* Trigger Warning: Rape*

Ethan's POV

"Y/N looked absolutely amazing!" I gushed to Grayson after the girls had left.

"Dude, so did Emily!" He gushed back.

"How'd we get so lucky?" I cheesily said.

"I don't know, bro." Grayson smiled back.

"Should we film a video? Get a head start?" I asked.

"Sure. Handcuffed to each other for a day?" Gray replied.

"Sounds good to me!" I replied.

We grabbed the handcuffs we'd bought about a week back, and quickly set up all of our filming equipment. We did our usual intro and explained what we'd be doing. Before we knew it, we were handcuffed to each other!

We went on filming our daily tasks, having to retake some scenes, time flying by as we did so. But, as soon as we were about to do the last two scenarios, we heard frantic knocking at the front door.

We dropped what we were doing and rushed to the door. Once we got there, a frazzled looking Emily stood there.

"Emily! Babe! What's wrong?" Grayson panicked.

"Where's Y/N?" I asked, my heart dropping down to my feet.

"Going to dinner. Jack. House party. Horny boys. Drugs. Alcohol. People." Emily said breathlessly.

"Babe, babe, catch your breath." Grayson said, his face showing desperate panic.

He'd taken off our handcuffs so he could better comfort Emily.

Once Emily had calmed down, she explained everything that'd happened. Grayson and I slipped on our shoes and made a run for the house. Emily had also slipped on some more comfortable shoes, so she didn't have to run in wedges.

The streets had very few people on them, but it felt I ran into every single person possible, which delayed us.

5 minutes. 10 minutes. 15 minutes. 20 minutes later, we were finally at the house.

Emily was right. The smell of alcohol and drugs was very evident, the music was so loud that the ground seemed to be shaking, and the lights flickered so many times, it was an instant headache to look at them.

All three of us barged in, gaining weird looks from every direction. Everyone's eyes seemed glossy or red; they were all incredibly drunk or incredibly high.

We pushed around people in search for the beautiful brunette. No one was willing to help, because they were all drunk out of their minds.

The three of us made our way upstairs. The music wasn't as loud, but that might've been because there was moaning coming out of every closed door. Couples were making out in the middle of the hall, making it difficult to make our way down it.

"Should we look inside the rooms?" Emily asked.

"As much as I'd hate to, I think we have to." I replied, tears now brimming my eyes.

Was she cheating on me?

She couldn't be. Could she?

We opened each door down the hall. There were 5 doors, so this was going to be a quick search.

On the third door I'd opened, there she was. Her underwear at her ankles, and 4 guys standing around her, doing God knows what to her.

"Hey! Get the fuck away from her!" I yelled at the foul men that messed with her.

Once I got closed, I noticed she was completely unconscious. She was being raped by 4 horny, drunk boys.

"And who might you be?" The one who looked to be doing the most damage said to me.

"Her boyfriend!" I yelled, trying to stand tall and match him.

"Oh! Pretty girl's got a pretty boy!" He cheered, while the boys behind him snickering back.

"E, did you find he-?" Grayson was stopped mid-sentence when he walked into the room.

Emily walked in and gasped at the sight, immediately clinging to Grayson's, and hiding her face from the scene.

"Leave her alone, please." I said, tears streaming my face.

No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't stop them from falling. I wanted to be strong. I wanted to be brave. I wanted to protect her. Now all I'm doing is cowering.

"On one condition." He smirked devilishly to his fellow boys.

"What might that be?" I asked back.

"You beg me. Beg me! Kiss my shoes! Kiss my hand!" He laughed evilly.

"Fine." I said, losing the last bit of self-respect and dignity I had left. "Please, let her go! Please!" I said, as I fell to the ground on my knees.

I continued to beg, kissing his shoes so many times I'd lost count. I went on one knee and kissed his hand, and not once did I dare stop begging.

"Okay, enough. You can have your hag!" He said, slapping Y/N across her leg. "C'mon boys!" He called out.

The boys followed him, some having the balls enough to kiss her lips once more before leaving, or squeezing her before leaving. I didn't say anything, because if I did, I knew they'd come back and do worse.

"Emily, can you make her decent real quick?" I asked, turning around to face her and Grayson.

"Mhm." She replied, running over quickly to her best friends side.

I walked over to Gray, and saw he had tears streaming down his face. He brought me into a hug and we both began to sob.

How could someone do this to her?

I didn't know what to do.

What had they done to her before we'd gotten here?

I was frozen.

"E. Let's take her home." Grayson said, snapping me from my depressing daze.

I nodded.

We walked over to her and lifted her up from the bed. She had so many bruises. I wish I'd known what had happened to her. I wish I was here to protect her. I wish none of this had ever happened.

Grayson grabbed a blanket from a closet that sat in the hall, and covered her. I carried her in my arms bridal style. This isn't how I pictured the first time holding her this way to pan out.

We all walked down the sidewalk in silence. The streets were now packed, but Emily and Grayson pushed people out of the way to make me a path.

The looks we received were horrifying. Everyone stared at us as if we were aliens. I just kept walking, every once in awhile looking down at Y/N, just to checkup on her. Tears began brimming my eyes as we walked along the path home. It took all I had in me not to fall weak and breakdown crying. I had to stay strong for her; I couldn't show her weakness in this time.

After about half an hour or so of walking, we were finally at the apartment. I carried Y/N into her room and set her down. I gave Emily a quick hug and asked her to give me a call when she cleans her up and changes her, so I could sit with Y/N until she woke up. She said she would and that I should try not to dwell on it too much, but she and I both knew that that would be impossible.

I went to my apartment with Gray, and we just sat in silence. I let a few tears trickle down my face.

"It's going to be okay." Gray said, walking over to where I was sitting and gave my a hug.

I only let out sobs, my tears staining his shirt.

"Go take a shower and put on some comfortable clothes while you wait." Gray suggested.

I nodded and walked off.

I went to my room and grabbed some sweatpants and a random blue t-shirt, then headed to the shower.

I took a steaming hot shower, the water mixing with my tears, leaving me clueless as to if I was still crying or it was just the hot shower water. I didn't take a long shower, because I wanted to get back to Y/N's side before she woke up. I hopped out and dried off quickly. I dressed myself, but left my hair in a damp mess, not caring that I looked horrendous.

As I walked out of the bathroom, I heard Emily and Grayson talking in the kitchen. I rushed over to both of them, my heart beating rapidly in my chest.

"Can I go see her?" I asked, my voice croaky.

"Yeah. I'll walk you over. Gray, wanna come over?" She replied.

"Yeah." Grayson said, a noticeable tone of hurt in his voice.

We headed over into the girls' apartment. Emily walked me down the hall and explained to me that her heart rate was incredibly fast and that she hadn't woken up yet.

Before laying down with Y/N, I went to the kitchen and grabbed a glass of water and 4 pills of ibuprofen for when she woke up.

I went back and laid next to her. Her face read as if she were in distress and in a panic, instead of restful. I laid next to her, gently laying her head on my arm, and stroking her hair.

I just sat there staring at her and playing with her hair. She was so beautiful and perfect, I'd do anything to protect her and keep her happy.

-

Y/N started to stir, which woke me up from the light sleep I'd accidentally fallen into.

All of a sudden, Y/N jumped up, started screaming, and throwing her arms and legs as if to defend herself.

"Y/N! Babe! Babe! What's wrong?" I panicked.

I grabbed a hold of her arms, seeing as she'd already hit me during her panic.

She sat up, stopped her screaming, stopped fighting, and just sat there sobbing. I pulled her into my arms and she melted into them.

"Why me?" She cried into my chest.

"How do you know what happened?" I asked, puzzled at the fact that she knew what'd happened to her.

"Well, I know I was drugged and you know, I can physically feel a difference in places." She said, her sobs now just becoming a few tears.

"I'm so sorry, babe." I said, now tears falling from my eyes.

"It's not your fault. I did this to myself." She said, wiping her tears away.

"We need to tell someone about this. Do we call the cops?" I said, pulling myself together and wiping my tears away.

"No, it's fine." She replied, wiping my tears away.

"I want justice for you." I sighed.

"I know, but they'll get what's coming for them one way or another." She said, attempting a small smile.

"Why are you so chill right now? Like, not to be rude, but I'm confused." I questioned.

"My life's been a shit show, so it's not surprise this happened to me I guess. I mean, I'm panicking and hurting inside, but I've been broken for a long time, so I don't know." She sighed. "I'm not gonna lie. I'm hurting a hell of a lot and I feel absolutely pointless and worthless. How can I not? 4 guys just drugged me, took advantage of my lifeless body, and I'm guessing threw me away like garbage. I honestly don't know what to do anymore." She said as she began to sob again.

"Sh, sh, sh. It's okay. I'll do my best to fix you, make you feel like you have a point and you're worth something, because you are! Y/N, you're perfect in every single way to me! What do I need to do to prove that to you?" I said, tears streaming down my face yet again.

"I love you." She whispered out, her bright brown eyes staring into my hazel ones.

"I love you too, with all of my heart." I said, pulling her small body into mine.

There we sat on her bed. She in a little ball in between my legs, her arms wrapped around my torso, and mine around her shoulders. She laid her head on my chest, I'm sure listening to me heart beat. I tried to breath slowly to slow it down for her to calm down. I could feel her shaking, and her tears soaking into my shirt.

She's been strong for so long. I honestly don't know how she's done it. She was stronger than anyone I'd ever met. She was braver than anyone I'd ever met. She was smarter than anyone I'd ever met.

Suddenly my heartbeat quickened, my eyes widened, my breath clenched. Every day I'm discovering something new about myself, and in this instance I discovered that Y/N was the one; my one!

Y/N

lol i'm nervous ab these chapters, so i'm prob gonna upload 4 chapters or more within 2 days.. oh whale, y'all will prob love it :)

jfc this is a long chapter.

was this good? idk, i'm lowkey iffy ab it.

please let me know what you think!! i really need feedback on this chapter!!!

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lol Y/N & ethan are cute! just saying :) ;)

-gabs 💛