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Halley...

Bad things bring people pleasure all the time; sex, drugs, hurting yourself, hurting others, and damn kissing Michael is my guilty pleasure. I know it's wrong to kiss my best friend's boyfriend, ex-boyfriend, baby daddy, what ever you want to call him, but man it just feels good and I don't want it to stop.

I never thought I would even want to be close enough to Michael to kiss him let alone be making out with him. I thought we would always just be enemies, and even if we did up kissing I at least thought it would be bad, but I was wrong. Michael is a damn good kisser. Not at all how I imagined. I always thought that Michael would be a terrible kisser; I felt like he would shove his tongue down your throat and drool on you as he groped your boobs, but I was wrong. He kisses slow and rough, using tongue but not choking me with it, and he holds my hips not my ass.

He pulls me close and runs his fingers through my hair and continues to kiss me slowly. He pushes me against the arm of the couch and begins to kiss my neck and I lean my head back. After he's done with my neck he goes back to my lips and I can feel the hickey forming near my collar bone, but as he scoots closer to me I realize that bad things, no matter how good they feel, are still bad.
And the more heated the kiss becomes, the more I realize that Michael is not the person I want to be doing anything like this with. I have no romantic feelings for Michael, I never have. If you can make it through your hormonal high school years without falling for your best friend you pretty much know; he's not the "one". As this realization hits me I push Michael away with more force then I intended. "Stop," I breathe. "please."

"Halley what's wrong? Did I do something?" Michael asks scooting close to me again and putting his hand on my cheek.

"No you didn't do anything it's just this can't happen." I explain briefly.

"What can't happen?" He questions.

"This. Us. We can't happen." I stutter pushing his hand off my cheek.

"What why? What's wrong with this? Did I do something, look Halley whatever it is I'm really sorry."

"Mikey you didn't do anything wrong, actually you did everything perfectly-"

"Then what? Why can't we be a thing Halley? We would be perfect together, we are meant to be together it's obvious. The enemies that fall in love over a tragic death that sounds just like a fairytale out of the books." he interrupts. "Look Halley I don't know why, but for the last few months I've been having feelings for you and I can't help but want you so fucking much. I think-I think I-I love you." He adds and leans in again placing his lips on mine.

"Stop Michael gosh damn it!" I shriek shoving him away and jumping off the couch. "This can't happen!"

"Why Halley?! Give me one good reason why we can't happen?!" He snaps also standing from the sofa.

"I..." I trail off not really wanting to tell him the reason why I don't want to be with him.

"Do you even have a valid reason Halley?!" He spits.

"I do I just...."

"You just what?! Spit it out Halley!" He yells anger clear on his face and I totally understand where he's coming from, I've been there before. Rejection makes you angry and sad, it's one of the worst feelings in the world; being told no sucks and it sucks even worse when the person rejecting you doesn't have a reason for it.

"I'm in love with your bandmate ok?! Are you happy now?!" I snap back the anger in his eyes soon deflating and changing into sadness.

"W-what?" He chokes.

"Michael I'm sorry I really am, but over the course of the last few months I've fallen in love with your bandmate and I just don't have those type of feelings for you." I say reaching out I touch his shoulder but he pushes it away.

"Get out." He orders calmly all trace of emotion washed off his face.

"Michael-"

"I said get out!" He spits. I flinch back and makes my way towards the door.

"Goodbye Michael."

"Good riddance Halley."

Michael...

Ow ow ow. That hurt and it isn't even a physical pain which sucks because you can't just put a bandaid on your heart and call it a day. It sucks when the person you thought you were in love with tells you she's in love with your bandmate. How did that even happen? And which bandmate?

"Calum you bastard! You lied, you fucking lied to me you were seeing Halley behind my back how could you?! She was trying to take my kid away Cal! What kind of a friend goes and dates the chick trying to ruin your life?!" I yell as soon as I push his door open.

"W-wha- where did you hear that?" He stutters.

"Halley fucking told me she fell in love with one of my bandmates and you're the only one that even makes since!" I yell flailing my arms everywhere for dramatic effect.

"Sh-she said she loved me?"

"Did I fucking stutter?! Yes she said she loved you!"

"Michael calm down." Calum says standing up from his bed.

"Don't tell me to calm down! How do you expect me to calm down when my best friend is dating my enemy?!" I scream.

"We aren't dating anymore Michael there is no need to throw a shit fit." Calum says.

"What?" I ask my anger cooling slowly. I'm still mad do not get me wrong I mean he did date the chick that was trying to ruin my life , but I could see the sadness in his eyes and he is still my brother.

"We- I- she- we aren't together. We never were, she didn't want to be my girlfriend." he finished with his head down and fidgeting his fingers.

"Whatever Cal I don't care, I can't believe you would do that to me I told you that was not ok. You knew that was a total betrayal to me Calum how could you do shit like that?!" I begin to become angry again.

"I'm sorry Michael, but you can't tell me who I can and can't date." he added and crossed his hand over his chest.

"What did you just say?" I question not believing the attitude he's giving me. Damn I sound like his dad.

"You heard me."

"Whatever Calum be a douche I don't care, but just let me tell you Halley will break your heart. She isn't a good person to date, she's broken as fuck and a bitch so when she breaks your heart don't you dare come crying to me." I snap and walk out of his room making sure to slam the door.

What an asshole. What kind of a friend does that? Not a good one I can tell you that. How can someone I consider a brother betray me like that?

"Ash can I come in?" I ask knocking on his door.

"What's up Michael?" He questions and looks up at me and away from his phone.

"I need some advice." I say and walk into his room sitting criss-cross on his bed.

"Shoot."

"Ok well you know that girl Calum's been seeing yeah well her name isn't Annaleigh or whatever he said, it's Halley. All those times he went on dates and came home late he was with Halley. The whole time she was trying to take Melody away from me Calum was kissing her and shit. He's probably where he got all her information. So what do I do now should I be mad or is it whatever, I'm so confused?" I explain sighing when I finally finish.

"Wow, I don't know dude that's rough. I mean that was kind of a douche move on Cal's part, but you are like brothers. I mean I would just let it blow over if I were you." Ash says.

"Thanks Ash oh and I have some good new, Halley dropped the charges so Melody's all mine again."

"That's great!" Ashton cheers. "Congrats dude."

Calum... (Look at that another point of view that's the first time I've done that)

Halley loves me. Halley loves me. No Michael must have heard wrong Halley doesn't love me, Halley isn't capable of loving.

But what if he didn't hear wrong? What if Halley does love me? Fuck, how am I supposed to know? And do I even love her? I mean I feel like I do, I really really like her a lot and I can see myself with her.

I can see snuggling with her on the couch and watching a movie on a cold winter night, or going out to dinner for our one year anniversary. I can see us making out in the front of the movie theater just to piss off the other couples and holding hands while walking through the town. I can see her comforting me when I miss home of get hate and I can see myself trying to make her smile when she's sad and bringing her chocolate while she's on her period. I can see us holding our baby girl for the first time and watching her graduate. I can see a life with her.

Fuck it I'm in love and it's damn obvious.

But there's a problem; I went and fucked everything up. She tried to apologize to me and I told her that I couldn't be with her. Wow Cal I didn't think you could be that stupid. You should have fought for her. Why the hell didn't you fight for her? What the fuck Calum? I have to fix this.

When someone knocks on your door at two in the morning you are freaked out, but most people do not open the door with a gun. Guess what Halley does. The second the door swung open there was a black hand gun pointed directly at my head.

"Calum what the hell are you doing here at three in the damn morning?" She asks putting the gun down on a table by the door and wiping her eyes.

"I came to apologize." I say.

"What for? You have nothing to apologize for Cal you didn't do anything."

I take a deep breath preparing for the speech in about to give. "Look Halley Michael told me what you said and I love you too. I love you so much and I didn't realize how much I loved you until a few hours ago when Michael tried to take you away from me. I can see us together for the rest of our lives and I like that idea.

And I know I fucked up and I left you, but Halley please forgive me. I can't promise that everything will be perfect or I won't leave, but I can promise that I will try my hardest to never ever hurt you and I will love you with all my heart and yes this sounds like the most fucking cliche thing ever and it kind of sounds like I'm asking for you to marry me, but all I'm asking is for you to give me another chance. Please Halley.

I know this is hard for you and if you need some time-"

She cuts me off by placing her lips on mine quickly and hungrily immediately wrapping her hands around my neck and playing with my hair. "Gosh I love you. I love you so damn much." she says into my lips.

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