Y/N's POV

Ethan made my heart flutter. The way he described how I was perfect and I actually meant something was amazing! I really did love him. He saved me. If I wasn't with him, I probably would have been long gone. I don't think I can thank him enough. He really is my life saver.

I just laid in his arms crying, and he sat there stroking my arm gently and every once in awhile kiss the top of my head. After awhile I sat up and looked at him. Surely my eyes were bloodshot and puffy, and I looked like a complete mess, but Ethan looked at me with the same pure love as usual.

"E?" I asked, staring into his loving eyes.

"Y/N/N?" He asked, worry still in his voice.

"Does this apartment complex have a pool?" I asked, somewhat smiling.

"Yeah. Do you want to go?" He asked, the edge of his mouth curving upwards into a small smirk.

"Please." I said, still staring into his eyes. "I wanna get my mind off of it, and my therapist from a couple years back told me if I ever feel too anxious to either take a hot bath or go to the pool."

"Let's go then." He smiled.

We hopped off my bed, Ethan kissing me a few times, and then I got ready. Ethan went to his apartment and told me he'd come back to pick me up.

I went to my drawers and looked for the swimsuits I owned but hadn't worn in years. I had a black one-piece and a yellow, high-waisted bikini. I went with the yellow bikini, because 1. it's my favorite color and 2. it was a more happy color, and I need all the happiness I can get right now. I threw on short overalls over top of my swimsuit, allowing my sides, part of my stomach, and most of my back to show. I wasn't ashamed of my body, but seeing all the bruises and disgusting hickeys that were placed at random all over me I felt very self-conscious, but I knew the second Ethan saw me I'd feel beautiful again.

I stepped out into the hallway in my apartment and walked down, grabbing a towel from the closet as I did so. I saw Emily and Grayson fast asleep on the couch. I was about to take a picture, when the door opened and scared me.

"Hey, it's okay. It's just me." Ethan whispered.

"You scared me." I smiled.

"Sorry." He said still whispering. "Let's go?"

"Yeah, in a second. I wanna take a picture of them. They're so cute!" I fangirled quietly.

As I turned on my phone again I feel two arms wrap around me. Ethan's head laid gently on my shoulder as I took the picture of the two peaceful lovebirds. I then turned off my phone and turned my body towards Ethan, throwing my arms over his neck as I did so. His arms slid around my waist, his forehead also laying on mine.

"I'm hurting," I sighed. "and I'm panicking, but in time I'll be okay; in time you'll put my pieces back together." I whispered, looking down at the floor.

"God!" Ethan whispered slightly loud.

"What?" I said worried.

"I just- I just didn't think I could love you anymore than I already did!" He laughed.

I moved my eyes up from the floor, red clearly evident in my cheeks, and a wide grin plastered to my face. Before I could lean in, Ethan smashed his lips onto mine, leaving me to laugh into the kiss. He kissed me, and kissed me, and kissed me.

"I love you." He smiled breathlessly.

"I love you too." I smiled back.

"Let's go swimming." He smiled, dragging me out of the apartment.

I just laughed at the boy in front of me. He held my hand and dragged me to the elevator.

"Also, I forgot to say, you look very beautiful in your swimsuit and overalls." He said trying to have a British accent.

"1. You're a nerd, 2. I love you, nerd, 3. thank you very much!" As I finished my sentence with a huge grin, the elevator doors opened.

The elevator ride last about a minute, but it was full of our odd-selves as we danced to the horrendous elevator music. He took a snap of me whipping and dabbing the the elevator music, and our laughs filled the entire 10 second long video. I'm sure his fans didn't know we were dating, even though many suspected it, we hadn't confirmed it quite yet.

We soon headed off to the pool; it was indoor and quite large and no one else was currently swimming. I was very excited, because I hadn't been swimming in years! I think the last time I went swimming was before I began living with Emily, because my therapist instructed me to do so every time my depression and depersonalization kicked in.

"Ah! I'm so excited!" I screeched and jumped around as we entered the pool area, causing it to echo around.

Ethan just smiled and laughed at me.

I quickly took off my overalls and waited for Ethan to take off his shirt so I could push him in.

"E, come here." I smiled.

"I'm coming." He said as he slipped off his shirt.

As soon as he did, he walked over to me. Suddenly, I pushed him in, but he grabbed my arm and dragged me in with him.

"I saw that coming." Ethan laughed as we both popped out of the water.

"Damn it!" I laughed. "Do you know what we should do?" I smiled widely.

"Make out?" Ethan smirked but laughed.

"No. Not yet anyway." I laughed. "We should have a cannonball contest!" I said clapping my hands like a little kid.

"Okay, but good luck, because I am the cannonball king!" He smiled proudly.

"We'll see about that, tough guy." I winked.

After several rounds of tough critiquing and loads of laughter, Ethan and I finally called it a tie. He was the cannonball king and I was the cannonball queen!

"Let's go to the hot tub?" He asked.

"Oh, that sounds great!" I gasped.

We hopped out of the pool and headed over to the bubbling hot tub. Ethan took his time stepping in, but I basically just jumped right in.

"How do you do that? Doesn't it burn?" Ethan said, covering his nipples like the awkward man he was.

"It's easy and yes, for a short second it burns." I giggled.

He ever so slowly got into the hot tub and sat down next to me. I basically levitated over into his lap, my arm gently around his neck, and my opposite hand laying on his shoulder.

We sat in silence, staring at each other, enjoying the sound of the jets in the hot tub. After a few minutes, the door to the pool room opened, and a family of 5 flooded in. It was two parents and they're two sons and one daughter. The oldest was a boy around the age of 8, the middle was the other boy who looked to be about 5, leaving the girl to be the youngest, and she looked to be about 2.

I hopped off Ethan's lap to not make it as awkward since a young family had entered. Ethan put his arms out around the tub, allowing me to lay my head on his arm.

"They're so cute!" I smiled at the little kids who were jumping in and out of the pool.

"I know." Ethan said, an evident tone of love and compassion in his voice.

"Would you ever want to have kids?" I asked Ethan.

"Definitely. One hundred and ten percent!" He replied. "You?"

"Yes." I smiled at him. "My dream has always been to be a mother, and I want exactly what they have." I said, motioning over to the family.

The two parents looked absolutely in love. They were both young and even though they had three kids, they didn't look exhausted; they looked happy. Their kids got along incredibly well, which was a beautiful sight, because lots of siblings don't tend to get along.

"How many?" He asked.

"3." I replied with no hesitation. "Twin boys and a daughter." I smiled. "You?"

"Whatever works, as long as I'm with you." He smiled, chuckling a bit at what he'd said.

"Cheesy, but I love it and I love you." I said, pecking his lips twice.

When we parted, I noticed two boys sitting on the ledge of the hot tub, dipping their tiny legs into the hot tub.

"Hello." I said to them.

"Hi." They said in unison.

"I'm Y/N. What's your guys' names?" I smiled.

"I'm Cole and this is my little brother Simon." The eldest boy replied. "Oh, and that's our sister Penelope." He said, pointing to the little girl in his mother's arms.

"Nice to meet you guys." I said still smiling. "This is my boyfriend, Ethan." I said introducing the suddenly quiet boy next to me.

"Hi." Said Simon.

"Hello." Replied Cole.

"Nice to meet you both." Ethan said, a wide smile plastered onto his face now.

"You guys are nice!" Simon cheered.

"Why thank you! You guys are too." I complimented in return.

"Would you guys like the play ball with us?" Cole asked holding up a bouncy ball.

"We'd love to!" I smiled back.

Ethan and I hopped out of the hot tub and into the chilly pool.

"My nips are frozen!" Ethan said to me.

"Just pat them down." I laughed out loud.

He laughed in response and out of the corner of my eye I saw him pat them down. 'What a silly nerd!' was all I could think.

A game of catch suddenly started up. It was mainly Cole and Ethan tossing the ball back and forth, while I played with little Cole and baby Penelope. Cole crawled into my back and Penelope would walk off the edge of the pool into the water and I'd catch her before she completely went under.

"You can let her go completely under water sometimes." The mother suddenly piped up.

"Sounds good! I'm Y/N, by the way." I smiled to her.

"Hi, I'm Rhonda and this is my husband Peter." She said and they waved.

"Nice to meet you both! You have lovely children." I said over the laughs of the children.

"Oh, thank you so much. Sorry they're such a handful!" Rhonda chuckled.

"Oh, it's no problem. Ethan and I love kids." I smiled.

"That's great! You guys are a really cute couple." She smiled.

"Aw, thank you." I smiled.

Rhonda and Peter smiled at me and then went back to their own conversation.

"E." I said, walking over with Cole on my back and Penelope in my arms.

"Y/N/N." He mocked.

"I'm getting tired. Should we go home?" I asked.

"Yeah, sounds good." He said, pecking my forehead.

"Okay, babes, I've got to go now!" I said climbing up the steps out of the pool with Cole on my back.

"Aw, no!" Cole whined.

"It's okay! We'll hang out again soon!" I said.

"Pinky promise?" Cole pouted, sticking his pinky out.

"Pinky promise!" I said, locking out pinkies together.

"Yay!" Cole cheered, jumping up and and down.

"Goodbye, Penelope." I said, handing her back down to Rhonda.

"It was a pleasure meeting you and your family!" I said to Rhonda and Peter as I dried off.

"It was a pleasure meeting you two! Thank you for playing with the kids and giving us a break! It was much needed." Peter laughed.

"Of course!" I replied. "See you guys around!" I smiled.

"Goodbye!" Ethan said in unison with Rhonda and Peter.

"Trippy." I giggled.

Ethan grabbed his phone and we were off, back up to our apartment!

Y/N

lol i'm in mexico with no internet, so i've prewritten a few chapters :D!

how was this chapter? kinda cute? idk! oh whale, please lemme know!!

ily guys! hope you've had a great day, and if you haven't: you look amazing! your smiles beautiful! *virtual hug*! don't forget ily & if you ever need to talk to someone feel free to message me!

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