I've been scolded about my grades a million times, and they always say the same, but somehow it hurts more and less each time. I guess it's like a cut on your finger,, if you press it, it hurts like hell, but as you keep pressing on it, it hurts so much it goes numb,, but that numbness goes away after a while, and it only hurts more because you interrupted the healing process and it's now deeper than before.

I make no sense, I know, but I just need to clear my head of the scolding just now, and the scolding that's waiting for me as soon as my dad sees mother report card.

And,, why do they think scolding me is gonna do something? Well, it dOES do something, and that's destroying the mental health I had worked on during the last year or so. But that's completely opposite to what they want to achieve,, so like?? Congrats I have no will to live and I'm fighting off a panic attack rn :)

Please I already feel terrible there's no need to worsen it