Lances POV (tw: mentions of assault and rape. I'm sorry....not really. It's kinda a vent as well so if it triggers you plz be safe and don't read. Love y'all my cubs)
    As I walked to my room. I felt my chest starting to ache. I needed to get my binder off. I hurried my walk as I tried not to run. I got to my room and quickly stripped of my shirt. I pulled on the Velcro until I heard the sound of it coming off. As it loosened it felt like a thirty ton brick was lifted off of me. I took it off and put my sports bra on. I hated this body. When we went to the space mall there was a place for surgery and they said they could do my top surgery! I was so happy. I leave in a few days to go get it. Then maybe I can be more confident. I was breathing heavily and laying on my bed. There was a knock at the door. I huffed and got up. I opened the door.
"What?" I snared tiredly. Keith was ready to yell back but he just stared at me. He was looking down....I looked down. My boobs were only in my bra. I slammed the door and started sobbing. I let myself sink to the floor and scream. Keith started pounding in the door.
  "Lance open up! Please!! I won't tell anyone please let me help you!" He yelled slightly muffled and desperate. I was still crying but I slowly crawled over to the door and hit the button to open it. It slid open and Keith rushed in. He looked for me and found me just sitting in the floor staring blankly and sobbing. I felt nothing. He slowly picked me up and took me to my bed. He carefully set me down like I was made of glass. In a way, in that moment, I was. Keith looked at me.
"Hey it's ok look at me hun" he spoke softly and cupped my cheek and stroked it with his thumb. I looked at him confused.
"Why why don't you hate me? Why don't you assault me? Why don't you take advantage of me?......please just get it over with if you are. They always took so long before they would finish. They loved to call me a girl. They knew I was a boy! Yet they'd always grab me, cat call me, even call me my dead name..." I coward to the corner of my room and tried to cover myself. Keith looked at me with tears in his eyes and gently put his hands on the bed. I flinched when he moved. He looked hurt.
"Hey I'm gonna pull you into my arms that ok?" He spoke softly and gently. I stared and slowly nodded. He moved slowly afraid to startle me. I watched his hands come closer and I felt my breath start to speed up.
        All I saw was my uncle. His smile....feeling his dirty dirty hands on me. My cries of help to my father who would just watch and get himself off.....onto me. All they did was grab me. I saw my uncle over me and me sobbing as he violated me. He'd cry out my old name. I hear his voice calling me a good girl.
"Ance!....Lance baby!" I snapped back to reality and Keith was further away and he had his hands where I could see them lowered on the floor in a submissive way. I moved my arm and saw blood. I grabbed my arms too hard. They throbbed as I felt my body shaking with sobs. Keith looked at me and he was crying. His pale cheeks tinted with pink and tears. I reached for him.
      "Keith I'm sorry please!" I fell onto my chest and curled up and cried harder. I heard shuffling and tensed up when Keith's hand touched my bleeding arm. His hands were warm and soft. Not like his. I cried in relief. I pulled him closer. He cried as well. I saw him take off his jacket and out of pocket he pulled out gauze and hospital tape. He patched me up and leaned down and kissed it. He then put his jacket over me. He wrapped his arms around me and placed his forehead on mine. 

     "I wont let anyone hurt you again or touch you. I promise you." Keith whispered into my hair.  My breathing sped up again in disbelief. 

"I'm sorry you have to have gone through that. You don't deserve this. Baby look at me. I need you to calm down and breathe baby." Keith's hands came up to my face gently and guided it too look at him. His eyes were softly looking at me and he let one hand go and grabbed on of my hands. 

"Listen to my heartbeat baby. Take deep breathes to it ok?-" He placed my hand onto his heart. It felt soft and prominent under my palms. I felt his heartbeat inside me. "-You are ok and they wont hurt you. They aren't gonna hurt or are they here. Its just you and I I won't hurt you. I will give my life to save you." Keith's eyes began to water. My breathing at this point had slowed down. I scooted closer to him and rested my head in the crook in his neck. His hand wrapped around my back and pulled me tightly in. 

"Keith....." I croaked out.

"Yes baby?" He responded lightly. 

"Thank you, I love you." I chocked out. Keith seemed to freeze and i started to panic more.

"I...I love you too Lance. God i love you so goddamn much" Keith kissed my shoulder. 

"this ok?" His tone was sincere. I nodded. I let myself scoot up a bit and i looked at him. I leaned in a bit closer and hesitated at his lips. He closed the distance, his warm lips against mine. I felt myself relax into his hold. I pulled back and looked into his eyes and sighed. 

"what?" He sounded confused. I giggled slightly. 

"You are cute." I replied. I kissed his cheek. His face reddened. I giggled more.

"No i'm not cute. You are adorable-kiss-beautiful-kiss-handsome-kiss-and god you are sexy" He gave me a long rough kiss. I maned slightly into it. He pulled back and smirked. My face went red. 

"what?" I sassed. He laughed.

"You are  such a bottom." He sassed back. 

"well its not my fault I like to dream about you dicking me down-I mean....ummm" He went red. My face deepened with its shade of red. His eyebrow cocked as i saw his smirk grow. 

"Oh? really?" He pulled me closer. Then stopped. 

"I don't wanna trigger a ptsd attack." He sounded worried.

"It only gets triggered if you tie me up, degrade me, hit me, and overstimulate me. I can still handle sex i just prefer it to be slow and loving." I told him. He nodded.

"i would like to get there though" I looked at Keiths face to see his reaction.

"And we can and will someday. Don't push yourself." He kissed my eyes. 

"How about we go to bed my prince and cuddle?" He snuggled into my neck

"Hmmmm that sounds amazing" I responded. He pilled me down and pulled me close. He kissed my head. As i closed my eyes i felt Keith kiss my eyes. I smiled, i will be ok. It will be a hard journey but i can do this. I have Keith by my side.

Hey guys! I know i've been gone for a long time sorry for that. Im currently in quarantine with my family so expect a lot of angst and fluff ill even do smut! i will take ideas just send me a massage! with the ship and all that! Thank you my cubs! (1317 words)