I was reading a Larry Stylinson smut... And out of nowhere I just, forget people are around me I guess, and I stare at the screen like this

And my face was red with either anger or lack of good smut and I said "He didn't get to cum" (not like I said it very loud, butttt if anyone heard me, dear god kill me now. I'm not gay I swear!! Oh wait.. I'm bi :) )

Keep in mind I'm with my dad's friends and one of their sons and I have 4 more hours on this horrid trip back home, and as if it's not already awkward enough...

Yeah it's plenty awkward already.

As I flop like a fish reading the smut that I overreacted to 

As I stare off into space blushing and giggling staring this guy dead in the face without even realizing

As a friend of my dad pays for my ice cream and it melts all over my hand because I'm not hungry but don't want to say anything

As the same guy buys me another ice cream because the other one melted and  it falls on the floor with a splat, shortly before my spoon does a cartwheel to the floor

As I wake up at 2 o'clock and have to go out in public in my bloody pj's, and the next day I have to go out with no sleep and I probably am acting drunk but I don't give a fuck because I didn't get any sleep and haven't in the past 24 hours soooo that's my excuse lmao, sorry smexyniallhoran I had to go my dad woke up and was all like "What are you doing staying up all night!?" and i just told him i went to sleep and woke up early, he totally fell for it

As I start singing along to "Fanboys" by RobertIDK outside and realize other people can hear me

Yeah it's pretty fucking awkward, I just want to go home. No one knows what I'm writing because the screen is nearly black I have the brightness down so low, but if they can read this, then here's a message for them: sorry, please forget you ever met me

I didn't tend for this to happen. It's just, I get so insecure when I'm around people that do nice things for me XD and then I do weird things

It's just in my nature, I hope I didn't scare any of you away 

And this was a pretty okay vacation, I guess. Great view. Not a lot of bugs. Slow af wifi that pissed me off the whole time. No neighbors that could hear my awkward fangirl attacks.

I need to get a life, I don't really know what im typing to be honest i just know im really tired lmaooooooo

I'm just gonna select a random picture from my gallery and not even look at it so prepare for an attack and by that i mean cringe cuz this motherfucker's bout to get dragged by his fringe