Levi......

help me..

i don't wanna die yet

i wake up with a shocked expression breathing heavier than ever. this wasn't the first time i heard that voice... and it won't be the last

it's 2am, Steem is still asleep, and i should be too... But i can't... not after hearing her... 

"sleep" he says over my shoulder to my ear "why are you in my bed?" i turn around to see his face "i was cold, and you're warmmm..." he nuzzles up in my chest, i stroke his cheek with the back of my hand, "you are strangely clingy" i mock him "maybe that's because my boyfriend's safe and doesn't do shit that will get him killed"
"well maybe your boyfriend just wants to live a normal life without being a noble"
he stands up from the bed "YOU'RE KIDDING RIGHT?!" he yells confused
"why would i be?" i look at the wrinkle on his nose "Levi...i know that you are tired of being associated with your mother, but the city still needs an emperor.." he puts his hand on my shoulder "..you don't get it...i wanna run away, i wanna live with you in a cottage with you adopt a kid or something" i say sitting on the bed holding my face in my hands "Levi..." he hugs me "...i want you to be happy" he says "so once i have a kid i can-" "once WE have a kid" "once WE have a kid i can tell him 'listen Noah'" "no not Noah" "ok...listen Brennon... once you'll grow up you'll be free as me and your dad...and you will do whatever you want" i get out a sentence "Steem are you crying?" i hold him in my arms "i want a free life alreadyyyyyy" he says crying in my lap "just wait..."