Michael...

"This is going to ruin your career Michael."

"I don't care."

"Why don't you just let that Holly girl keep her and you go and visit once and a while?" My manager reasons.

"First off her name is Halley and I don't like her, so I don't want her in charge of my daughter. Second of all she is my daughter and I do not care if she ruins my career." I argue.

"Does the kid even want to go with you, you've known her for what? A week."

"Of course she wants to go with me." I honestly don't know that, but I mean I am her dad does it really matter?

"Are you sure she's yours?"

"Yes, I'm sure that she's mine."

"Have the boys agreed to this?" Fuck.

"N-no, but I'm sure they won't mind."

"Michael this will ruin your life, you don't understand the responsibilities of being a parent, you are going to have to sacrifice so much."

"I DON'T CARE! I am keeping my daughter whether you like it or not, so fuck off." I spit. Before Jim can say anything my phone starts ringing. "What?" I snap.

"M-m-Michael i-it's Emily, sh-she's bad." Halley stutters.

"H-how bad?" I ask.

"Y-you need t-to get h-here now."

"I-I'll be right t-there." I respond nervous.

"Where are you going?" Jim questions.

"The hospital."

---

I run down the halls towards Emily's room swinging the door open revealing a dying Emily and a crying Halley. "Hey Em." She smiles slightly in response being to weak to respond. "I'm so sorry, for everything."

"Theres's... Nothing... For... You... To... Apologize... For." shes says each word struggling to breathe even though she's hooked up to oxygen.

"I love you Em, so so so so much and I want you to know that I'll love you forever and always, and even though I don't want you to leave, it's ok to let go Em. You don't have to fight anymore." I say tears welling up in my eyes.

"Mikey.. Will.. You.. Sing to.. Me?" she asks.

"Of course baby. Um..." I think of what song to sing for a moment and then I decide. "This is everything I didn't say. Wait, don't tell me Heaven is a place on earth I wish I could rewind all the times that I didn't Show you what you're really worth. The way that you held me I wish that I'd put you first I was wrong I admit, numb from your kiss While you were slipping through my fingertips. Taking every breath away With all of the mistakes I've made From all the letters that I've saved This is everything I didn't say. I wish I could've made you stay And I'm the only one to blame I know that it's a little too late This is everything I didn't say. This is everything I didn't say. Wake me up now And tell me this is all a bad dream. All the songs that I wrote All the wrongs that I hoped would erase from your memory. Holding onto a broken and empty heart Flowers I should've bought, all the hours I lost Wish I could bring it back to the start. Taking every breath away With all of the mistakes I've made From all the letters that I've saved This is everything I didn't say. I wish I could've made you stay And I'm the only one to blame I know that it's a little too late This is everything I didn't say. I hope you know For you I'd sacrifice To make this right. Some day I'm sure We'll pass each other by Until that time. Taking every breath away With all of the mistakes I've made From all the letters that I've saved This is everything I didn't say. I wish I could've made you stay And I'm the only one to blame I know that it's a little too late This is everything I didn't say. This is everything I didn't say." I sing choking back my tears.

"Thank you." she whispers closing her eyes, then taking one big breath she's gone while lying in my arms.

"Emily?Emily?!"

"She's gone Halley." I say through a sob.

"No, you're wrong. She can't be gone. She can't be gone!" sobs wrack her and my body, even some of the nurses start crying. The nurses and the doctors take Emily's lifeless body after I have placed one last kiss on her cold lips, and after Halley said her goodbyes.

We look pathetic right now, I'm yelling curse words at the doctors and Halley is sitting in the corner rocking back and forth while sobbing uncontrollably. "WHY IN THE FUCK COULDN'T YOU FUCKING SAVE HER THAT WAS YOUR FUCKING JOB YOU FUCKING BASTARDS?!?! HOW DO YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF DOCTORS YOU'RE ALL JUST-"

"Michael stop, please." Halley's quiet pleas cause me to seize my screaming.

"Why?"

"Because you're making a scene and that is not what Emily would have wanted." I huff. Dammit I hate when she's right.

"Sorry." I say quickly not really to anyone in particular. The doctors nod and then exit the room.

"Halley are you okay?" I ask noticing the brunette's sporadic breathing.

"I-I c-can't- I-I can't..."

"Halley are you having a panic attack?"

"I- y-y-yes." she stutters out.
I go over to her and wrap her in my arms rocking her back and forth.

"Try to match your breathing to mine. In. Out. In. Out." Halley used to have panic attacks regularly when we were in high school and Luke had them occasionally a few years ago, so I know to handle situations like this. Her breath slows, but sobs continue to wrack her body. "It's okay Halley. It's okay."

"N-no it's not. It's not okay and neither am I."

"I-I don't know what to say Halley."

"There's n-nothing you can s-say to make t-this b-better M-Michael." Silence fills the room, the only thing being heard is Halley's sobs and my uneven breathing.

I may not like Halley, but that does not mean I want to see her like this. She looks like shit and probably feels just as bad as she looks. Her red puffy eyes have huge grey bags under them and all her make up is smudged, her long brown locks are knotted while tied up in a messier than messy bun, her cheeks are red and splotched with tears, and she's pale and looks like she could throw up at any moment.

"We-we have to t-tell Mel-Melody." she says finally breaking the silence, but she said the one thing I didn't want to hear.

"We should get our shit together before we tell her."

"Y-yeah." she agrees wiping at her eyes.

---

"Hey Mel." I whisper when I enter.

"Daddy!" She yells running up to me and jumping in my arms.

"How are you baby girl?" I ask.

"I'm okay ? How are you daddy?"

"I'm not doing so good." her face falls.

"Why not?" she questions.

"It's your mummy babe."

"I-is she ok?" she asks tears welling up her in pretty green eyes.

"She- she's gone Mel."

"W-what do y-you mean?"

"You know your mummy was sick right?" she nods her head. "And you know about Heaven and Angels right?" She nods her head once again. "Well mummy's sickness took her to be an Angel in Heaven."

"I-Is she dead?"

"I'm so sorry Melody." She starts sobbing uncontrollably into my chest. "Shh baby girl it's gonna be alright I promise." I comfort. She says nothing, but continues to cry into my chest soaking my shirt with tears. Seeing my daughter like this is just the last straw, I can't pretend to be strong anymore and tears start to leak from my eyes. "I'm so sorry Mel, so so sorry."

---

"Hey Michael, um I was just, uh since we haven't told Melody she'll be living with you yet..." Halley trails off.

"Halley, I'm confused." I say.

"I was just wondering d-do you want to stay at my place you know because Melody and all?"

I smirk. "I think Melody should probably start getting used to living with me."

"Um, but she's already been through a lot today a-and I-I don't really w-want to be alone I mean... I don't know."

"Yeah Halley I get it, that sounds nice I'll follow you there yeah?"

"Thanks Michael."

"It's no problem Halley."

"I have a car seat for Melody if you want she can ride with me." Halley offers.

"Nah it'll be alright, thanks though."

"Okay." I pick up my sleeping daughter off the chair and carry her to my black range rover, I open the door and buckle her into the backseat being careful not to wake her.

"I'm in the blue escape." Halley informs me before I get into the drivers seat.

"Alright," I follow Halley out of the parking lot down tons of roads into a nice cul-de-sac of apartments, Halley pulls into one of the empty spots in front of one of the tan apartment buildings. I pull into the spot next to her and step out of my car walking around to get Melody out of the car. I follow Halley to the apartment numbered 604, she unlocks the maroon colored door pushing it open revealing a nice sized apartment. The living room has white walls, tan carpets, and is furnished with a black couch that forms an 'L' shape that faces the fire place, above the fireplace is a flat screen TV, and beside the fireplace on both sides are two lamps. And down a narrow hall to the right is the kitchen furnished with all steel appliances and black cabinets, to the left there is a stair case that leads up the stairs.

"This is a nice place Halley."

"Thanks. The bedrooms are up here, follow me." She says walking up the stairs. At the top of the stairs there are four doors all of which are white. "This is a closet, if you need a towel or extra blankets they are in here." she says pointing to the first door on the left. "This is the bathroom." she now points to the door on the right. "This is my bedroom and this is the guest dash Melody's room."

Halley opens the door on the left revealing a white room with a queen size bed in the middle, the bed is covered in a pink comforter with a rainbow butterfly printed in the middle, the headboard is just a collection of white metal twisted into a swirly pattern. On the tan bedside table, there is a small lamp with a white lamp shade that has pink plastic jewels hanging from it, and in the corner on a dresser that resembles the bedside table there is a TV. I place Melody down in the bed and tucking her in.

"Do you need anything?" Halley asks.

"Do you mind if I jump in the shower, I smell like hospital."

"Oh no, go ahead. I think I might have some clothes that fit you, let me go see."

"Why would you have clothes that fit me, you're so tiny?"

"I like boy clothes, I don't know, and plus if my boy clothes don't fit you, my ex's clothes will."

"Why do you still have your ex's clothes?" I ask.

"As I said I like boy clothes." she shrugs.

"You're so weird."

"Thank you, I'll be right back." She says leaving the room and heading across the room. She comes back in handing me a 'Ramones' T-shirt, some grey sweatpants and a black towel.

"Thanks Halley."

"Don't mention it Michael." Halley walks back to her room leaving the door open and the hall light on so I can see while walking around. I go into the bathroom and hop in the shower letting the warm water relax my muscles and wash off the smell and feel of hospital.

After showering and brushing my teeth with the extra toothbrush and miniature toothpaste Halley handed me when she handed me the clothes, I walk back into the guest room and climb in under the duvet. I pull my daughter close to my chest, listening to her slow, steady breathing. I think about how this is going to work and honestly I have no idea, but I'm going to make it work for the sake of my daughter. I'm going to make this work. After hours of deep thinking, I finally drift of to sleep with my baby girl wrapped in my arms.

Dedicated to @TheRealGoodGirls because her writing gives me feels and I don't know its just awesome! If you haven't read her books you really really should!!