" Sure. So today is Wednesday so can we go Friday. The tickets Alesa got are for Saturday" I said.

" Of course." he said.

" Yay! That will be so much fun. What are we going to do?" I asked.

" Um I was thinking we could go out to dinner." he said.

" Awesome" I said.

" Then if you want, and this might be weird, but we could look for your mom and sister's grave" he said.

I stopped. I hadn't thought to look for their graves. " I would love to look" I said.

" Good. And we don't have to is your only saying yes cause I want to." he said.

" No I want to. I would say no yo this if I didn't want to. But I want to know where he had them buried." I said. I started to tear up. I need to not cry. I can't have the other guys asking questions.

" Hey don't cry" he said he turned around and walked back over to me do he was right in front of me.

" I just miss them so much" I say.

" Oh I know." he said holding me so my face was in his chest. ( He is a little taller than you )

" But I- my my mom never know he was hitting me. She let him push her around. It's my fault she stayed with him. It is my fault they died. It's all my fault." I said. By the end I was crying. Not holding them back. " I don't deserve to have friends such as you and the guys, a job, or a house. I don't deserve any of it." I said. I pulled away from Red and ran.

" Y/n!" he yelled. He ran after me but I had more practice then him so I could run longer.

" Y/n!" he yelled again. He had stopped. I didn't stop. I turned my head while running and saw he was running to his car. No. He could catch me. I need a trail or something away from the road. I looked around and saw a park. I ran through it to some trails. I know these. These are the only trails my mom would take me on. They were far away from our house so it wasn't everyday but it was often enough so I know the trails. I ran to the trails. There was one where not a lot of people walk on. I took that one just keep walking. I had stooped running cause they wouldn't look in these trails. And if they do not this one. I was still crying. I looked where I was. If I walk a little further there is a good spot to hide. It is behind some rocks. It is off the trail so no one knows but me and my mom. I fell when we were walking and I saw it. I walked over to the rocks and sat behind them.

" It's all my fault it's all my fault!" I said hitting the ground with my fist. My phone rang. I looked at the screen. It is Red. I hit the decline button. Later I got a text from him saying ' the office and I are looking for you. Where are you?' I ignored the text. Later Max and Adam called. I ignored them too. They texted me' where are you' and Max added ' please answer me'

I was sick of the calls and texts so made a thread of all the people at the office I had the phone numbers of and said ' I want time to myself so I am going to block all you for a little bit. Just so you people will stop texting/calling me. See you in a bit' I didn't block them right away. I wanted to make sure they got it. When I got 'no don't block me. Where are you?' from Max and Red. I got a ' don't you dare. I just want to help' from Adam. Ross said ' y/n please don't. Tell me where you are.' Tim didn't answer. He must have thought I blocked him already. After no more answers were given I blocked them. I put my phone back in my pocket. How could I be so blind. It is all my fault they died. If I had said that I didn't want a present or I should have made them stay somehow. I should have told my mom he was hitting me. I don't care if I died cause of it. As long as she was safe. I'm so selfish. Red can do much better than me. My phone rang again. It was an unknown number. I answered.

" Hello?" I asked trying to sound like I had not been crying.

" y/n where are you. Tell me right now." it was Max.

" Yes y/n were are you" That was Red. Max and Red used a number from a different phone. Smart.

" Smart. Using a phone number I don't know. " I answered.

" Y/n where are you" it was Adam.

" How many people are listing to me?" I asked.

" Everyone you blocked. Now where are you." Max answered.

" Not telling" I said.

" Come on. Your killing us. Where are you?" Ross said.

" How much did Red tell you why I left" I said.

" He just said you left crying. Why did you leave?" Tim said.

" Hey I needed to think. I want to think some more. I'm going to walk some where else and call someone to come and get me. Talk to you later." I said hanging up the phone.

I got up and walked out of the trails and to the park. I unblocked everyone. I called Alesa to come and get me.

Time skip to when you are back at the offices.

"Y/N! Your back. Are you okay" Tim yelled running over and hugging me.

" Tim I'm fine. You don't need to worry about me." I answered.

He let go and yelled " guys she's back. Y/ns back."

" Oh my god. Are you okay?" everyone yelled.

" I'm fine" I said.

" Group hug!" Tim yelled.

" No no no need for that" I said.

" To late" Adam yelled. Everyone came and hugged me.

" Never leave again" Red said.

" No promises" I said quietly.

I don't deserve them. They can do so much better than me. Red can so much better than me.

See you in about 2 weeks. Miss ya