very well that Sam was holding herself and her pain for a very long time and so they all let her pain come out of her heart and soul as it was the only best way to come to terms with the truth and heal her first. They all  decided to stay there till the chitah become holy ashes and also that after collecting the ashes in a holy pot, they all will reach Sam's house at morning.

Sam's house

While driving, Samrat instructed Manyata to call their family doctor and tell him to come to their house as soon as possible. When they reach their house, Samrat took Piyali into their bed room in his arms and laid her carefully in the bed letting Manyata and Neel's mother stay with her. Then he told them to stay there till he comes back instructing them to change her clothes into a comfortable one.

After sometime, doctor reaches their house to check on Piyali's health. The doctor asked Samrat to tell what all happened before Piyali went into unconsciousness and then Samrat provided him with all the necessary information he needed. After hearing all the incidents and checking her up, their doctor tells Samrat to come out of the room with him. Samrat hurriedly comes out of the room with the doctor and asked anxiously, "What happened to her doctor? Anything serious? Why she has not gain consciousness yet? Do I need to admit her in the hospital?"

Doctor replied, "Relax Samrat, nothing serious has happened yet; she is in too much tension, depression, stress and pressure as well as she is tired now, so she needs relaxation and a peaceful, sound sleep that's why I've injected her with sedatives and now she will sleep till morning. She will gain her consciousness very soon, it has happened only because of the shock of Jai's death. Piyali's health got affected by her unstable BP, and also I'm assuming that she has not taken any solid food, not even a glass of water for a very long time. I am prescribing some medicine to control her BP and suggest that you must make her have something light and solid food, anyhow as soon as possible after she wakes up, at least a glass of fresh juice or a glass of milk or a bowl of soup and plenty of water but only before giving her those medicine and also instruct you not to give any kind of stress and tension to her from now on as more stress and tension can worsen the situation. And I think there is no need to admit her in the hospital immediately if after waking up she agrees to take proper and enough foods and drinks by herself but if she does not agree then you have to try to force her to have foods and drinks but if you still remain unsuccessful in this, then you must admit her in the hospital without thinking anymore." Doctor also advised him not to keep her alone for some days as loneliness can depress her more and also to help her have a sound sleep by keeping her busy everyday anyhow and by making her accept the truth gradually and thus move on slowly and steadily. The doctor also assures him that he will personally check on her health on phone and if it is needed he himself will come to check her up on the weekends or in any emergency.

Samrat listened to all the instructions and advises of the doctor very attentively and carefully and assured him that he will surely follow them to cure his wife as fast as possible. He went out of the house with the doctor to the doctor's car and thanked him profusely for coming to his house at that late hours of night and wished good night and bid bye to him. The doctor also told him that is his job and also not to worry much and thus wished good night and good luck and bid bye to him.

After that he immediately went into his house and then into his bedroom to inform Manyata and Neel's mother, about what all doctor said to him. He then tells Manyata that he is going out of the house to check on Sam and also to make some important calls and arrangements and till then Manyata has to take care of her mother following the instruction of the doctor and everything in the house and also requests Neel's mother to stay there at night as it will be very helpful for them to handle Piyali physically, mentally and emotionally and also to console and assist Manyata as she is too young to handle herself as well as to handle her mother and the whole situation. Neel's mother, Prerna accepts his request and assured him not to worry as she promised them she will always be on their side on their thick and thin like they had always been on her and Neel's side. Being assured by the statement of Mrs. Prerna, Samrat felt secured & satisfied and he hoped that everything will be falling at their places gradually and one day everyone will be okay.

It had already been 4am, the next morning when Samrat reaches to check on Sam in that hospital, where Sam was admitted. There he found out from the head nurse that, Sam got discharged from the hospital more than some hours ago and what all happened after they took Jai's body for cremation without her knowledge till she got discharged from that hospital. Hearing all these things, Samrat was sure that Sam must have reached the cremation place through her the help of her friends and she surely have seen the cremation process and may be she is still there only, but he wondered why she did not come to see her brother one last time not even to take part in the cremation process or even to console her family. He too was being too much pressurized and tired by back to back all the happenings and the situations around him, he did not want to think more so he then quickly goes out from the hospital and get himself seated on the car to reach her elder daughter and to take her and his son's ashes back to his house.

At The Cremation Place

After reaching there, Samrat felt at peace as his guess was right when he saw Sam and all her friends there near the burning chitah of his son. He also saw that Sam was still crying loudly and no one became successful in making her stop crying. Everyone became aware of his presence except Sam but Samrat signed them not to make her aware of his presence. He  then goes near her silently and kept his hand on one of her shoulder adressing her as "mere bachchu". Sam heard his father's voice and recognized his touch as well as his presence over there immediately and became silent. She wanted to hug her father tightly and cry on over this unfortunate accident that has shattered her whole family totally, but she could not even move an inch as to avoid facing him as she was feeling guilty --- guilty of making his father loose his only son. Also, she was fearing that her father too will be accusing like her mother did sometime ago. And, being Papa's laadli and all time favorite she won't be able to bear if he also accuses her of killing her own brother. Samrat understood his daughter's dilemma of facing him or not and that's why he took a long sigh and started the conversation saying,

Samrat: "You do not need to feel guilty for what happened my bachcha, it was not at all your fault. You are not responsible for Jai's death, nor you killed him.

Sam: (Not being able to hold on herself by hearing her father she turned towards him and started crying and sobbing all over again hugging him tightly saying,) "Is it true Papa? Wasn't it my fault for what all happened today? Don't you also believe like mom that I'm the sole responsible for Jai's death? That I'm the killer of your one and only son? Tell me the truth, Papa. Please tell me, can you really believe that I can murder my own brother ? You all know nah, how much I loved, respected,admired and adored him? Then how can you all think like that or even believe that I killed him? No, no, no, this can't be true, I can't kill him nor I can even think of doing this to my own brother in my lifetime. I didn't murder him, trust me Papa, I didn't kill my one and only brother. It's just happened so suddenly and horribly that I couldn't control the car at that time, and all this happened, I...I could not save him. Why this accident happened? Why in this whole world I'm to be blamed and suffered only? Why the hell in this whole world all the bad things happen with me only? Why I'm like this? Why I'm this much childish, stupid, irresponsible and careless? Why I couldn't be a little more responsible and careful? Why do you all need to suffer all the time only because of me, my stupidity, irresponsibility and carelessness? Why my fate is so cruel to me only? Why couldn't I become the best daughter and best sister? Why? Why?

(Samrat was continuously trying to make her calm and soothed by tightening the hug more and by cooing sweet nothings into her ear and also by caressing her hair and her back. But she still was continuously crying and sobbing in between. After sometime she stopped for a while and she freed herself from the hug but because of too much shock, after giving some pause, she started behaving like a mad woman and blabbering herself more paying no attention to anyone present there like this) "Mom is right, Papa, she is absolutely correct, I am a bad daughter and sister, I really am, as I wasn't a good daughter for her and for you, nor I was a good sister for Jai and Manyata, I always remained a too much pampered and spoilt child all of who's demands and tantrums were tolerated and defended either by you or by Jai. I could be a good one if I tried ever, if I ever pushed myself a little more, but simply I didn't push myself, I did nothing to win over all of your hearts and make a special place for me in them, I didn't even try once to be the daughter and sister which all of you wished me to be. That's why Mom and Manyata has always hated me and maintained a distance from me, as I used to be the reason for their annoyance, disturbance, irritation, anger, and what not. And they still hates me for who I'm, for what I'm, and for what I did to my family today. I'm such an irresponsible and careless, I'm only to be blamed for breaking my own family by my own hands, I'm the culprit, I'm the sinner, I'm a criminal, I'm a bloody murderer who killed her own brother by her own hands, I'm solely responsible for Jai' death. I'm the only reason for all the pain, agony, miseries and sufferings that you all are facing today. And so, I should never be forgiven, I must be punished for all my faults, sins, crimes, tantrums, mistakes and wrong doings, I must be punished for Jai's death. And my punishment is, from now on you all will be sorry and be hating me for my existence, okay? In fact, you, Neel, Teji, Zubin, Krutika, all of my office collegues please don't love me, or console me, nor sympathize with me, you will always hate me and pity me for my existence. You must boycott me and ignore me, whenever you meet me accidentally and unintentionally, anyhow and anywhere." Moving her shoulder to everyone present there she wanted to be assured that they certainly will hate and ignore her from that day itself. Unfortunately, no one could raise their eyes, as they all were looking down being helpless. She again says to herself, "Mom and Manyata has always hated me, but I never took it seriously, and now, what I've recently done, they will automatically hate me the most, and you also should do it, you must go ahead with your hate for your lifetime for me, as it will give you all more strength and power to move on in life, to cope up with this present storm, that I myself brought into our family with my birth and my existence. No, no, no, actually this punishment is very small for me, and how can I get a small punishment for committing such a grave mistake? That's not fair, nah? As I did a grave sin, I must get the ultimate punishment, isn't it? So, what should it be? Umm...let me think of a way. Yeah.....got it. As I'm a bad daughter and a bad sister as well as a bad omen for my family, I should be very sorry for being alive till now for no valid cause, I must be sorry for my existence in this earth without any reason. Like my Mom said it would be better if she could kill me in her womb, so, I've decided that, I shouldn't show my face either to her or to anyone anymore, as I shouldn't live anymore in this world, if I live anymore, you all will suffer more, so, please kill me. Papa, can you do that for me, please?" She takes Samrat's hands forcefully on her throat to strangle herself saying, "Kill me, Papa. Just end my life, Papa, just end it. Please, do this one small, one last favour to me, to your daughter, Papa, won't you?"

Samrat and others were struggling too hard to leave his hands from her tight clutch, but it seemed like she was in an another world of her own, with very difficulty they succeeded to leave her clutch from her father's hand but this time she clutched Neel's hand with much more force than before and requested him once again to kill her like she did sometime ago with her father. This time also Samrat and others saved Neel and her by trying hard but she still kept on going to another and then the next one repeating the same. But no one listened to her plights. Being tired and exhausted she screamed again," Is there anyone in this world who can kill me right now? I want to die and I need to die right now to give myself the ultimate punishment." Eyeing and moving towards everyone she kept on asking them,"Can you do me this one favour? Can you? Can anyone?" She leaves a long sigh and said again, "Oh, I get it, there is no one in this world, not even the god himself, who can show some mercy on me by punishing me for my sins. In this situation, I am left over with only one option, one last way to get the punishment and redemption for my sins, and that is, I should die myself  burning on this chitah of my brother. Yes, I must die for my atonement, for...for everyone's betterment and this will be the only best way to give my family the justice to make them loose Jai at this young age for no reason." Saying these she runs fast towards the burning chitah of Jai, and tries to jump on it by herself.

But fortunately, everyone got alerted by her sudden statement and they became aware of what is going to happen and how to prevent it, so without wasting a second more they all ran towards Sam as first as they could and stopped her doing that daredevil attempt in her madness by forcefully holding her against her body. Sam was trying very hard to free herself from the clutch of her stubborn friends by throwing her hands and legs continuously up in the air and also blabbering, "Ah... leave, just leave me, please let me be free to go and die, I don't want to live anymore in this world, I'm a murderer and I have no rights to live anymore in this world as I killed my brother by my own hands. Who and why the hell are you stopping me? Ahh, I said leave me alone, just leave I said."

Samrat: He was just observing, hearing and tolerating Sam's madness till now very calmly and patiently but, now Sam's increasing madness has crossed all the limits beyond his patience and tolerance. He could not bear anymore of his daughter's madness and blabbering and took a firm decision in his mind that, 'Enough is enough now, I have to stop all this right now, I don't know how, but I must do this anyhow, she is also my child and now is not in her senses and being her father I have to be strong now, and also have to bring her senses back to make her aware of her surroundings and reality and truth and the ultimate facts of our lives also her duty towards her family as well or else I, no, no we all will loose her too." Determining his mind, he goes ahead towards his daughter who still was blabbering and ordering to free her....and "thud'. Sam gets a tight slap from her father and she just got statued like a stone and seeing her he then said,

"Stop it, just stop it right away, Sam. Please come into your senses, my child. Have you gone mad, insane or crazy? What were you going to do just a moment back? Do you really know what you were going to do just a moment back would have a great impact on all of our lives? Can you realize what would have happened if they wouldn't have saved you at the right time? Do you actually think that what you were going to do was right and correct? How can you even do this or even think of doing this to yourself, to me - your father, to Jai - your brother and to us - our family? Did you think once, how would we feel loosing our two children among three in just one day? Can you imagine how me and your Mom would be lonely and sad if you also had left us? Did you think once how Manyata would be living alone without her elder brother and elder sister? Do you really think me, your Mom and Manyata would be in very much peace knowing you and Jai left us? Do you really think Jai will accept this silly act of yours and forgive you? Do you really think it will be justice to us? Do you really think your best buddy Neel, other closest friends Teji, Zubin and Krutika would be happy seeing you dead?"

Sam was silent, it seemed that she was gaining her consciousness gradually and was trying to listen to her father's words and also to understand them. She gradually composed herself and was realizing how the situation took a powerful control over her body, mind, heart, instinct, rationality, sanity as well as her practically thinking ability, how she went beyond not only of her control but also of her near and dear one's and how she has reacted to the situation in these few hours. She felt very much guilty and tears were brimming in her eyes. She looked down to the earth hiding her tears of being helpless over the situation as well as being irrational and impractical to handle the situation.

Samrat goes on telling Sam,"Let me tell you, Sam, you've gone really mad and insane and foolish also, as you were not only going to end your life but also were going to end even the smallest hope of joining the broken and shattered pieces of all our lives together again, with a fresh start. You could not think of others rather than you were thinking only about yourself. Just think rationally, is it really possible for me and for your Mom to bear the shock of loosing you and performing the funeral of you in front of our eyes within a day's difference whereas just a day before we've lost our first child and performed his funeral with a heavy heart? Is it really possible for any parents to live their life happily and peacefully ever after loosing their two children at a stretch? No, it is absolutely not possible. Think again, would Manyata really be happy without having the shadow and guidance of her elder brother and elder sister? No, obviously, she would  not be happy at all. Also think, you yourself told us sometime ago that you admired and respected Jai very much. So, would you expect Jai to be happy to know that you've committed suicide just to escape the reality? After knowing what you did wouldn't he feel that you didn't love, respect and admire him enough to hold onto your family's responsibilities and his incomplete responsibilities, dreams and wishes after his death to make them fulfilled? Bachchu, I can strongly feel and assure you that Jai is already watching over and keeping his eyes on us from somewhere very near to us, his body is burning in front of us, but his soul hasn't gone very far from us. It's true that we can't see him anymore with our physical eyes but we can definitely see and feel him through our mind's eyes. Moreover, only his body is going from our lives today but his memories will always be afresh in all of our hearts, isn't it? In that sense, he has become the most closest to us, am I right? And being so much close to you, seeing you like this he wouldn't be happy at all with what you were going to do with yourself sometime ago, he would rather expect you to be the shield for our family in place of him and to stand by our side with full strength in facing any of our hard times as well as to complete the responsibilities you have towards your own family, friends, society and country as well and also to complete the incomplete responsibilities, wishes and dreams of him as you are the second child of our family and we all will be having the same expectations as Jai's from you. Or you can think of your friends Neel, Teji, Zubin, and Krutika or any other men and women of this society like you. Do you really feel that without you and your presence your friends would be alright in their personal and professional lives? No, they definitely wouldn't be alright. Or do you really want to create a bad example in the society for the men and women of your age that to escape the reality and the hard times one must commit suicide? Obviously, you won't want be that bad example for anyone in this society. Can it really be the best solution or best option for anyone, for any family? No, in fact it would be the worst solution and the worst option to be chosen by anyone. You yourself tell me, is committing suicide a correct, wise and righteous decision for one to escape any hard and difficult situation  in fear of facing it? Never, my dear, it can absolutely not be a wise and righteous decision for one rather it would be better if one remains physically and mentally prepared, strong minded, courageous and fearless enough to face any hard situation of life. Wouldn't you be called a coward, fearful and spineless person then? Yes, you will always be called by names such as coward, fearful or may be spineless which you will never like to hear repeatedly.

My dear child, listen to my words very carefully and make yourself believe that what happened was not at all your fault, you're not responsible for all of this, as it was already fated for our family, it was a destiny and we can't even write or change our fate and destiny. And as it is said "What is lotted cannot be blotted", we don't have control over our fate and destiny, do we? Running away from fate, destiny, weaknesses, difficulties and hardships of life can't ever be the sign of winners in the race named life, rather winners are those who accept their fate, destiny, weaknesses, hardships and difficulties of their life willingly and smilingly and still continue to chase them to win over them by challenging their own tolerance, patience, strength and confidence again and again. So, keep faith in god as well as in yourself, make yourself believe that it is one of the most unfortunate events and worst chapters of all of our lives and may be we all have to go through many more unfortunate incidents and hardships like this or greater than this. And like all other people living in this world, we will be successful to overcome all the griefs eventually one day or another and thus will become the winner in the life race. May be behind this bad phase we are facing right at this moment in our life, god has hidden some valuable lessons for leading our life which may be something positive or also may be something negative, that we can't figure out right now, and we should not even try to, because it's not the right time. We must wait for the right time to come, which will come for sure but a little more slowly and gradually. And, when that right time will come, we will eventually be able to understand what was that positive or negative lesson hidden behind our today's sufferings. At this time, what a we all must do, is to keep faith in god and in ourselves and in each other, also to focus only in trying to join all those pieces, that has been broken, shattered and spread over anywhere and everywhere by the present storm, of the hearts and the minds of our family members together in one thread, so that we can become much stronger than before as well as today and we may not fall apart like today, if any more storm like this comes in our lives in future. Don't you know the sayings, like, "Unity is strength" or "United we stand and divided we fall"? That's why I'm telling you the significance of maintaining our unity anyhow to have the desired strength and energy from our family members for fighting with all the odds of life. Do you remember, in your childhood, I taught you three that, Happiness - sadness and success - failure both are two opposite sides of our life, our life runs on this cycle of happiness, sadness, success and failure, they always change their positions one after another; Like a coin has two opposite sides and when we toss the coin again and again, the two sides of that coin also changes again and again like a cycle. Similarly, our life is a cyclic process which can never stop for the existence or inexistence of anyone in our life; In this process sometime comes happiness and sometime sadness, sometime success and sometime failure, but we don't forget to live our own life being in this process, do we? Like all says," the show must go on", life is simply like that saying only, which must go on, which always goes on and which will always be going on until our death comes.

Sometime ago, you were asking for reasons for your existence in this world, that why should you live your life, wasn't it? The answer is that, there must be some very important reasons or motives for everyone's life and existence in this world, each and every person's life is equally important in this world, as each one of them has an unique and separate reason from the other. If we think generally that, god must have made each of us born in this world to perform at least one task given by him which must be completed in our whole course of life time; Then you too have the same reason as we have, that means, you must live your life until you
1. Complete your course of life,

2. Live your own dreams,

3. Fulfill your own wishes,

4. Complete the god given task,

5. Perform all your

(i) Duties and (ii) Responsibilities

towards your own

(a) Family,

(b) Friends,

(c) Society and

(d) Country,

6. Fulfill the incomplete

(a) Expectations,

(b) Wishes,

(c) Dreams and

(d) Responsibilities

of your

(i) Own dead brother, and

(ii) All other loved ones.

Yes, you've heard it right, you have so many reasons for living life, so many tasks to complete in rest of your life time, and see what you were going to do some time ago, that is, you were simply trying to escape those duties and responsibilities that is already written 
in your fate and destiny by god himself. If you really think that, you can run away and so you will really run away from all these then actually you are very wrong in your thinking. Because, even if you try hard to escape or to avoid all these or to run away from all these simply by committing suicide or by hiding yourself from all these, by moving from a safe & secured place to the other repeatedly, you won't get any success nor peace, as every time god himself will save you or he himself will compel you repeatedly in one way or the another to face his given task and the reasons for your existence in this world as well.

So, from now on, you will make some promises to me and to yourself that,

1. You won't be affected by any of the accusations made against you regarding Jai's death,

2. You'll neither blame yourself nor yours and ours fate and destiny for Jai's death,

3. You won't ever run away from any hard situations and difficulties of life rather you'll face all those hardships and difficulties of life by being a strong, brave, courageous, fearless woman,

4. You'll accept all your strengths & weaknesses willingly and smilingly and will challenge your patience, tolerance, strength, confidence and competence with the passage of time,

5. You'll always try to maintain all of our relationships in a good note with all of our family members, well wishers, relatives, friends, colleagues, co partners and employees and will always try to keep them joined together like one big family and also at the time of any danger, distress, crisis, misfortune, loss, misery, storm, disaster and calamity will stand by this one large family being a great wall and protect them anyhow, even by taking risk as much as you can,

and

6. You'll try to make the bonds among these members of one big family more stronger than ever and also will try to make the bond even more stronger than ever among me, your Mom, you and Manyata, so that we all may not fall apart and can stand strong together in any upcoming storms that may happen in near future.

Samrat then asked for his daughter's assurance,"Will you make all these promises to me and to yourself, Sam? And, will you ever be able to make all these promises truly fulfilled?"