Audrey's POV:

My feet carry me, but I don't know where I am going. It seemed my mind was somewhere else while my feet took control of me.

I can't remember a day when my life didn't feel like this. I always seemed to feel like I was walking through life with no purpose. It seems to me, that something was missing. What it was that I was missing? I have no idea.

Hoards of people pass me as my heavy weighted eyes stare down at my feet, hands in my pockets.

My breathing stops when I feel a new body collide with mine, an unfamiliar one.

With my lips parted, my eyes wander up and I see a man standing in front of me. I look over him: shaggy dark brown hair, beautiful golden brown eyes, short stubble covering his red blushed cheeks, and a small smile forming.

"I-I'm sorry..." I murmur, my eyes instinctively falling down.

The man smiles, "Hey...don't worry about it. I should've been watching where I was going."

"No, it's my fault...I was in my own world."

"Nothing wrong with that. What's your name?"

"Audrey," I smile shyly.

Although I didn't know this man, he seemed familiar. I felt as if I knew who he was...inside and out.

"That's one beautiful name." He grins, making my heart jump.

"Oh...thank you..." I say, my eyes looking over the people giving us weird looks.

"Hey, don't worry about them."

I look back over to him, "Thank you."

"Of course."

"Are you from around here?" I ask, rubbing my hands together.

"I guess you could say that."

I stop myself from asking him to elaborate on what he means.

My attention is distracted enough to make me turn away from him for a moment, "What's your name?"

The cold wind blows hard and I physically push myself farther into my coat, hoping to get warmer.

I turn back around and feel empty once again when I notice the man (who I didn't even get his name) was no longer there.

My thoughts are in a whirlpool as I enter the front door of my house, confronted by my mother.

"Jesus, Audrey, where have you been? I was worried sick!"

I roll my eyes, "Mom, stop. I'm 21, stop treating me like a child."

Tears form in her eyes, "I-I thought..."

"You thought what?"

Her eyes wander down to my shaking hands, "Did you take your pills?"

"Of course." I murmur, looking her straight in the eyes.

"Don't lie to me, Audrey. I know when you're lying."

"I did, mom!"

"When did you stop taking them? Hm?" My mom asks, raising her voice. "Do you want to go back to the hospital? Is that it?"

My body shakes rapidly as tears start falling, "Stop it! Stop it! Stop it!" I scream, pressing my hands to my ears as my mom shakes me.

I open my eyes when my father runs in, prying my mother off of me, "Elizabeth! What is your problem?"

"She stopped taking them again, Ed! I cant take this again, I can't do it!"

My father looks over at me with worried eyes, "Audrey...let's go up to your room."

I use my sweater sleeves to wipe at my tears, "I-I'm sorry...I'm sorry for letting you two down..."

My mom doesn't say anything, she just looks at the ground, her chest heaving.

"Let's go, honey."

We end up in my room and I sit on my bed, while my dad sits next to me.

"She didn't mean it, you know?"

"Didn't she, though? She's right...I've put you guys through so much."

He sighs, "You're our daughter...nothing that has happened is "too much". We love you so much...and your mother...she's just so worried."

"I don't mean to be like this, I really don't..." I promise him, rubbing my arms where my scratching marks lay.

"I know, sweetheart."

"I'll try to be better, I promise."

"You're doing the best you can, and that's all that matters, okay?" He tells me, smiling. "Your mother was just worried that something like last time happened..."

My eyes snap towards him, "I know...and I can't blame her for that."

"Are the thoughts and dreams coming back?"

The dreams. I was haunted by them almost every night and they were always haunted by a boy who I knew for a fact I was in love with...I could never remember his face when I woke up, and it frustrated me. Sometimes I would dream of us getting in a car and then before I knew it, we were going off a bridge. Other times, we were on a bus, or even a plane. They were always different.

"Yes..." I mumble, "Just a little bit."

"Do you want me to call Dr. Jamison?"

"No, no. It's okay. I'm okay."

"Will you start taking your pills again?" He asks, putting his arm around me.

"Of course..."

Of course, that was a lie. I couldn't get back on them. I needed to feel something and those pills made me feel nothing. My parents were just worried over nothing, I wasn't that sick. They always overreacted. I couldn't help that I got frustrated when they wouldn't help fit the puzzle pieces together, I couldn't help it. I told them a million times that something was missing, and I knew that they knew, but nobody ever told me.

"Good." He smiles, "What do you want for dinner?"

My stomach growls at the thought, "I'm not hungry."

My father's smile falls and my heart breaks, "Audrey..."

I sigh and rub my eyes, "You know what? Fuck it. I want some shrimp linguini."

His smile returns and he stands up and tips his invisible hat, "Coming right up, madam."

As soon as he leaves, I lay my back down on my bed and stare up at the ceiling. With all that has happened today, the only thing on my mind is that damn boy and his stupid smile.

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hi guys! this is the first chapter of my very new story "don't forget"! this won't be very long, but it will surely be worth the read! i hope you guys enjoyed the first chapter!

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Danielle Campbell as Audrey Reed

Zayn Malik as Zayn Malik